She'd come by horseback after nightfall; the whole castle, it seemed, had banqueted victoriously since the mid day and were now dropping off drowsily into rooms throughout the stronghold. As she waited anxiously for the King to return to his rooms, she paced, refusing to let herself picture him in his scarred battle attire, which now stood like an iron and leather statue at the back of the chamber. In the mutable light of the fire, the broken edges of his armor gleamed, beckoning an anxious Arwen to move closer. As she did so, she could see the breastplate lying open, twisted and jagged from some thunderous blow; this realization made her hand stop in mid air, inches away from the broken chest housing.
"But he's alive, he's King, I've heard a dozen people say so.." she thought....though even as she did so her fingers stretched for the torn edge of the breastplate. Soon, she found herself turning it in her fingers slowly, again and again, as if unable to stop.
The room lurched; images came in and out of focus very quickly as Arwen gripped the twisted metal so tightly her knuckles whitened and blood appeared between them. She fell to her knees, dropping the jagged metal and putting her wounded hands to her eyes to stop the dark images she felt about to overwhelm her ...she saw and smelled the bitter rain, coming down in torrents that all but knocked men from the walls...mixing the mud and the blood into rivers which made the battlements slippery, treacherous. Aragorn, soaked to the skin and favoring his left leg heavily, lunged painfully to repel an enemy ladder...he was successful, turning to face, "aaahhh!" Arwen screamed, as a seven foot Uruk Hai warrior with an enormous double handed axe loomed into view over Aragorn's right shoulder...the beast raised the two-handed weapon, beginning the downward stroke of the massive thing, when .. .".ooohhhh," she cried out as .Arwen lost her balance, stumbling forward onto the stone with her hands still over her eyes...
"Aragorn," she mouthed drowsily, as Arwen felt herself lifted from the cold floor in what seemed like only moments.
"Yes, my love, it is I," he answered softly, slowly, trying to conceal his anguish.
The sight of her lying crumpled on the floor before his broken mail made his soul ache in a way he'd never felt, though he'd seen many men die. He had rushed to her, forgetting his stiff and aching leg as he collected her to him and rocked her like a child. Feeling his warmth she began to revive.
"Elessar, it is you," she gasped, breathing him in.
His natural musky scent was almost completely overpowered by the warm earthiness of the local wines, of which he'd had a king's share to dull the pain; Arwen found herself intoxicated by the mere smell of him. Throwing her arms about his neck, she kissed his face, repeatedly. The feel of her supple lips on his brow eased his concern, or made him forget at the very least.
She lingered longer each time she kissed him; excitement gave way to a deep sense of longing. She buried her face in his neck, crying soft tears of relief, her breath warm and halting on his skin. Aragorn squeezed her shoulders, his fingers sliding slowly down the length of her back, slowly, as if memorizing the very curves of it.
"It's alright, my lady, I'm alright," Aragorn tried to gently reassure her, pulling her tighter despite his growing agitation.
The battlefields of the Pelleanor and Helms Deep had left him weary, with a new brutality he'd yet to work out, and a cruel longing for the kind of intimacy with Arwen of which he no longer felt capable. Too much bloodshed--of both friends and enemies alike--had poisoned his body and his soul. Would he ever be able to make love to her again without hurting her? Without releasing the hateful savage that had been awakened within him? that dark part of himself which had taken over--for his own survival--during those last days of Sauron?
She had stopped crying. Aragorn struggled to his feet, where they stood in silence, each with tight grasp on the other. Each-- trying to deny the building tension-- their need for each other was palpable, yet neither dared speak. She brushed her cheek against his collarbone. He closed his eyes and moved his head back slowly, bending his knees to move even closer to her, savoring a few moments before the parting he felt was inevitable. No, he knew it was inevitable.
He soon felt the warm, wet sensation that was most certainly her tongue, running the length of his collarbone from shoulder to bruised breastbone, now lingering at the softer skin of his throat. She sucked tenderly at the hollow there first, making his breath catch when she began to increase the pressure.
"Arwen," he murmured almost inaudibly, pressing his lips to the side of her head where her scented Elven skin was still salty and damp from her tears.
She sucked more fervently at the exposed skin on his throat now–her only thought to devour him. Her lips pressed harder and her teeth dragged the length of his exposed neck; the pain made him stiffen unconsciously. Behind Aragorn's now tightly closed eyelids, the forbidding figure of a wounded Uruk Hai soldier loomed into view, teeth bared and snarling. He could smell the orc's fetid breath, damp and warm on his bared neck, then, "aaaahh!"he felt the hot sensation of his own flesh, tearing....
In exhausted and drunken confusion, Aragorn had pushed her from him with much more force than he ever would've intended. She fell backwards into the bedpost, her shoulder blade colliding painfully with the heavy oaken frame. She stared at Aragorn with her mouth dropped unconsciously open, wounded and disbelieving. He had chased her since he was a lanky boy of seven; she'd let him catch her when he had just turned a bold fourteen. Now he repulsed her, violently. She felt his awful pain, his untempered anger, even through her own hurt; it was the same as in her vision, only immeasurably more intense in the flesh.
As he realized his grievous mistake, Aragorn sank despairingly to his knees before her, burying his head in her skirts.
"Please, please forgive me, Arwen, I'm not myself." He paused, searching to find the right words.
He looked up at her, finally, with honestly moist eyes and tear-stained cheeks, but could not hide (or dispel) the obvious storm just beneath the surface.
"You see that I...I cannot be with you right now...not like we've been," he said with something close to apologetic tenderness. Flustered by the pained look on her face, he added quickly, "Arwen, being so close to you...the love I feel for you...it makes me do crazy things!" Rage and desperation welled up inside of him. He continued, as calmly as he could, "I'm not sure I could stop myself from..."he paused for another long moment after this word, finding it almost impossible to articulate the feeling that had him around the throat, "from hurting you."
His voice dropped off for the last two words, as if he could hardly bare to say them. The truth was that he had already hurt her. He looked into the fire, resigned not to meet her gaze.
With tears in her eyes, but with the determination of her people, Arwen reached out a hand to grasp his chin firmly, turning him to face her. She moved her head forward, to within inches of his, still held tightly between her fingers. She closed her eyes, and parted her lips, so that the sweet smell of her Elven breath filled his nostrils.