My name is Gwen Stacy. You might know me as Spider Gwen or Ghost Spider. You guys can just call me Gwen.
You've read about my world and my high school boyfriend in your comics. You've got your canon. But that's just fiction. Story books. Fairy Tales. Shit some hobgoblin made up while beating off into a well-worn sock.
The truth is I'm not attracted to boys. I love girls. Always have. Always will.
And I don't need to wear the mask while visiting the 616. I can just exist here, go to school here. Be normal. Not feel the weight of the world on my shoulders (that's my world, Earth-65). I want to live in the moment. To be at peace with who I am.
And I like your world. It's safer for me here. I can be myself without worrying about a monster coming after me. Which is why I want to tell you this truth. My truth. To set the story straight. Or, more accurately, to set the story gay.
I am gay.
Shocking, I know.
But it's the truth.
Back on Earth-65, I'm always fighting. It's not just monsters I fight, but those fairy tales you read. Your canon. Those stories about me that aren't true.
I want the world to know the real me.
I want to experience love with someone that knows me only as Gwen. I want to tear the Ghost mask off. And I'm not just talking about the hood.
I want to experience love without judgment. I want to experience love with Eve.
Eve is my friend from school. You might know her. Black hair, dark skin, a killer smile. Strong, passionate, funny, Eve.
She's at this greasy spoon called Stews & Sammies waiting for me. I asked her to meet me there at 5 p.m. today. We've been on each other's radar lately. Little nods, smiles, flirtations. I'm sure she's into me like I am her. I love her style, her sexy brain, the way she makes me feel like I exist only for her.
You have no idea how long I've wanted to find someone that made me feel special. I'm so busy saving people on Earth-65. It's exhausting. Don't get me wrong. I love helping people. I was given these abilities for a reason. To help those that need me. But I have needs as well. I want to be special to someone and not because I shoot webs out of my wrists or wear a hood. Although, to be fair, my disguise is lit.
Eve makes me feel special. She's attentive. She looks me in the eyes when we talk. She listens to me. She sees me. Not as Ghost Spider or Spider Gwen. Just Gwen.
I digress. Back to my date.
I needed time to get ready after school, so I ran home, reminding myself not to use my spider gifts to get my there faster. I am fast with my groom game as well, but tonight I wanted to be extra clean. You never know where the night might lead! I took a hot, relaxing bath, exfoliating my skin with my favorite loofa and a bar of oatmeal soap. I soaked. I clipped. I shaved. I pruned. Rinse, repeat.
I checked the clock.
4:15. I got just enough time. No need to rush.
I applied a smooth vanilla lotion to my skin, a light moisturizer on my face and a touch of eye makeup. I applied my Gentle Breeze deodorant liberally and then I checked myself in the mirror. My hair was fire with that blonde wave I like so much. I admired my perky breasts and dark nipples in the mirror. They go well with my light complexion. My back is ripped from slinging my way through the streets of New York on spider spooge all day long. It helps that I don't have huge breasts, although you'd be surprised at their size, given my slender frame. My legs are slender and well defined. My thighs are strong. Gotta be if with all the jumping I do. And I've got a killer backside.
I put on a pink sweatshirt over a blue t-shirt and no bra. I like to be reminded of my body while hiding under all these clothes. I'd be naked 24/7 if it were possible.
I slipped on a pair of hip hugging black slacks and my red Converse. A careful brush of my teeth with lots of foamy mint toothpaste and one more check in the mirror. I'd fan girl out at myself if I could.
I put a bottle of water in my brown book bag, and was out the door in a whirl.
I forced myself to walk slowly to the diner, allowing my nerves to settle. I see Eve all the time in school, but this was different. This felt like a date. And I don't date much.