Chapter 30 -- Blowback
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After the excitement of learning about being Dragonborn, climbing the mountain to High Hrothgar, then battling against another dragon outside Kynesgrove, returning to work as a Companion was a slight comedown. Not that it didn't provide plenty of excitement, but in the back of my mind all the time was the dragon issue.
But I kept my mind occupied by continuing our personal war against the Silver Hand. Aela still had all the information we'd gathered, and after explaining to Lydia what we were doing, she was happy to help out. There was one particular reason why. She got me all to herself. I found no reason to complain, as she'd already proven very delightful company.
Our first mission was a Silver Hand camp to the north, more than a day's ride, meaning we had to camp out. We behaved ourselves that first night, spending our time around the campfire talking. She asked plenty of questions about my life, and once assured that she wouldn't judge me, at least too harshly, I gave her the unfiltered truth.
"Are you still the master?" she asked.
"No. I have nothing to do with the Thieves Guild any longer. But I put them on a better path. Yes, they are still thieves, but there is now an honour to what they do."
"And the other thing?"
"I don't regret it for a moment because I got to spend all that time with Astrid. And it led me all the way to this night here with you."
That made her smile, at least. "You loved her?"
"I did. It was different to my wife. Very different, for a number of reasons. But we connected. However, the work I've done with the Companions, and now as the Dragonborn, means I can restore a sense of pride and honour. I've never thought of myself as a bad person, and certainly not evil, though I know I've done many dishonourable and perhaps evil things."
"What about what we're doing now?"
Aela wasn't intimate with him, but there's a burning sense of revenge for the death of Skjor. "What happened wasn't right."
"Is it possible you're going too far?"
"Possibly. We'll cross that bridge if it comes."
Taking out the camp wasn't too difficult as we agreed to infiltrate at night. We killed a couple silently but once a couple of them woke up, we just let the blood flow. Using my Thu'um wasn't practical, but it didn't particularly matter, as the Silver Hand were no match for the pair of us, surprised at how easily we adapted to fighting alongside each other.
There was little information to take back to Aela, but we'd taken out another operation, so I was happy enough with the result. Riding back to Whiterun, I realised the one secret I was keeping from Lydia was the fact we were werewolves. I'm sure there were whispers around the city but no-one would truly believe, and certainly never accuse, the Companions of being werewolves.
It was only upon returning to Breezehome that I noticed the drinking horn still sitting on top of a side cupboard. Picking it up, I said to myself, "I really should return this to the Greybeards."
"What was that?"
"Huh?"
"You're talking to yourself, my Thane."
"I just said I need to return this horn. I'm sure the Greybeards are wondering where I am."
"When would you like to leave?"
I couldn't help chuckle at her enthusiasm. "Let me have a word with Aela, as she'll want..."
"I was thinking just you and I..." I gave her a look, and her eyes said everything. "Do I need to spell it out for you why?"
"No. I'll go have a word with Aela anyway."
I found Aela in Jorrvaskr, downstairs in her old room. She was disappointed that I didn't find any more information, but rather amused when I added news about heading back to High Hrothgar. I wasn't particularly subtle when I said I'd just take Lydia this time. "She wants to fuck you without me there."
"More than likely."
"Well, I guess I can't complain. You leave me satisfied and sore most of the time, and I know she has to listen to it."
"So you don't mind?"
"Of course not. Though I'll probably just stay here and work. I can't sleep at home if you're not there."
I couldn't help smile when she called it home. "Think of it like that already?"
"Don't get me started, Ragnar, otherwise I'll break my promise and started talking about things we agreed not to talk about." She paused with a smirk before asking, "When will you go?"
"Tomorrow morning. I'm sure they're wondering where I am."
"Okay. I'll join you at home shortly. Just one or two things I need to do here first." I turned to leave when she called my name. Turning back, she walked towards and hugged me. "I love you," she said quietly.
"I love you too. But what's brought this one? Not that I'm complaining, but..."
She leaned back, another of those heart-melting smiles that I already adored. "Because although I promised not to talk about it, I do think... I think a lot."
"So do I. But I don't want to jinx things. Hopefully third time is a charm though."