November 9, 1865
Milledgeville, Georgia
My train crawled to a stop as it entered the yard at the Milledgeville depot and I had never been so happy to gather my belongings and climb off an infernal contraption as I was on that day. The air outside was crisp, cool and a stark reminder that I had limited time to conduct my business at home before I returned to Beth and Shannon in Kentucky. Winter would be here soon and the faster I finished what I had come here to accomplish, the sooner I could return home to the ones I truly wanted to be with.
The month previous I had received a correspondence from my mother stating that my father had contracted Scarlet Fever and the prognosis was grim. Within a week, I received a second stating that he had "passed quietly into the arms of the Lord on the 12
th
of October, 1865". I remained inconsolable for days after due to the guilt of not having traveled home immediately following Appomattox. My father, whom I loved, revered and respected was gone and I would never have the chance to say goodbye.
In the second correspondence, my mother requested that I come home as soon as practicable in order to settle my father's estate and to visit with my family. She, or more likely one of my uncles, had arranged for the train tickets and sleeping accommodations in hotels for my stop overs in Nashville and Atlanta for the three day trip. While I could have most likely made the journey on horseback and been just as comfortable, I was admonished in her letter with the following; "Due to the current unpleasantness in Georgia, you must never forget that you are a Thatcher as a well as a gentleman and former officer. Therefore, it is imperative that you travel and present yourself in a manner reflecting your status in life."
While most of that may have been true, my status in life as of late had been farmhand, planter, overseer, woodcutter, hunter, business partner, surrogate father of an adorable young lady and lover to her mother. Hence, the complete lack of any type of clothing that would indicate my "status". Those clothes were neatly packed away in a trunk that I had purchased in Williamsburg.
After arranging for my trunk to be delivered, I walked back toward the stock cars. When I got closer to them I could hear a livestock wrangler barking commands to his helpers and I couldn't help but smile as I came upon the scene of an older black man with his hands on his hips cursing the heavens as three young Negro males attempted to off load a very spirited coal black stallion.
"Damn yer worthless black hides! Git a holt of his halter! His halter you idiots! That horse'll kill all youn's dead here in a second and then I'm gonna have ta hire me three new niggers to replace yer asses!"
"Pardon me." I interrupted.
"WHAT!" the old man snapped turning around and taking an involuntary step back when he saw he was speaking to a white man, he removed his hat from his head so quickly that his arm was a blur.
"Excuse me?"
"Naw Sir! Excuse me! I didn't mean no disrespec' sir!"
"That's my horse your boys are trying to offload. Would you mind if I lent a hand?"
"Lawd God no sir! Not a little bit, that horse of yorn got the Devil in him."
"You're not the first to say that." I said with a grin, dropping his saddle, bridle and blanket as I turned to walk toward the stock car.
"Uh huh." came the reply as his men moved aside, hats in hand.
"Thunder, it's over, it's just us now." I said as calmly as possible while Thunder's eyes rolled back and his front hooves came off the car floor again.
"No. Calm down boy. Here, I got something for you." I said as I reached out, holding an apple slice in my palm. "It's ok, just calm down."
It took the better part of three minutes and two more apple slices but I finally got him calmed down enough to take him by the halter and lead him onto and then off of the platform. Once his hooves touched solid ground, he became as docile as a kitten, allowing me to quickly saddle him up for the ride to The Willows. I think he seemed to sense my angst at what was happening because for the briefest of moment, he whinnied softly as he nuzzled my chest with his forehead, then stepped back and pawed at the ground.
Three days ago Beth had insisted that I use my military saddle, tack and saddle blanket for the trip home. Her argument was that the men in my family might need to be reminded that I may have left as a boy and private soldier but that I was returning as a former officer of the Confederate Army. The strength and brilliance of her argument was compounded by the fact that she was nude beside me in bed at the time, with her fingertips drifting slowly across my chest.
"You win Beth." I said in surrender.
"Mmm. I always do Thad." she chuckled. "Now be a dear and see if you can find it in you to find your way into me again."
"I should be able to do that." I said, smiling up at the ceiling.
"Stop smiling Thaddeus." she replied, slapping my chest.
"It is pitch black in here woman. How did you know I was smiling?" I whispered as I spread her legs.
"You always smile when I start things my Love."
"Yes I do." I said as I slipped inside her, still smiling.
As we trotted past the capital building I realized that sitting atop a McClellan saddle with a Confederate officer's saddle blanket underneath it may have constituted a grievous error in judgement on my part. Milledgeville was the state capital of Georgia and as such it was awash in Yankee soldiers. I thought to myself that if I had half this many men under my command in '63 or '64, I could have ridden into Washington City and had tea with Abe Lincoln himself before Grant knew I was there. Unfortunately, I was now in my home state, trotting down the streets and gathering looks from blue clad soldiers at every corner.
Through the grace of God or by sheer dumb luck, we made it through town and headed south for the last 10 miles of our journey without being stopped or questioned. When we did head onto the road that would lead me home, I decided that Thunder needed a little exercise. So I loosened the reins and allowed him to gallop, more so to put as much distance between the Union Army in the city as to stretch Thunder's legs. With him setting the pace, we gobbled up the ground between the crossroad and The Willows.
It was shortly after four in the afternoon when I reined Thunder to a stop at the road leading to the front of the house. I paused for a moment as my restless mount pranced under me. A mile or so earlier he had seemed to remember our surroundings and knew that we had finally come full circle in our little journey. Now he sensed that he was moments away from a hot walk, a rub down and a feed bag and he was letting me know that he felt he deserved all three.
As we trotted up the road I began to smile because inwardly, I had been more than concerned about the condition of the house and grounds. I had seen too many plantations laid to waste by the Yankees, but my ancestral home had apparently been spared. The grounds and gardens were still in immaculate condition, the house was still as white as when I had departed four and a half years ago and if my eyes were not deceiving me, my father's Stable Master, Nathan, was waiting on the front porch.
As I dismounted, I handed Nathan the reins and I was greeted with the flash of his teeth as he gave me the warmest smile I had received in days. He dropped the reins, wiped a tear from his eye then stepping forward he clapped his massive hands on my shoulders and pulled me into a giant hug adding "It's good to have you back home Mister Thaddeus. We sure missed you here."
"You stayed?" I asked, perplexed somewhat by his presence.