First we kiss
She sat on the edge of the bed, on those impossibly crisp white sheets. Looked down at her watch, five more minutes. Why doesn't the clock move. How do hotels get those sheets so tight. Where do they find the art, where do you find such meaningless art. I'll check my make up again. Something, do something, the time will go quicker, any thing, get up. For what felt like the 20th time she paced the room again. Will he be late, stop thinking, breathe, just be. Why won't her mind stop. Was this a mistake. What if it was all talk. What if he was like all the others, fuck me, cum and then nothing. What if she was no good, what if that feeling just wasn't there. What if she couldn't relax, what if the maid came, what, what, what. Stop relax be calm, oh god that knot in her stomach, why is it just getting tighter. Two minutes. I should go this is a mistake, where's my purse, I need to leave. No, no, I want this, I need this. Oh fuck the door his on time. Fuck, fuck, fuck, what do I do. The knot, so tight. Oh god my hands are shaking. What do I say. Concentrate, the door, just answer the door stop thinking. All this talk all this chat, fuck now I can't think of anything to say. Just be, oh god, oh god, oh god. A glance back, sheets so crisp, the art so dull.
She answered the door griping the handle tight, her knuckles white, her other hand shaking. She looked down at his shoes. The black leather, with droplets of rain, the carpet plush curling around the sole. How many people had stood there before him, why was she thinking this, why won't her brain stop. I should speak, she lifted her head opening her mouth. He was framed by the doorway. She opened her mouth to speak. Then a soft finger on her lips. She froze all thoughts slipped away. Just the feeling of his skin on her lips. His eyes, his eyes on hers that look. She couldn't break away even if she wanted to and she didn't want to. It felt like he look into her, could see and feel all her thoughts, all her fears and wants.