Being fascinated sexually with women as well as men, I have always been on the lookout for that "certain" type of woman; one about my height, large breasts, and a way of carrying herself that exudes sensuality out of every pore.
A few women have caught my fancy, but there's always been one model of woman that I have fantasized repeatedly about until my skin tingles: Kim Cattrall.
CJ knows this and last summer while I was on hiatus from my job, he happened to notice that a film was shooting in town with Ms. Cattrall as one of the stars, and made some discrete inquiries about local positions on the film crew in order that I might actually meet her.
Striking out for his own employment, he was able to secure for me a temporary position in the costuming department of the film company, and I was overjoyed when I learned that I would be on the team that "dressed" Kim before and after her daily shoots.
If you've ever been involved with a movie production, I can tell you that the days are grueling in length, with boredom being the largest part of the job. The interminable waiting for the camera, light and sound setups are long, with the actual filming taking up less than two hours of a twelve-hour day.
This however, gave me lots of time to mingle with the cast and crew, and of course ingratiate myself to someone I have lusted over.
The hours dragged on, and at last, the call was complete; the end of the day was at hand.
After the hangers-on and handlers had left Ms. Cottrell's trailer, I started to remove her costume as she began to remove her makeup and of course, I shot a glance (or three!) at the curvy body that I had fantasized over for so long. Thank you CJ!
Not wanting to seem overly enamored with Ms. Cattrall as a "star" I had kept a low profile, however, I did allow myself to let slip in private conversation when no one else was around about my background in psychology, and my old college interest in pursuing a degree in sexual therapy.
This didn't surprise her somehow, and we discussed at length our relationship with men, her three failed marriages and how work often gets in the way of a good relationship.
"Well, you seem to know a lot about these things Deb; but what I can't figure out is why you would be working as a costumer on this film?" Kim said.
I then related my history with CJ, how we had gotten back together after so many years apart, and how he had found my job with the movie company, but stopped there, not wanting to scare her into thinking that I was some sort of stalker, but I couldn't help blurting out "I think you're gorgeous and one of the sexiest women alive, and CJ loves me so much, he got me this job, and..."
My voice was quavering and I think I was trembling with excitement -- this beautiful diva her before me, and I almost let it slip that I wanted to kiss her and caress her breasts while she did the same to me.
"I'm sorry," I stammered "You must think I'm awful!"
"No no no" said Kim looking up at me from her dressing chair, "I'm flattered. I think we both seem to have a lot in common, and you've been a dear to listen to me bitch about my problems with men."
Then Kim stunned me: "Have you ever had sex with another woman?" she asked.
If you think I was flustered before this question, how do you think I felt at that moment?