[
Setting the scene:
the events of this chapter take place before the arrival of Gandalf, Aragorn, and Gimli.]
23 February 3019 (Third Age), Edoras
It was the ache in her hand that she felt first. Dangling over the edge of the bed, unsupported through hours of motionless sleep, its tendons and muscles were paralyzed by stiffness, her fingers still curled around a long-absent shaft. Unbending them was a long, slow process accompanied by tooth-grinding pain.
Her other hand couldn't move at all, for it remained fastened to a bedpost. Her lips were dry and sore. Her legs splayed wide, still strapped to the corners of her bed, and though her sex had closed back to its usual narrow seam, deep inside she felt the bruising aftermath of many rough finger-thrusts. Her thighs and buttocks were sticky with dried effluvia. Worst of all were her breasts, covered in a disgusting crust of....
No. I can't bear to relive it.
She stared at the ceiling, numb. Her soul felt as filthy as her body. She was used. Violated. Unclean. Ruined.
After many minutes of silent despair, she sighed and began the slow work of freeing her immobilized limbs.
<<<<<<<>>>>>>>
Scalding water coursed down her chest. She'd long since scrubbed the vile remnants of Wormtongue's seed from her skin, but no matter how frequently she rasped her flesh with abrasives, no matter how many times she heated basins of bathwater to a boil and rinsed herself with the steaming liquid, she couldn't help but feel that it lingered and clung.
I'd better stop before I start losing skin. Anyway, my poor breasts have already taken more than enough abuse.
She gently swabbed the area between her thighs, and in an instant her arousal came alive.
Please,
please
not now!
She allowed herself a few tentative rubs, then forcefully shunted away the urge. The need to cleanse herself internally forced her to briefly quest inside her channel, and to her dismay her sex ignored her determination and tingled with excitement and expectation.
Cleansing turned to exploratory caresses, caresses to confident massaging, massaging to resigned capitulation. But it was of no use; her fingering brought plenty of pleasure but no release. Eventually, the water grew tepid and she stepped from the bath, her wet golden locks draping over the curves and valleys of her slender body while she stared blankly at the wall.
After a while, she sullenly wrapped herself in cottons and returned to her bed, shivering. A cold dawn had arrived while she dallied in the bath, and she needed to dress for an appearance before King ThΓ©oden, but she was drained of motivation and distracted by arousal.
Apparently there's some sort of controversy involving my brother Γomer, and someone will have to take his side...a responsibility that falls to me. He's ever at odds with the King and Council these days, and even I doubt that Wormtongue is the sole source of his conflict. The reason for, yes, but my brother falls into his snares as easily as I. Perhaps we're both ruled...or overruled...by our passions.
Neither the cold nor her responsibilities could erase the persistent yearning in her loins. Her attempts to fight it off or ignore it had proven useless, yet time was passing all too quickly. She'd either need to achieve satisfaction right now or suffer through hours of low-level arousal in the presence of the King and his counselors.
Even after a rapid-fire onslaught of new and unwanted experiences, even without the restoration of a good night's sleep after hours of outrageous assault, I'm still consumed by inconsolable erotic craving. I remain utterly repulsed by what was done to me, and yet I'm horny. I disgust myself.
With sudden decision she flung her wrappings aside, stroking and probing as efficiently as possible. One hand tweaked her soft breast, fingers worrying a swollen nipple. The other gently circled her clit, dipping a finger just inside. Her pleasure grew, but plateaued well short of her goal, and no amount of surface rubbing could coax it along. She closed her eyes and imagined strong, masculine hands doing the touching, but while she felt a mild swell in her heart, her sexual arousal barely increased. She cycled through favored fantasy partners, consciously avoiding any from Gondor lest they remind her of Wormtongue's tricks, but none of her personal gallery of images sufficed. In frustration she abraded herself harder and faster, and while this
did
measurably increase her pleasure, climax remained elusive.
Abandoning her nipple, she moved a second hand to her sex and roughly spread her slippery labia. Plunging two fingers as deep inside as she could manage β she was lubricated enough to accept the penetration in one swift motion β she tried to imagine
taking
herself as aggressively as a partner might. (
Which
partner was a question she deliberately avoided considering.) The effect was immediate, and her hips rolled with excitement, but once again an unsatisfying plateau was reached.
A third finger intruded, immediately followed by dismay at how easily her scarcely broached womanhood was accepting such ever-deeper, ever-wider intrusions.
But I don't have time to dwell on that now. I need to come. I'm incapable of starting my day without doing so. How have I arrived at this?
And then, a
fourth
finger. In no sense under her conscious control, but simply willed inward by her greedy sex, it easily slipped in right alongside the others in a moment between thrusts.
This is insanity. I've never before used, nor even remotely needed, this much of a physical presence inside me to reach orgasm.
Though it wasn't the widest she'd been stretched of late, for her fingers were long, thin, and graceful in comparison to...to....
No, I
still