Eventually I was rescued from that damned hotel bed, though not thanks to Morrison. About twenty minuets after his grand departure a maid came along to clean the room and she found me there, still tied to the bed, still a mess from the fighting and the making up. She was young, pretty, and a huge fan of my beloved. What's more, once I gave her a tame version of what had happened she untied me and went about the room giggling to herself. Great, I thought, another burgeoning groupie! By the time Jim returned hours had passed and he came in as if nothing had happened earlier at all. This was no surprise to me because that was just the way it was between us.
By the end of 1968 the European tour had ended and the two of us had come back, along with the rest of the band, to the sun and fun of L.A. However the road and the pressures of fame had taken their toll on Jim. He was drinking much too much and it seemed like the only time his dick got hard was when someone else wanted it. It pissed me off, this new problem of his, so I did what he would've done if he had been in my situation. I went out with guys who could get it up for me and I didn't try to hide it. Why should I? To others he may have been the Great Lizard King but to me he was just Morrison, the asshole I couldn't live without.
There we lay once again waiting for something to happen as I wrapped my lips around his limp cock. I would abuse it, I decided, scrapping my teeth a little too hard across his shaft. All I heard in response was Jim tipping a bottle as his cock remained lifeless as a corpse. "What the fuck are you doing, Jim? That's your fucking problem right there! That fucking bottle..." The phone rang at a perfect time. I knew it was for him. "...and your fucking whores!"
He sat up suddenly and I watched, unimpressed, as he hurled a bottle of whiskey at our bedroom wall. Why not? All of the walls had nicks and dents in them from his rock god temper tantrums.
"Yeah, Pam, it's all my goddamned fault, right? Listen here princess, maybe if my old lady wasn't a junkie whore who'd fuck anything to score her fix I wouldn't have to get drunk and fuck around!"
My eyes flashed on him with fire. Maybe if it had been another couple with our problems they would've been more understanding towards each other's pain. But it wasn't. It was us. Standing up I began throwing clothes on. Jim's shirt, Jim's old sweat pants...where the hell were all of my clothes...when he came at me. If he got me down I was at his mercy and that never worked in my favor. He'd get it up then and there was no telling what he would do! Picking up a figurine he'd bought me in Spain I threw it hard and fast aiming for his head. Fortunately it hit him. Unfortunately it didn't faze him. With a gash above his eye producing a bit of blood and a madman's laugh erupting from him he was every bit the lunatic. And he was lunging at me, intent on making me see who was boss.
It took me a minute to realize I had hit the ground and a few seconds more to get it that Jim had my body pinned with his own, my arms trapped behind my back by the weight of us both. I could feel his hard on against my leg and for some reason it made me fight just a moment more, getting my knee up enough to shove it into his crotch. When he back handed me the pain resounded through my body. Had he ever hit me that hard? "How many guys have you been fucken' since we got back, Pamela?" When I said nothing he grabbed my chin and forced me to look him in the eyes. I barely recognized them. "How many, Pam?"
"Enough, Jim!" Any answer would have been wrong. The truth would make him even crazier and he would know if I were lying. What was left for me to say?