He turned the knob and opened the door. It squeaked on it's hinges as he pulled on it. He stepped through and looked around. Crap! All the seats in the back were taken and the steps were wooden. The lecture stopped, the entire room went silent. No paper shuffling, coughing, moving about--silent. Absolutely silent. And then the door squealed shut as it closed behind him. As he surveyed the situation he noted that all heads were turned in his direction. He hesitated, but then took the first step trying to make sure his cane was silent as he placed it carefully on the step. The step creaked as he put his weight on it. Shit!
Sam looked at him. Didn't he know that no one showed up late for a Bio 102 lecture from Dr. Mitchell. Better to skip the class and get the notes. But, God, those eyes! Bright, sparkling, scanning the room, taking it all in. She swore he already knew every exit, hiding place, and had taken the measure of all one hundred or so students in the room.
Who or what was this guy? But those eyes showed pain, regret, grief. So there must be some damage, some baggage. Perfect posture, has to be military. Pressed blue slacks. Dry cleaned light blue shirt. And look at those shiny shoes. Navy. There was just something about him....
Her heart alarms went off. NO! STOP! DEAD STOP! Her brain joined in shouting 'HE'S A FIXER UPPER. ANOTHER FIXER UPPER. STOP. PLEASE STOP! DON'T DO THIS. LOOK AWAY.' She tore her eyes away and looked down. Took three deep breaths and focused on her computer.
"Well. Welcome to Biology 102, Mr......"
"Jackson, Sir. Walker Jackson."
"Welcome, Mr. Jackson. There appears to be a seat right there in the middle. Yes. Right next to Miss..." Sam realized he was talking to her.
"Taylor, Sir. Samantha Taylor."
"Good. Samantha if you would be so kind as to remove your shopping bags and purse from that chair?"
"Yeah. I mean, yes. Yes, Sir."
"New purse, Miss Taylor?"
"Uh, yes. It is."
"How nice. Your birthday?"
"Yes, Sir."
Walker made his way to the seat. Still limping some and putting some weight on the cane in his right hand. She stood and folded the seat up to help. He eased himself in front of Samantha, trying to reach the seat next to her without stepping on her feet. He cursed to himself. Oldest lecture hall on campus with seats designed for much smaller people than himself.
"Now, Mr. Jackson. Perhaps you will be kind enough to apologize to the class and to me for interrupting an absolutely riveting lecture regarding Mendelian inheritance and explain why you are so late."
He turned red. Anger building inside. Just take it! He's an ass, he told himself. Deal with it. He would have turned and left, but he needed these hours. So, another deep breath, forcing himself to relax, "I apologize to my fellow students and to you, Professor Mitchell, for arriving late and interrupting your lecture. I hate being late and it will not happen again."
He started to sit. "I'm sure you had a very good explanation for being tardy and starting the class on the third day, Mr. Jackson? Other than your rural southern background."
He clutched the cane tighter. Sam couldn't help herself. A fellow student in need? Her maternal instinct...or something else? She didn't even notice the alarms and warnings being drowned out. The walls around her heart weakening.
Without thinking she reached over and put her hand on top of his and squeezed lightly. He glanced down, but visibly calmed. His shoulders relaxed. Good. He looked like a bomb about to go off. What the hell was Mitchell doing? Didn't he know how these guys were? What could happen if you pushed the wrong buttons?
"Yes, Sir."
"Would you like to share?"
"No, Sir."
"Oh please, Mr. Jackson. I insist."
"I've spent the last six weeks at Walter Reed and requested an early release so I could attend your class. Unfortunately, I was discharged too late to arrive on the first day or on time. Sorry. Sir."
"And would you care to explain why you were there?"
"No, Sir."
"Please. I think the class would like to know."
"An error in judgment, Sir."
"An error in judgment? Like being late for class? Please explain?"
Damn! Sam could see Walker was winding up again. She squeezed his hand and he relaxed again. Another deep breath. Are his eyes getting wet?
"An error judgment, SIR! LIKE TAKING THIS FUCKING COURSE!"
She whispered, "At ease, soldier. Let it flow by." He looked at her and smiled.
He turned, "Excuse me, Miss." He stormed out of the row, but as he started leaving she was pulled into his wake, had to make sure he was OK.
"Mr. Jackson. You come back here. Stop!"
Turning back, Sam screamed, "STOP! For the love of God. STOP! You stop, Professor Mitchell. What are you doing? What the hell is wrong with you? Do you have a death wish or something? I don't know who he is or where he's been, but you are about ten seconds away from being a pile of mush next to that lecturn. And you'd deserve it. Didn't you see his eyes? He's been living on the other side. You're pushing the wrong buttons!"
