What the hell was I thinking telling Lucy I was a lesbian! She probably thinks I'm a huge pervert or something for not telling her sooner. I really wish she would say something instead of just looking straight ahead. I'm starting to think this was a huge mistake, no let me re-phrase that I think this friendship was a huge mistake!
I can't handle her silence right now I feel as if I was stabbed in my chest, yet again she probably feels the same way after what I just told her a few minutes ago.
I decide to just get up and leave, go somewhere far away from her so I can't see her stoned face. I'm walking with my head down indicating that I feel very shameful I don't know what is going to happen now that I told her.
My brain is so overwhelmed with my thoughts that I didn't even noticed it started raining. I make a run for my car and drive home with tears in my eyes. My phone ringed a couple times but I never got up to answer it fearing it was Lucy to tell me were not friends anymore. I never noticed when the rain stopped because I had ended up crying to sleep and waking up to someone pounding on my door.
I fixed my self up and got the door nearly fainting in the process.
"Lucy, what are you doing here?"
She lets out a laugh "I came to see you silly."
"Why, when I told you yesterday that I was gay your face was like a stone you wouldn't even look at me." I was trying to hold back the threatening tears.
She got angry with me now "That was because I was shocked that my friend was gay and I wasn't the one to leave someone important behind!"
"You know what Lucy I don't want to fight with you, but is me being gay going to effect our friendship?"
Lucy stared at me for a minuet or two before answering "No, just as long as you don't hit on me." She laughed
I was glad she said no but sadden when she added that line at the end. What was I expecting for her to jump into my arms in kiss me? I suppose that last line was expected since she already has a boyfriend and is straighter then a line. Okay now thats just exaggerating, get grip on yourself at least she's you friend.
It's been two months since I told Lucy I was gay and now she's cool with it we're just like before when she thought I was straight. Our friendship is stronger than it was before, no more secrets. I was out with some friends since Lucy was filming her television show, but that she would be done within two months. We were in the mall when this beautiful girl joined our big group of friends, I played it cool since judging by her looks she looks straight just like all the girls I like do.
Mandy did the introductions "Okay Tiffany, Crystal, Alex and Spence meet my friend Rachel."
Knowing Tiffany she spoke first "Hey, wow I really like your outfit were did you get at Rachel?"
"Thanks I got it at forever 21." chicks turned red.
There was this awkward pause between the group I didn't say anything to her or to anyone fearing I might say something real stupid. Eventually the whole gang was talking to each other except for me and Rachel, she was like the shy new girl at school doesn't say a word till later.
