Disclaimer: I don't own the Dukes of Hazzard, not making any money, just cheap thrills.
Warnings: Slash, Incest, Angst, Graphic sex
Rating: FRM
Italics and/or * indicates thoughts
Bold text and/or ( ) indicates Bo's pov, regular text indicates Luke's pov.
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By Saturday night, I had moved into the cabin at the old still site. Wanting Bo to understand that I intended to come back, I only took as much as I would need, leaving most of my belongings at the farm. Turning away from making the bed, I saw Bo standing in the doorway looking lost. "Bo, please don't look at me like that. It's not forever," I reminded him, as he stepped over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist.
( "I know Luke, I just...I'm trying to understand. " I stood there wishing I could explain my feelings better. "I want you to do whatever you need to, but I'm gonna miss being held every night.")
"And I'm gonna miss holding you, but I need to do this Bo. The other night when Jesse caught us, my first instinct was to run to the club. I know I resisted the urge to go inside, and that's a real good thing. The problem is, it made me realize that I've become dependent on you. The only thing that kept me from going inside that night was the thought of betraying you."
("I don't understand Luke, why is that a bad thing?" I asked, still confused by Luke's reasoning.)
"It's not that it's a bad thing darlin," I softly answered. "Come 'ere," I said, pulling Bo towards the bed and pushing him down onto the edge. Sitting down beside my cousin, I reached out with one hand to caress my lover's face. "I don't want you to think that I feel like loving you is a bad thing, and I'm grateful that thoughts of you kept me from making a big mistake. The problem is, I don't ever want my love for you to become the kind of need I have for the things that happened in that club. I'm not explaining this very well, am I?" I asked, seeing the confused look on Bo's face. "Okay, Bo if you're the only thing keeping me from going back to that club, what happens to me if our relationship ends?"
"That ain't gonna happen Luke," Bo stated with conviction, his sureness touching, if a bit naive.
"You don't know that Bo, the future ain't written in stone ya know. I'm thinking about you too. Bo, I need to know that I can resist the urge to go back to the clubs, for the right reasons. I need to know that I'll stay away because I know it's not healthy for me, that's why I need this time alone. But there's another reason for this, I don't want you to feel like you can't end this because you're afraid I'll go back to that sickness. The only way I can see to make sure that our relationship is sitting on a solid foundation, is to prove to myself and you that.... No matter how much I love you, and never doubt that I do, I can function and be healthy without you."
("I guess that makes sense," I softly said. Leaning my head against Luke's shoulder, I sighed, hoping Luke would say yes. "Luke, I ain't arguing with you, in fact I admire you for having the strength to do this, but...could I stay here tonight? Please.")
"I kind of figured you'd want to, that's why I told Uncle Jesse not to expect you home," I answered. When Bo raised his head with a jerk and looked at me in surprise, I couldn't help the teasing grin that crossed my face. "What? You think I've been around you all your life and ain't learned how to read you?"
( "I love you," I whispered. Leaning in for a gentle kiss, I felt like a schoolkid as my lips brushed across Luke's. Within seconds, the gentle kiss began to turn more passionate as I ran my tongue across Luke's lips, silently asking for entrance. As the lips beneath mine parted, I sensously began to explore my lover's mouth with my tongue, moaning with pleasure as Luke used his own tongue to explore my mouth. Lying back on the bed, I pulled Luke with me. As I continued to kiss my cousin, I began to open Luke's shirt, slowly running my hands across his chest. Stopping to tweak the small brown nubs, I felt myself growing hard at the sounds coming from Luke's throat. Moaning myself in response, I broke the kiss. Moving to my cousin's neck, I began to lightly nip at the skin above the pulse point. With a slowness that was torture in itself, I gradually kissed and nibbled my way down Luke's body. As I paid attention to my lover's chest with my lips, my hands were busy freeing him of his jeans. Groaning with need at the feel of my lover's cock beneath my hand, I began to kiss my way down the hard body beside me. Stopping when I reached the hard cock, I licked my lips in anticipation at the drop of pre-cum glistening on the head of Luke's cock. "Luke, tell me what you want," I whispered huskily.)
"You know what I want Bo," I responed, confused by Bo's request.