This was bound to happen, I thought. From the moment I saw her face to face for the first time. Never before had my pussy spoken to me, but it purred when Kate looked my way.
People think of me as controlling, and I am. I admit it. I try to be decent about it, but if I have an opinion, things are going to go my way. It's who I am. That's what makes me dangerous on the court. It's why the W has been watching me for years.
When Kate first looked at me, I imagined how incredible it would feel to be held down and kissed by her while we crushed our bodies together. To be controlled by her. I'd barely had the thought before I was soaked from need.
I was immediately horny and terrified. I mean, I'm Catholic and straight. I screamed inside, what the hell is going on? I couldn't even imagine the responses from Dad and Mom if they ever learned I'd had an orgasm from just one look from a new teammate. I was cooked, and I knew it. What was I going to do?
For starters, I had to lock down my feelings. I was here on a mission. Coach Bluder wasn't shy about telling me what she expected. And I wanted to deliver. Iowa hadn't ever been to an NCAA Women's Finals. Ever. I was going to change that, even if it took me all four years to do it.
The next two and a half years were a balancing act. No matter how hard I tried to put Kate out of my mind, I couldn't. She lived rent-free in my head--and, embarrassingly, in my body. I had to carry extra panties with me all the time.
We became friends, hung out, worked out, and, not surprisingly, became besties. She just got me. I rarely had to use an entire sentence with Kate. As roommates, both at home and on the road...the more time I spent with Kate, the more I realized I felt a lot more than friendship.
It was always little things that kept nudging me closer to the edge. At home, it was the scent of her being freshly showered. On the court, it was the scent of her sweat as I cut around her. Or we'd bump shoulders, and I'd be rocked because Kate was so solid. My mind would constantly flash back to my fantasy of her holding me down, her strength pinning me--not that I'd want to escape.
The on-court hugs and fanny smacks didn't help. Every time she smacked my ass, that spot tingled for the rest of the day. I'd wonder if it was because she slapped that hard or if it was another signal from down there.
And so went the first two and a half years. Most of the time, I was under control. I made a point of never making eye contact with Kate for more than a second or two because I knew if she looked too long into my eyes, she'd know. And I never let my eyes wander below her chin. Keeping up with these things for nearly three years was hard as hell.
But all that changed after we beat Indiana at home in a regular season finale, 86-85, after I drained a 3-point buzzer-beater. The arena went wild, and I felt incredible. I mean, I'm good, and I know it. But this one had even me convinced I was legit.
We were all high from the win. It took a while to settle down, finish interviews, grab my celebratory plate of cookies, and get back to the locker room. Things were a little fuzzy in the aftermath, but one thing stood out crystal clear: bumping into Kate coming out of the showers as I was headed in.
As usual, bumping into Kate was like running into a wall. Neither of us had been paying attention, and we both dropped our shower stuff. As I bent to pick mine up, Kate's towel slipped, and suddenly, there she was in all her glory.
Most people don't realize it, but by the time women become D1 starters, we're in incredible shape. Gotta be. We may not be specimens, but we're hard. And Kate? She was hard and sculpted.
Makes my knees weak just thinking about it. I mean, sports bras flatten everything, but as a rule, ballers don't have tits. And it's not like Kate has a rack, but I could see muscle. Most breasts don't flex when you reach cross-body, but hers did. Little muscle striations under wet skin--it was mesmerizing.
And then my eyes dropped lower. I'd never seen another woman from this perspective before, and Kate's body seemed to guide my gaze to her bare mound. It was perfect--smooth, wet from the shower, droplets clinging like dew on her skin.
I must have been more dazed than I thought because Kate grabbed my arm. "Shit! Caitlin, are you okay?! My bad!" Her voice snapped me out of my trance, but I was already burning up with embarrassment--and something else.
Still naked, she walked me to a chair. As I sat and looked up... her hard body and perfect mound were right there again. Thankfully, she turned away, and when she came back with a Gatorade, she'd wrapped herself in a towel.
She handed me the Gatorade, and I reached out with a shaking hand to take it. Kate lifted my chin, asking, "Caitlin! Are you okay?" I couldn't help it. We locked eyes, and I tried to compose myself, but my body betrayed me. The moment Kate gave me that intense gaze, I came--hard. I dropped the Gatorade and shuddered uncontrollably as trainers and staff rushed over, mistaking my reaction for something medical.
From there, I somehow survived the night and the questioning texts from family. Another year followed of me avoiding Kate's gaze and hiding my feelings. But eventually, my self-control cracked. After our dramatic win over LSU in the NCAA Elite 8, on the court and in the moment, I hugged Kate and blurted into her ear, "You have no idea how much I want you right now!"