He never let me think bad about myself. Like on our third date. He invited me to his house. I was gonna spend the night. We were watching TV in his room when he said he was going to change into his night clothes. When he started to undress right beside me I help but stare. His body was beautiful. I was amazed yet so disheartened.
He was gorgeous. And what was I? A nothing. A huge, pitiful nothing. I had never told him how I felt about myself. I had the feeling that he was just in it for the sex and complaining isn't very sexy on a woman. He had caught me staring and smirked at me.
"If you're gonna gawk at me you're gonna have to return the favor."
I could feel my cheeks warm and turn red. He saw this and asked why I was so embarrassed. I couldn't keep it quiet any more and I was never good at lying.
"It's just....I don't.....I just feel like you wouldn't want to see me like that. I feel kinda dirty and disgusting around you. You're beautiful and I'm just this thing."
His eyes seemed to lose light. It broke my heart that my complaining had took it from him. He sat back down and took my hand.
"Mi vida listen to me. The way you look is the furthest thing from my mind right now. Your beautiful. Hermosa. And when I thought of this moment I didn't think of seeing you undressed and trying to get you into bed. I thought I get to wrap my arms in your and I get to feel that warm embrace that you give me every time we hug. Don't ever be afraid to show me how beautiful you are."
His words were like a hot knife. They pierced through that pain I had gained from other people. It rip down that wall of security until it was just raw feeling. But my fears were still there.
"But Hector I'm dirty. This isn't what you deserve."
He sighed deeply and held my hand tighter. His head dropped and I wanted to badly to make him feel better. But what was I to do? My worries would never leave me. His head shot up and he smiled at me.
"Come with me, cariña."
He held my hand tight and got out of his bed. We stood at the end of his bed and he looked into my eyes. I knew my cheeks had gained even more crimson tint. Again he was pulling me. This time to the bathroom in the corner of his room. He opened the door and lead me inside. The shut of the door made me jump and he was immediately at my side.
"Don't be scared, mi reina. I'm right here. Now and when ever you need me."
He walked forward and circled so he was behind me. My arms were crossed hanging by my waist. He pulled them apart and held them out to the sides. His arms wrapped around me and started to unbutton my shirt.
My lip was trapped between my teeth as I tried to calm my breathing. My white button down fell off my shoulders. I crossed my arms again and tried to hide what I could. I felt his chuckle near my ear. His deep sexy voice sent a ripple of light throughout me.
His hands held my arms and started to lift them up. They were level with my shoulders.
"Keep them up, niña."
They were shaking slightly but I kept them in the air. His fingers started at my wrist and slowly slid them toward my back. Once he got to my back his fingers continued their soft electric path downward.
Once he got to my waist his hands moved forward and held onto the band of my pants. I was close to telling him to stop. But this feeling deep in my stomach had me wanting so much more.
I stilled my breath and kept my hands still as he unbuttoned my pants. I shook harder as his hands slipped into my pants. They were in the front side by side but slowly circled my waist until they touch on near my bottom. I gasped softly as my pants slipped off my waist and bunched near my feet.
Hector helped me out of them. I thought privately that it was a good thing my bra and panties matched. He pressed his chest into my back and breathes deeply into my ear.
"Shall I take them off or you?"
I bite my lip and suppressed a moan. He breath on my neck and his deep voice in my ear had my body on vibrate. I wanted my bra and panties to stay on but I knew he wouldn't have it.
"I'm supposed to keep my hands held up aren't I?"
I heard his deep chuckle and shiver ran through my body. His arms found their way back to my stomach. They trailed up and sat under my bra. My breasts ached from the pleasure that was coursing through me. I wanted him to touch them. But how could I say it.
His hands pushed up ward until they slipped under my bra. His finger tips brushed my nipples and I gasped loudly. They were incredibly sensitive and he seemed to realize that.
"Do you like that, mi amor?"
Words were gone. None could be found in the gasps and soft moans. My peaked nipples were trapped between his thumb and pointer finger. I couldn't help but lean back into his body. For once the thought of me taking him and myself down hadn't even crossed my mind.
