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To Rebuild A Shattered Heart Ch 04

To Rebuild A Shattered Heart Ch 04

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My eyes stirred. Feeling the soreness in my muscles, I begin to stretch out, but am immediately taken aback by the strange yet familiar surroundings. Glancing around, I see my old bedroom. Before I can process things, I notice a very pleasurable feeling coming from below the covers.

I pull them up and notice my wife Hannah, orally loving on my morning wood. The feelings are so strange yet familiar.

After she glances up, with my achingly hard cock in her mouth, she smiles and pucks up the pace. I throw my head back and grasp at the pillows and sheets. I've always been sensitive in the morning and she knew this. Deep down I know something isn't right, but it feels so good and natural and... familiar, that i just lay there and give myself over to the feelings.

After a few minutes of her alternating between slow and deep, and quick and shallow, I begin to show signs of my imminent climax. She's always been able to read me like a book when it came to the bedroom, so she smiles and completely stops. She scoots up, ever so slowly and sensually. Kissing up my body and rubbing her very wet slit up my leg, dragging the moist opening up my leg. Oh so slowly.

She is up to the level of my face and starts kissing me. It's a kiss that i knew from 20+ years of kissing. It was so familiar, and so erotic. She rolls her hips, ever so slightly and i feel myself begin to push smoothly into her warm velvet channel. Once i enter her, she lowers herself down my shaft, inch by excruciating inch. Once I have entered all the way she gasps in that cute way she does and kisses me again.

She begins to raise and lower, ever so slowly. The early morning, slow love making was something we did in the morning. Our daughter was NOT a morning person, so this was our time and we made the most of it.

After a few slow languid movements on her part, she began to speed up. Faster she went until I heard myself slapping into her soaking wet opening. I felt the familiar stirring in my balls and grabbed her ass to hold her.

As soon as I feel my cock start to tense then eject my seed, I feel her tense up and give quiet moans.

Once we wer done she looks at me and says, clear as day "your friend is so much better than you are"

I blink a few times and stare at her. a tear begins to fall down my eye when she stands up. she proceeds to walk to the door and opens it. My best friend, the best man at our wedding is standing there. She looks at me and laughs. She leans over and kisses him, with my cum still running down her leg.

She looks right at him and says "That loser will never do anything about us. Lets go." and walks out the door.

I try to get up but realize I can't. Im stuck. I begin to thrash about and am about to scream., when my eyes suddenly open. I look around at the white, clinical walls and notice the cuffs on my wrists.

A dream. Dreamed about the last time we were together, but the memory was tainted. I give a few experimental tugs at the cuffs, but no surprise, they don't give. I have just enough slack to scratch an itch in my nose. I call out, not knowing what is going on.

A short buxom nurse walk in, and checks a few beeping machines, and makes notes on a clipboard. I ask for some water and she gives a cute smile and nods. She walk out and comes back shortly with a styrofoam cup with a straw in it for me to drink. She holds it up and I take a few swallows.

I try to ask questions, but she says the doctor will be in shortly, and proceeds to leave. I thank her as she walks out and gives me a half smile, nods back, and walks out.

I try to get as comfortable as i can with straps and cuffs tied to my wrist, but its an exercise in futility, so I give up and just stare at the ceiling. In that situation, with no TV, no one to talk to, and, just nothing at all to do, all there is to do is think.

What happened? Why am I here? Where is everyone. After what feels like hours but in all actuality was about 30 minutes a tall doctor walked in and pulled up a chair.

Trying to be a smart ass, I look at him and joke "Give it to me straight doc, how long do I have to live?" The look he gave me was somewhere between mild humor and completely inappropriate. "Well Mr. Aiden, that really all depends on you. I mean you did attempt to take your own life, so the question should be how long are you going to let yourself live for?"

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I was gobsmacked. I didn't recall any of this, but as his words settled in, I began to recall. It was a slow trickle, but eventually the floodgates opened and it all came pouring back. The betrayal, her passing, the detectives phone call about my daughter, the rage, and then what I did before my memories just stopped.

I began to cry. What was I thinking? Why did I feel that way. Did I really give up?

The doctor continued, "you are in a VA hospital for a mental evaluation. You attempted to take your own life, but thanks to your brother, you failed, although, the force he took you down with was enough to give you a pretty nasty concussion. We have a great psychiatrist on staff who will visit you shortly. once they give the all clear, we can take those off of your wrists, but until then, I'm sorry that you have to keep wearing them."

"Understood" is all i was able to say. After a few more moments I asked when I could see my family. "I have a daughter to apologize to and a brother to thank for saving my life." i said.

It's all up to the Psych doctor to make that call, but if he gives the ok, then they can come this afternoon. His call though.

With that he left the room and, surprisingly the Dr came in a few moments later. He was a short, slightly overweight guy with glasses that were thicker than a tv screen, but had very kind eyes. Reminded me of my grandpa in a lot of ways, which made me smile.

He noticed the smile and rolled his eyes. "Let me guess...i remind you of your dad or grandpa or something like that."

I couldn't help it. I laughed. It was a deep belly laugh that, surprised me at how good it felt.

He pulled up a chair and we started talking. It was super easy to talk to him. I wasn't sure if it was because of his training, or that he reminded me of my grandpa but the words just flowed. I told him everything, from Grans death, to wife's death, to discovery of her betrayal, to the news I got from the inspector. I opened up about everything. It all came out like a cluster. I was all over the place, but he kept me talking and was recording the whole thing. When I thought I was done, he would ask more questions that got me going again. With every word, with every tear, with every ugly sniffle, my heart, which was filled with so much pain started to feel lighter. It was like a balloon that had a small hole in the side, slowly deflating.

