Elizabeth Hurley didn't know if it was professional or not, but her mood always went hand in hand with her performance. No, she didn't feel sad when she performed a sad scene or happy when she was in a sex scene--she wasn't
that
pathetic. But when she was acting at the top of her ability, making the stage crew cry, giving the director material he wouldn't edit out for love or money, she was on cloud nine.
And when she fell short of that, when she knew she could do better but somehow
didn't...
well, then she felt as she did now. Depressed and worthless.
She lived to be acting and now a whole day of filming was down the drain; she just knew they'd come back to the scene in reshoots, purely because of her lackluster performance. And she should've been fine! It was a real movie, with real actors.
She
was the spanner in the works and for the most petty of reasons.
Elizabeth had told herself she'd made peace with the march of years. She was fifty-seven years old, which was a blessing in itself, but she'd aged so gracefully she easily could've passed for a woman half her age. But that simply wasn't in the cards. Men could no longer get away with May-December romances, so no one wanted to ignite a hypocritical firestorm of a middle-aged... nigh elderly... woman being paired with a younger man.
So she was now old enough to play
mothers.
And not the struggling, single mother who met a man and had him step in as a surrogate father to her infant-toddler-adolescent child because they were both just so young. A
mother
mother. With an adult son. Just like in real life.
It was all
too
real. Her acting life had been a fantasy life for a long time--playing the sexpot and temptress that she only rarely was in real life--and now, age was catching up with her both in reality and fiction. She'd accepted that. She
had.
But performing a scene with Ridley Stokes, it had all come crashing in on her. She wasn't a woman anymore. She was a mother. An
old lady.
Ridley Stokes was the
male lead--
the man who romanced the female lead, i.e., not her. She was a supporting character. His mother. Merciless math made it plausible. Even though every atom in her body screamed that her rightful place was to be the desirable love interest he ended up kissing and caressing, she was relegated to Giving Advice. Significant Looks.
Hugs.
God, what she wouldn't give to be twenty years younger... God,
more
than twenty years. Ridley was only twenty-four.
He was one of those acting prodigies who'd had an honest-to-God
career
when he was fourteen, doing Spielberg movies and getting Oscar buzz. He'd aged wonderfully. As a young adult, you'd think he was one of those models that went into acting. He had a dashing mane of blond hair, piercing blue eyes, a jaw as square as a cliff--abs that Elizabeth didn't even want to
think about,
because they'd make it impossible to get into character as a blood relative.
And he was good at acting. Damned
irritatingly
good, not even as old as Elizabeth's