"Walker! Walker!" She ran after and followed him through the door and grabbed his sleeve. He spun angrily around, cane rising. She flinched. "Walker! Please stop. Are you alright? Please stop."
He looked at her. His eyes softened. His features relaxed. He took another breath. Mopped his eyes with his handkerchief. A handkerchief? "Thank you, Miss...."
"Samantha...Sam"
"Thank you, Sam. I was about to lose it. I....I... and you helped me a lot in there. What a prick! Oh, sorry, Mi....Sam."
"Why I never..." using a simulated very Southern, 'Gone with the Wind' accent and fanning her face. She smiled and squeezed his arm. Wholly shit, she thought, hard as a rock. It was decided. This was not the last they were going to see of each other. Not by a long shot. The alarms went silent and disappeared after a final, desperate, 'Fixer Upper!'
What was it about him? She remembered her brother saying that he knew the moment he bumped into his wife at the grocery that she was The One. Maybe? Maybe Walker could be her one? Or would he just be another guy to break her heart, again? Too late now. She could feel herself being sucked in. Damn, why did she have to be this way? Why was she always sucked in by broken guys. Why couldn't she find a guy who would fix her? But this one was different, wasn't he? She just hoped there was no one else, no one else in his life...
The door squeaked open. "Mr. Jackson? Walker. May I have a word with you? Miss, uh, Taylor? Would you excuse us?" She nodded and moved away, but not far. She wanted to be close in case it looked like Walker was ready to erupt or something.
"Look, Walker. I'm sorry. What I did was out of line, unprofessional and totally inappropriate. I jumped to the conclusion that you were just another entitled rich kid. This school is full of them. Daddy donates some money to the University and they think they own it. I was apparently very, very wrong.
"Please. Come back inside. I am honored that you chose my class and thank you for your sacrifices. What do you say?"
"Apology accepted. And again, I'm sorry I was late." She watched them shake hands and smile. Mitchell opened the door for him and ushered him in with his arm on his shoulder.
"You too, Miss Taylor. And bring your purse. It's nice, by the way."
"Sorry for the interruption class. I was out of line and apologize once again to Mr. Jackson. So as I was saying, before all of the excitement began, if type A blood is dominant and type O recessive. And the father is AO and the mother is AO how would you determine the likelihood of the child being A or O? Any takers?
Walker looked around. No one had raised a hand. "Yes, Mr. Jackson....."
"I'd set up a Punnett Square and show a three to one likelihood of A to O."
"Very good, Mr. Jackson. So what are your sister's chances?"
"Are we assuming that the paternal alleles are the same?" Prof. Mitchell looked at him. Most of the class was quiet, but there were a few twitters of laughter. And then Mitchell laughed.
"Yes, Mr. Jackson. We will assume she has the same father as you." The class including Sam got it and general laughter erupted, easing the nerves of all.
As the class ended, "Walker? Uh, what are you doing before Bio Lab? Would you like to get some coffee or something to eat or something?"
"Sure. But nothing with caffeine. I'm still kind of wired. And, Sam? Thank you. Thank you for being there and pulling my plug. I...."
"It's alright, Walker. Glad to do it. I'm a psychology major and...well, I volunteer at the VA so I've...met a number of returnees." I don't know who you are, where you've been or what you've done, but I want to be there for you. And I just want to grab you, hold you, and rip your clothes off, she thought. "Please let me help?"
"I don't understand. Why? Why do you want to help?"
"Because, well, because you look like you need a friend. And I think I can help. Well, unless, you know, you have someone else to help?"
He smiled. "Subtle, Sam. Real subtle. No. No one else. So sure, let's get something to drink." She wanted to help, but she also wanted to be close, to be with him. There was just something...She envisioned herself in orbit around him being sucked in by his gravitational field. No escape. She knew how this was likely going to end, but it was already too late.
They got drinks. Coffee, cream, two sugars for her. Water for him. "Where to, sailor? Want to find a seat?"
"What if we walk around? I haven't been outside much and I miss feeling the sun, the breeze on my face. You know, that kind of stuff."
"What? There's a romantic side to a big, rugged guy like you?"
"Of course! I have a complex, multilayered personality."
"Sure. That's what all the guys say. And they end up being about as complex as a rock. And most of their personality is focused on, well, certain anatomical areas. You know." He laughed again.