ONE
Janet needed passport sized photos. She was nearly broke again; her housecleaning jobs were poor paying and infrequent, and the guru kept pressing--oh, so spiritually--for larger and larger contributions to the ashram. Now applying for a new job--any job--she was finding that all the agencies required voluminous resumΓ©s and documentation, including photographs. It was l980, and the California economy was in a slump.
She picked the nearest photo shop from the yellow pages--a small shop in the nearby half empty mall. Inside there were no customers in the neatly maintained but somehow forlorn store. The young man behind the counter brightened; he was gangly, with thinning blonde hair and a broad smile, eager as a puppy for any sort of customer.
"How can I help you? A camera? Film?"
"I just need some ID photos--six, I guess." Janet smiled. "passport size, the agency said. Black and white, I suppose--nothing too expensive."
"Sure thing; right away. But color is just as cheap; I'd recommend it. Just step back here, please." His blue eyed gaze was intense--too intense. A bit over the top for such a mundane transaction, Janet thought.
She was used to male approval, ranging from covert glances to frank leers; at 40 she was still proud of her figure, and dressed accordingly, even a bit blatantly when away from the ashram. Her perky patterned silk dress was short and a bit tight. But still--this guy was making her just a bit uneasy. * He led her to a curtained alcove at the back of the shop and positioned her on a stool facing a bank of cameras and lights. "There's a mirror. Would you like to--uh--freshen up, or maybe comb your hair? I think you'll take a terrific picture!" he said.
A mirror? What the hell, why not? Never hurts to look your best. Janet looked at her face, frowned prettily and searched her purse for her compact and comb. The clerk hovered, now frankly staring.
"If you don't mind--this will just take a second." Janet said.
"I'm sorry. It's just that you look like--never mind. Take your time--please!" With a nervous smile, he ducked behind the flimsy curtain.
Janet found herself a bit flustered as she checked her makeup, freshened her lipstick, and perched on the stool. The photographer talked her through the simple routine: turn your head a bit, lift your chin, smile-- click!--one more now--click! He paused, running his fingers through his hair, awkwardly. "Miss--uh, I don't know your name--I'm Arnold. Miss, have you ever, you know, done any modeling?"
Here it comes, Janet thought. The old come-on. Art poses, that's what they usually called them. Well, we'll cut this short right now. "My name is Janet. I did a little modeling once but that was--many years ago. And I'm really not interested in any...."
"No, no--don't misunderstand me. Look, let me take a few more shots--with my good cameras. Free--for nothing! You've got an exceptional presence and face! Please! Indulge me!"
Janet's vanity, her guru kept telling her, was one of her many stubborn attributes. Another large pothole on the karmic path. This young guy seemed harmless enough, though--just intense. "I've just a few minutes--oh, all right." she said with what she hoped was a prim smile.
Arnold busied himself with his lights: the filtered spots, the back light, and he was soon crouched behind his view camera, directing Janet. "Turn to your left! Now look at me. Now smile--that's it! Now arch your back a bit. Deep breath--turn right--now cross your legs. Yes!"
Janet sensed that they were way beyond passport photos. "OK, enough, that's it, Mr.--Allen, was it? No, Arnold. Just give me my passport photos, and l'll be out of here!" Janet slid off the stool.
"Right. They're Polaroids; I'll have them for you in a second. Six pictures. Five ninety nine, plus tax." He gulped, hesitated. They were standing rather close in the small booth, Arnold seemed to be blocking the door. He ran his fingers through his hair again, distracted. "Look. This is crazy, but--just bear with me. Have you ever heard of Bettie Page?"
"No, I'm afraid not. Let's just get those pictures, OK?" Janet brushed past him but he stopped with a gentle hand to her shoulder.
"Three minutes of your time, OK? You look so much like Bettie Page that it's creepy--or how she would have looked ten or fifteen years after she--disappeared."
