It had been a while since I had met someone like Paul. A long time ago, we were introduced, then we didn’t talk for a while. One day he contacted me, however, and we started talking, immediately clicking on all sorts of levels. We had a lot in common, but there were enough differences between us to make decidedly deep arguments interesting. We talked every night and saw each other as much as possible. We were both swept away by the volume of our emotions for one another, and felt as if there was unknown depths we had yet to discover about “us.” It had only been a little while, so we were a little apprehensive about getting too seriously involved. We went out as friends for a while, caught the occasional movie or bite to eat, but kept our immense feelings in check. Looking back on it now, I can’t imagine why.
That all changed one day. It was just another day, I believe it was a Friday night. He came over and we decided to make it a Blockbuster Night. We picked up a few classics and went back to my apartment. You must understand, this has happened numerous times. There have been many nights where we did just this same thing. This night though, something changed. Maybe we decided to give in - maybe there was something in the air - maybe we were just sick of pretending.
I offered him some ice-cream - I was on my way to the kitchen - and he agreed. I was standing at the freezer reaching up for the butter crunch when I felt his arms encircle my waist. I abandoned the dessert, shut the freezer and turned to give him a hug. This also - not new. But this time, he tilted my face up to look at him. I could see how he felt about me - it was all written there in his eyes. It was very powerful - the emotion was leaking from his every pore - seeping into my skin - flashing through my whole body and making my face hot. My body was instantly on fire - and I was taken aback. Never had I been turned on this instantly. I had always thought that we had an emotional relationship without too much on the physical side.
He took my reaction as a good sign, and leaned down and kissed me softly. I wish for all of you that you could have been me at that very moment because that kiss is beyond any reachable words. It was tender, sweet, intense, loving, open and so soft. I finally understood the quote “When soul meets soul on lovers’ lips” (Percy Bysshe Shelley). I could only drown in him. All time, space and meaning evaporated from the world and we were left bare and open to each other. We wrapped our arms tightly around each other and devoured one another for a hopelessly long amount of time (it seemed). He tore his lips away and we stared at one another - mouths gaping, chests heaving, disbelieving of the power we had unleashed. I noticed that I was up against the refrigerator and I pulled his face down towards mine again but he pressed his fingers to my lips and rasped “No.”
With that he led me down the hall to my bedroom, stopping again once we got inside the door to kiss me again - as if to ask if what he was doing was alright. I dimmed my lights and kissed him again. I could kiss him all night and I could be happy. He kissed my neck and over the top of my breasts as he slowly unbuttoned my shirt. I let it whisper down to the floor while he kissed my shoulders, hands… He knelt in front of me and kissed my stomach while he unfastened my pants and slid them to the floor, helping me out of them. He kissed my hips and the keyhole cutout of my thong, slipping a hand between my legs and brushing my clit with his thumb. Instantly rigid - I got a little self-conscious and gently pulled him to his feet. I helped him out of his clothes and we laid back on the bed. We kissed with increasing passion and ferocity, yanking our underwear off, hungry for the warmth of each other. I straddled him and ground myself against him.