After about 2 hours, he made a quick note and told me they would put me on a pretty aggressive anti depression medication, and I would have an appointment to see him 3 times a week. The bindings could be removed and he would allow short visits. I would stay here for 3 months minimum, but would be allowed a little freedom.

"You didn't get a chance to grieve your Grandmother then your wife passed. Then the infidelity was discovered and you still couldn't grieve. Then the news about your daughter just caused the grief that was all bottled up just exploded and consumed you in an instant. We are gonna work on helping you deal with all this loss and have pretty intense counseling sessions. One day a week we will have family involved as well. Lets get your head screwed on straight and get you back to your life"

About an hour later, the cute little nurse from earlier came in and removed my cuffs and gave me my meds. As I was taking them she sat in the chair the doc was in. "Im sorry if I came off a little short earlier. We get a lot of suicide attempts in here all the time and I thought you were just another one, but when I heard snippets from the doctors talking about it, I realized you have gone through more in a few months than most people deal with in a lifetime. My name is Becky and ill be your nurse during the week days here, so you will see a lot of me."

I had always been one to try and make people smile so I said " Did you really just say you were short. I mean yeah, but you shouldn't knock yourself like that."

Stunned for a second, Becky started to smile. "All that, and the comment about my shortness is what you latch on to. Mr. Aiden, I think we are gonna get along just fine. I have rounds, but ill stop in and chat whenever I can spare some time" With that she stood, gave me a smile and walked out.

"Man shes cute" I said to no one in particular. as soon as the words left my mouth, I immediately started self-degrading. She won't like you. Just being professional. If she did, then she's gonna cheat too. I realized just how much work I had to do. This was gonna be a LONG few months.

Later that day my brother and my daughter came for the first visit. My brother came up to me and grabbed me in a right bro hug. He immediately apologized for the injury but i stopped him immediately.

" Dude, you literally saved my life. Never apologize for that. Hell the bump might have knocked some sense into my dumb ass"

He chuckled a bit and cuffed me on the shoulder. "Im gonna step out for a little bit. This is gonna be tough for you." looking at my daughter.

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I sighed. "Yeah, this is gonna be rough. I have some explaining to do and forgiveness to beg for."

With a nod and a grim look that could best be described as pity, he walked out but stopped by my daughter. He whispered something in her ear which made her smirk for a moment, but it was quick. He walked out.

I began to speak, but before I said anything, my daughter moved with a speed I have never seen her move at before and just slapped me right across the face. I was completely stunned and speechless. Despite her being 14 now, that little girl was stronger than she looked. The slap stung, but I was in a daze. I looked at her and the tears started to fall. Again I was about to say something, when with all the force she could muster, threw herself into the tightest hug I have ever received.

In my pain and grief, I neglected the fact that she was in just as much, if not more, pain than I was in. I selfishly tried to take my own life while she was suffering as well.

"Baby girl, I am so, very sorry that I put you through all this. I was hurting and in my grief hurt you too." I kept holding her through her full body sobs. My brother peeked in a few times, nodded, and went back into the hall.

"Look at me, please." I said.

She looked through her puffy, red rimmed eyes and just stared. I saw the pain, hurt, and betrayal there. "Listen. I can't apologize enough. Im gonna be here for a little while to get my head right again, but I swear to you now, Im never going down this road again. You and me against the world when im out ok."

She looked at me, quietly for a little while and asked just one simple question. "Promise?"

Now, One thing about this, is that in the entire 14 years that my daughter has been alive, I have never within my power broken a promise to her. Yeah weather causing rescheduling happens, and sickness, but between the two of us, promises were akin to blood oaths, or a Samurai's honor in ancient Japan. A promise between us is a sacred matter.

"Baby girl, from the bottom of my heart and every fiber of my being, I promise I will never put you through this again, and to talk to you about anything bothering me in the future, and to get help when needed."

This seemed to placate her dor the moment. We talked about what's going on with her, how shes feeling. Everything and nothing for 20 minutes or so. My brother came in to get her to go and, with promises to call back and help me find a dr. for my daughter, they left

Over the next several months I endured a rigorous schedule of therapy. Lots of eye opening moments, tears, yelling and eye opening moments. Becky was my rock, helping me with daily routine, accompanied me to the gym after her shift ended, and was a constant source of companionship throughout my stay. When people ask do you wanna talk about something, most people don't realize just how cathartic it is to share your burdens with other people. even if they can't help, just you voicing your problems to someone else helps to alleviate your emotional baggage.

3 months later, I was walking out the facility, head held high, a treatment plan in place and a cute buxom nurses number for me to call anytime I needed someone to talk to.

I got into my brother's pickup and let out a sigh of relief. "Where to?" he asked.

"Lets get Anna and go get something good to eat, and the beach, and the arcade, and...."

Laughing, he stopped me and said, "lets start with get Anna and go get food, then we can go from there."

I laughed back. It was time I started to rebuild what was broken over the last year. Fate, however, wasn't quite ready to let me go just quite yet. Would I be ready to handle any more?

To be continued***

Mental health caveat again. If you know anyone suffering in silence, reach out or call someone. That may make all the difference. to you, it might just be a small thing, but to them it might be everything. to you, it might just be a small thing, but to them it might be everything

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