He was so intense, so earnest, that Janet paused. Her radar was pretty good; this guy seemed to pose no sexual threat, and she was now more than a bit curious. Arnold continued:
"Back in the 50's and 60's, Bettie Page was the preeminent pin up model: girlie magazines, one reel films, still photos, some B and D--what she did, basically, was dance around in her black underwear and high heeled shoes..." He halted his fervid spiel, registering Janet's frown. "No. wait. It was mostly mild stuff, not even soft core by today's standards, but she was so lovely, so sexy, and had such a sweet innocent quality."
Janet cut him off, but gently. "Mr. -uh-Arnold. I don't want to intrude on your obsession, but what can an over the hill dancer have to do with me? Why are you telling me all this?"
Arnold blushed. "Guilty. I may be obsessed, but let me bring you up to date. Bettie Page has a cult following now. All the old, scratchy black and white films are a hot item. There's Bettie fan magazines. The heroine in the comic book Rocketeer is really her. She's a really hot property! Any Bettie Page trivia: outtakes, photos, old pirated film clips , whatever--they're huge! Now get this! She disappeared, dropped out of sight, about 20 years ago! No more films, no more pictures--poof! all gone!"
Janet interrupted his manic flow: "So you think I look like this--Bettie. I still don't see..."
"What if Bettie had made more films? Maybe ten, fifteen years later? What if someone came up with the 'lost Bettie Page episodes'? That person--or persons--would be rich overnight! I guarantee it!"
"Just a second--do you think that I..." Janet backed away and found herself sitting on the posing stool again; Arnold in his excitement was holding both her wrists.
"Yes! You! Exactly! I'm just winging it now, but if you and I were to make some films--videos, these days--and market them as the long lost Betties-- I'm brainstorming now, but--wow!" He faltered. "Of course, I'm not sure you could capture her --specialness. You've got a great body, but your hair is wrong--and you're older, of course. Ahh, it was probably a dumb idea. Sorry. Sorry. I apologize for wasting your time." He released her wrists.
Janet's mind was racing. What would the guru say? There was the low bank balance and piddling dead end jobs. Rich overnight, he'd said. And : 'great body', but also 'older, of course', 'couldn't capture her specialness' . Who says? She was strangely excited, and challenged, too.
"Arnold. This is all pretty weird. But just for the hell of it, before I go, can I see--do you have any pictures of this--magical lady?"
Arnold beamed. "Have I! Just everything she's ever done, that's all! Come on in back, this won't take long!"
It took over an hour. Far from being bored, Janet found herself increasingly excited as the story unfolded: the first short films, the silk stocking, high- heel fetish shots, the lingerie dance sequences, then the Irving Klaw bondage materiel; kinkier now, with Bettie mugging as a slightly delighted victim, exulting as the dominatrix, tying up the other models in their dowdy 50's underwear.
Stills, too: some sensuous nude shots, some blatantly sexy, the jungle stuff, the lovely beach shots by Bunny Yeager; Janet found herself responding, then enthralled by the sweet sexual energy of this woman--never mind the lousy production values and frumpy lingerie. And the few nude shots--somehow they drew her right in.
*
Arnold turned off the last film clip; Klaw's sister had just done a severe bondage number on Bettie, who remained--perky. There was heavy silence in the musty back projection room. Arnold turned up the lights and leaned forward . His intense gaze bored into Janet's eyes. "Well?"
"She's--she's --she was--very special, all right. But I--our faces are similar, aren't they? But my --chest is bigger, and my hips--no, I don't think
it would work." Janet was surprised to find her voice shaking.
"C'mon! ten, fifteen years later--you look just right! Hey! you feel it! I can tell!" He had gripped her wrists again, his gaze never leaving hers.
Janet was really flustered now. Somehow this fanatic, this--nerd--is reading me, she thought. I just came in for some crummy photos, and now--she tried to ignore the swirl of images racing through her brain: lacy bras, bikini panties, garter belts, not that old fashioned stuff--and the bondage! the ropes, the leather! Janet's own bondage fantasies, tucked away in past memories she was trying to repress, were strong, she knew. What kind of delicious situations could she...?