Addiction: is a condition that results when a person ingests a substance (e.g., alcohol, cocaine, nicotine) or engages in an activity (e.g., gambling, sex, shopping) that can be pleasurable but the continued use or act of which becomes compulsive, obsessive and interferes with ordinary life responsibilities, such as work, relationships, or even health.
Addiction was the only term I could think of to describe my need for Sebastian. I personally believe I was far beyond the stages of compulsion and obsession. My life in general has never been the same since I met him. I was rereading over the definition once again and checking off the symptoms in this self-help magazine. However, after contemplating, there could be worse things or substances to be addicted to, such as drugs, alcohol or possibly shopping but my fix is Sebastian.
It was Sunday night and I was currently attending an all girl's night at Jessica's apartment. Girls night generally consists of the four of us, some cheesy romantic comedies, endless wine, snacks, messed up manicures and following it up with relationship gossip. It usually ended with us hungover and lounging on the couch. Some of our past incidents involve myself being passed out in the bathtub, possibly covered in my own vomit.
Originally I had no intention of coming. However, after my friends complained of not seeing me enough and threatening to come over and kidnap me; I literally had no choice. I can hardly blame them after blowing them off by using my never ending list of excuses such as: the flu, homework, projects or just too tired.
My friends weren't the only victims of my lies and excuses. I have used more than enough excuses with Mason as well as my Father. So far every one of Mason and my study sessions and friendly movie outing have been either reschedule or altogether canceled. As for my Father, he is just satisfied if I call him or make some kind of appearance by his office before he is off designing his next project.
It has literally been nearly a month of nothing but Sebastian and me. I was feeling like a permanent fixture within his life. I truly feared that I was on the borderline of being clingy but he shut down that thought immediately when he complained we didn't spend enough time together because of his large caseloads and my classes. However, when we do get to spend time together, he usually goes all out.
Sebastian has taken me out on a total of 11 dates. We've been to the Movie Theater, plays, dinners, and even to Potomac beach. Initially in the beginning of our relationship his idea of us spending time together consist of taking me out to dinner and coming back to his apartment and having sex. Lately, every date so far has literally felt like a new experience and Sebastian has been surprising as well. Since we defined our relationship he has become like a totally different person.
"Emma!" I heard Carmen call out for me. I glance over into the kitchen where the three of them were gathered close together over a pot on the stove. They looked like the three witches from Macbeth as I looked at their slime covered facial masks they were sporting. "Stop sulking and put the dam magazine down." Carmen frowned and placed her hands on her hip. She was determined to have me participating.
"You can go a day without lover boy," Jess stated firmly. "Now get your ass in the bathroom and put that dam facial mask on. When you're done, bring your ass back here and help us cook this dip," she said.
"Of course your majesty," I chuckled at her request. I then vanished into the bathroom where I spied that sticky, slimy gunk that is suppose minimized pores and make the face glow. I smeared my face, enjoying the fresh smell of mint and lavender. I chuckled as I glanced at myself in the mirror.
I wondered what Sebastian would think if he saw me right about now. Sebastian was not very happy about me not coming over tonight and switching up plans last minute. He had cleared his afternoon schedule to spend quality time with me. Today was going to be our first date that I got to plan. I was going to take him to see "One Flag" which is a historical Civil War film he had been wanting to see. I was then going to follow up with dinner at Port James which was a seafood restaurant, since he enjoyed seafood.
"Emma!" Rose startled me out of my one on one conversation with my mind. "If you stare at the mirror any longer you might fall in," Rose teased.
"I hope not," I chuckled.
"Are you still thinking about him?" She asked me.
"How can I not," I said. Like a true junkie, he was my fix. All Sebastian had to do was call and I came running and falling back into his arms.
"Come on, a little separation will do you some good," she said. "Haven't you ever heard that absence makes the heart grow fonder?" She led me back into Jessica's living room where they were now turning on the movie. Tonight's actress would be Julia Roberts which consist of three to four favorite films starring the actress. On the last girl's night the honorary actress we picked was Sandra Bullock. I settled into my seat, preparing myself for heartfelt laughter's and tearful scenes.
Three movies and three whole bottles of wine later we had finally completed the movie marathon. We were currently lying around Jess's living room gossiping about our relationships.
"So Brandon's been hinting about us getting married," Carmen slurred. Carmen was considered the lightweight when it came to us drinking, so it was no surprise she was drunk before us.
"Really!" Jess screeched.
"Yup!" she said. "We were getting hot and heavy and I was riding him and he moaned out for me to marry him," she chuckled.
"What did you say?" Rose asked.
"I..." She was attempting to gather her words. "I called him a... asshole! I couldn't believe he would assume it was okay for him to blurt it out while we were having sex. How am I supposed to tell my parents or my Nanna? That I was riding his dick and out of the blue he asked me to marry him," she fell back on the sofa giggling. We were in an uproar of laughter.
"That would make an interesting conversation," I stated. "Men are just idiots," Jess said.
"Tell me about it," Rose sighed. "I got accepted into MED school next year, but now Michael all of a sudden wants to try for a baby. Can you believe that?" she asked. "After years of being married, he all of a sudden wants a baby." She drained her glass and slammed it down on the table. She was pissed, I mean she put her dreams of being a doctor on the back burner for Michael and now they are finally financially secure and now he pulls this shit.