But all of sudden his hands were gone. Those soft but strong fingers no longer held me.
"I asked you a question and I expect an answer. Do you like.....
His fingers began pulled and rubbed my inflamed breasts again.
.....this?"
I nodded fast and put my hands on top of his. I pressed down and tried to get more pressure. His tsked in my ear.
"You moved your arms you bad girl. I'll have to punish you for that."
One of his hands left my chest and I whimpered at it's loss. Hector chuckled the sound.
"Someone is needy, hmmm?"
I let out a louder whimper in response. The hand of his that was free slid down my waist and stopped right on top of my panties. As soon as he did his fingers pulled faster and rubbed harder on my battered nipple.
"I want you to be relaxed. Don't push me away."
Hector pushed my hair to the left side and spun my neck in kisses. My skin tingled in anticipation as his hand slowly entered my panties. I was shaking and my breathing was wild but I couldn't stop even if I tried.
"Spread your legs just a little bit baby."
I widened my stance and let my legs open some. The tips of his fingers curved until he was cupping my sex. My whimpers came out more desperate. My hips shot up and I leaned back further into him.
Hector started to bite in placed of his kisses. His thumb dipped between my lips and grazed something between them I pressed my hips forward and tried to get more friction. His hands went further back and circled my soaked hole.
"My baby is leaking. Is this getting you horny baby?"
His thumb pressed in harder and one of his fingers slipped into me. A new feeling settled into my skin. I moaned louder and seemed to shake harder. A hiss was pulled from my mouth as a second finger was pushed inside.
He pressed them deeper but as he withdrew them I felt terribly empty. Just as I was about to beg for their return when Hector slammed them back into me. I gasped as loudly as I could and melted against him. He pulled them out and pushed them back in over and over. I felt myself clench around his fingers as this great feeling built up inside of me. It was getting closer and closer. Just as I was at the highest point his fingers were gone again. I whined and turned my head so I could look back at him.
"Why did you stop?"
His smirk was smug. A wave of fresh embarrassment crashed onto me. I had just acted to wantonly. Something started inside and made me so slutty. And now he was relishing in his abilities to get a rise out of me.
My eyes dropped the the floor and pulled my bra back over my breasts.
"Niña, what's wrong?"
I knew my cheeks were flushed again. I wanted to scream at him and storm out. But my body wasn't ready to give up this new feeling. I cursed my hormones and flashed him a glare.
"That was a dirty trick. I might be inexperienced but that doesn't mean you can just take advantage of me. Do you get off on how you can effect women? Well you won I'm turned on and I want more."
His arms shot out and he gripped my wrist. Hector pulled me into him and he wrapped his body around me. It soothed me and let me relax into him.
"I didn't smirk because I thought I had control over you. I smirked because I had never seen you be so free with yourself. You let me see a very private part of you. A part you didn't know about. And the thought that I made it come out makes me feel good too."
I felt terrible I had just accused the sweetest guy I know of being some manipulative creep. And all he wanted was for me to open up for him. I hugged him tight against me.
"I'm so sorry Hector. I just feel so out of place like this your the first person to see me so vulnerable. I just don't want you to look any deeper and see something dirty that you don't want."
Hector let his mouth hover above me ear.
"Let's change that, shall we?"
He pulled away and turned toward his shower. He turned it on and the room slowly filled with steam. His lips found mine and his fingers unhooked my bra. I gasped at the chilled feeling against them. My bra fell to the ground between us.
Hector's hands slipped into my panties and pushed down until them slid down my legs.
"If you feel like anything then my light and my angel then I'll clean you. You won't ever feel dirty again."
He pushed open the shower curtain and held out his free hand to me. I took it and he pulled me into the shower. He had a pink loofah hanging in a packet on the wall.
"I bought this for you for when you wanted to shower in the morning. I guess it would be OK to use it now."
He covered it in sweet smelling liquid body wash.
"I didn't know what kind of wash you use so I bought the kinda that smelled the prettiest."
I gave a small smile and played with my fingers. The hot stream of water graced my back and slid down to my legs. The goosebumps erupt on my skin and made me shiver.
"Turn toward the water baby."
