Author's Note: This is a sequel series to Amy, Captured. To get the full experience, please read through that one first.
Hi fellows, new chapter and all. Very many thanks to my editing team, Allyourbase and LogicalDreamer for their input on this chapter, in addition to their support and encouragement of my writing. Also, if you like what you see, I'd appreciate any comments or votes you feel like I deserve. I thrive on your feedback, guys!
Enjoy!
*************
Kanaria was very close by. That was what mattered most.
Her shoulder rubbed against his as the ship slid into a curve, the artificial inertia causing the wall they were leaning against to tilt slightly. In some ways, Tsugi disliked the feeling of being this close to the youngest Syfte sister; even ignoring the fact that he was secretly terrified of Mara and Ren, Kana herself always made him so
goofy
. In the end, all he could count on was his wits, and when this girl was next to him he couldn't even depend on those.
Of course, those parts of him were rapidly eclipsed by the warm dumbfounded feeling she did elicit in him...
Sander had apparently wasted no expense in procuring his new ship, and Tsugi was happy that he didn't have to travel in that tiny shuttle that had docked with the
Oviroa
the first time they had met. For one, the
Gespenst
had room enough for each of the crew to take a cabin for themselves, if they wanted. Currently, he was sat on the flat, compact bed in the room Kana had claimed, legs dangling over the side in a row with hers, tapping away at a thin, light-filled tablet screen, ostensibly still working. Though Kanaria was doing the same, the objective of the exercise wasn't
really
work, not with the base and the Engine rapidly retreating through the blackness of space behind them.
No, they were absorbed in this paltry busywork to avoid talking to one another.
He tried not to shiver as she absently pressed herself closer to him, shifting position just to get comfortable. But her every touch sent a chill down his spine. If he looked down, he could see her thigh, warm and soft against his through the fabric of her dress. They were working to avoid the hard questions, like what that kiss had meant. In the silence, they could run from the hard answers.
Like, say... Had she let him kiss her as a part of some delayed reaction to being carved up by a madman? Had she simply been glad to be alive, and latching onto the nearest life-affirming thing she could get to? Or had he been so afraid of losing one of his friends that he had thrown himself at her out of some misplaced sense of affection and fear? Yes, Tsugi wasn't above questioning his
own
motives here, either. Kanaria certainly wouldn't be.
He got the sense that both of them distrusted their feelings on this, but for different reasons. From what he could remember of the stories Kana used to tell, her hesitance must be one of simple inexperience, mixed with the fact that to someone who didn't know his entire story, Tsugi could seem to be quite untrustworthy.
But his was more unsettlingly cold and analytical. He was obviously attracted to Kanaria, at least physically. That much was easy to deduce. But was he ready for that? Was
she
? How deep did his feelings go, or was it just skin deep?
What was she, to him?
And besides, was there even a point to starting anything with her, given the game they were all playing? There was no guarantee that the Doctor wouldn't find them
tomorrow
, or even a second from now. It was entirely possible that all of this would come crashing down around their ears, all because Amy was here. Like it or not, they had signed up for a war that Sander was conducting, and there was no backing out now. Who knew what the future would bring?
They only had to slip up
once
...
'Tsugi...' For a moment, it seemed like she was going to say it ahead of him, but she stopped, voice uncertain. He could see her jaw working as she bit the inside of her lip, something she tended to do while she worked. How had he even noticed that was a trend with her?
For a moment she stared up at him, eyes clouded and brows furrowed intently, before she seemed to place the thought to one side, and stood. She padded her way across the room, sliding the door closed and sealing it in place with the tiny metal latch that was used in power outages to secure free floating objects. She turned, giving him a pointed look. Tsugi decided that this was what it would look like if a teddy bear came to a decision.
'We need to talk,' She said, her voice soft and metal edged. He could still see it in her eyes, that occasional glimmer of surprise; she still hadn't gotten used to the sound of her new, artificial voice.
And just like that, the guilt hit him all at once, sliding through him like a greasy tide. He hadn't been able to protect her. For all his intellect and sarcasm, when push came to shove Tsugi Nakatsukasa hadn't been able to do
anything
.
'Yes, we do,' He sighed, closing his eyes and bringing his knees up to his chest.
'I think that... we've both been avoiding this conversation,' She began slowly, rejoining him by the bed but pointedly not sitting down. 'And I'll admit, it's been nice, pretending we had it squared away. But we don't. And it's not fair to either of us to keep pretending.'
Ugh, emotional honesty... Something Tsugi was uncomfortable with. Not that he'd been exposed to much of it; life on the Oviroa hadn't exactly been conducive to long running relationships. Perhaps that was the reason.
'Alright,' He said, trying not to sound as uncomfortable as he felt. He supposed being this nervous had to be some kind of positive, at least, 'Let's talk.'
But they didn't, not for a while at least. Tsugi had never had to lead in a conversation like this, and Kanaria seemed unwilling to. Silence was the order of the day, as Tsugi pretended to be absorbed in the workings of his palm screen, chancing only the occasional glance at the woman beside him. She had something working in her mind, he could see it in her eyes. She had always been an open book around him, like she was unaccustomed to the idea of hiding herself.
'I like you, Tsugi,' She said finally, the words expelled from her like a dam bursting. 'And I think you feel the same, given how you... when we...' She trailed off, leaving Tsugi to pick up the slack.
'When I kissed you. Yeah. I remember,' He said, finally looking her in the eye. Time to act like an adult, although he feared he had paused slightly too long, giving Kana a vaguely crestfallen look, 'And yeah, I... I agree with you.'
Again a moment of silence, this one substantially lighter than the one previous. This time she smiled, as Tsugi turned his eyes to the ceiling. Frankly, he felt a little disgusted with himself; this level of nervousness was simply unbecoming, especially given that Kanaria was the source. He had never met a person more unassuming and unthreatening than her.
'So... What do we do about it?' He added, his fingers seeking out her hand, to see if she was abiding. Smile only growing, she allowed him to slip his hand over hers.
'Well...' Big blue eyes turned to him, a smile that could tentatively be called mischievous cresting her features. For a moment, she looked like a PG rated version of Mara, 'We could try it again. The kissing thing. If you want to.'
Her voice still carried the same metallic edge that it would have for the rest of her life now, as though she was speaking to him from inside a tin can, but there was an indefatigable warmth there, the beating heart of Kanaria that shone through no matter how artificial her throat had become. Tsugi reacted to it almost instantly. There really was no choice.
He had never thought of himself as a good kisser; he was always self conscious about being that close to another person, and he could never get his tongue to do quite what he wanted, but Kanaria seemed to like it. The shrill, girlish little sound she made as he first touched her contained more than a little surprise, but at least it was
pleasant
surprise. And she had leaned into him, placed one hand on his chest, just below his shoulder. Her breathing sped up, he could feel it on his skin. Wow...