Book 2, Chapter 11 -- Rescue Me
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"Are you both settling in okay?" I asked.
"My quarters meet my requirements, Shepard," Thane replied, "I do not require much comfort otherwise. A soft mat for meditation is all that I need."
"And you still feel fit enough to assist?"
He nodded his head, the flicker of a grin. "Your concern is admirable, Shepard, and I do thank you for it. But I would not have accepted your offer if I did not deem myself capable of performing to how I would expect of myself."
"Great. And you, Samara?"
"While I did not expect to ever fly aboard a vessel bedecked in the colours and symbol of an avowed enemy of the Council, I am pleased to see that many of the humans on board do not match the stereotype of what I had expected of a human centric organisation."
"And do you have everything you require?"
"I am comfortable, Shepard. All I need is a place to lay my head at night and a quiet place to meditate. Thane has already joined me during our brief time together on the ship."
"It brings harmony of mind, body and soul, Justicar."
"Indeed it does." She looked back at me. "Suffice to say, I believe we are both well, Shepard. Thank you for asking."
"Good. Glad to hear. You need anything, just shout and I'll see what I can do." Both looked confused a moment before realising the human idiom.
"Shepard, if I may broach one subject, in private?" Thane took that as a cue to leave, dipping his head in respect towards both of us before leaving the lounge, leaving me across from Samara. I had a feeling I already knew what this would be about, but I let her start. "I do not mean to cause embarrassment, Shepard, but I feel I must say this before we go further."
"Sure, Samara. No problem."
"I will admit I do not know you well. However, suffice to say, I have learned of your reputation as a... I believe the term is ladies' man. Would that be correct?"
"In a manner of speaking."
"I can admit I already understand why many women may flock to your bedside, Shepard. It is not just your deeds. Already I have seen the strength of your character and force of personality, and that's ignoring your physical attributes. However, I am a Justicar and... I cannot be another of your conquests, Shepard, to put it as bluntly as possible. I took a vow of celibacy and no-one, not even you, can make me break that vow."
"I would never expect that, Samara."
"I know that already, but I felt it necessary to vocalise my thoughts, just so we know where we each stand. I will stand by your side until the Collectors are defeated. I will offer you advice whenever you need it. I will protect you with my life as I know you will protect mine with yours. I hope, by the end of this, I can consider you a close friend, forged in the arena of war. But that is all we will ever be."
"Thank you, Samara."
"For what?" she asked, sounding surprised.
"For being honest. I know nothing of your order, and you've just given me a tiny insight. You gave up everything correct? Material possessions but also the idea of... love? Intimacy?"
"In a manner of speaking. I can still feel great love but that is all. I now live by the Code."
"I certainly expect nothing from any woman I meet except friendship. If it develops naturally from there, then I certainly appreciate that fact. But I never expect something to happen. Now that I know where each of us stands, I can only echo your hopes and feelings, Samara. By the end of this, I hope to consider you as close a friend as I consider many others I have fought alongside."
She dipped her head in respect. "Another reason why you have developed such a reputation, Shepard. I am eager to see how we progress in the coming weeks."
"This is still just the beginning. We haven't even really begun yet."
I left Samara to her meditations, heading out into the mess to grab a bottle of water, looking around and walking into the med-bay. Chakwas was pleased to see me, gesturing immediately to her seat. Once I'd sat down, she simply said, "Thank you, Commander."
"Shepard, Doc. I'm no longer of that rank."
"You still command this vessel, Commander. But I understand why."
"Why the thank you?"
"For the bottle of brandy. I know I told you about it but I didn't think you'd actually buy me one."
"Of course I would. I look after my friend's."
"We'll have to have a drink one day."
"Definitely. Once we've recruited Tali, we'll spend a night together drinking."
Something in her eyes sparkled. I remembered her affection for me during Saren, but neither of us had made a move to be anything more than friends. I certainly had affection for her. She was a lovely woman and I enjoyed our constant conversations. But I didn't think she wanted anything more than a friend, so I didn't push it. "Well, that will give me something to look forward to, Shepard. Did you need anything else?"
"No, just wondering if there's anything I need to be concerned about?"
"Your injuries have clearly healed, so you're fine. Our recruits are all fit and healthy. No, I think I can claim that the entire ship is running smoothly in regards to their health."
"Well, who can't help but be pleased by that."
"I'll let you know if anything major does happen, but that will likely only be due to action off the ship."
"I can't help it if bad people want to shoot me constantly," I stated, rising to my feet, "But it seems to be a habit nowadays."