Through The Looking Glass 7

You see me across a crowded room, chatting with a colleague

My long dark hair still shines with the smooth softness you remember

Can I feel your gaze?

My conversation partner departs and I look up at you

Of course I knew you were there

My brow furrows a little

I cannot smile

My chest feels tight

Crushing

How long have I been ignoring this feeling that makes it impossible to breathe?

My eyes are so dark they pierce you

You had forgotten that feeling

Shining

Like a looking glass

For a moment the ground seems unsteady under your feet, you look around but no one else seems to notice

You look back at me

Our eyes are locked

The space and the time between us

fold

tectonic collapse

Drawing us closer...

You are drawn into my eyes, falling into their depth...

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"I won. That monster is going to be behind bars, where he belongs, for a very long time." I look exhausted, but proud as you pour us each another glass from the carafe. After all these years, still you love seeing the satisfaction in my eyes and the strength in my heart when I have served the people well, bringing all manner of criminals to justice. We each have chosen work that is so important, but often dark and emotionally taxing. You are proud to be my partner. I am even more proud to be yours. More and more each day, we are completely in love. I hold up my glass: "This is yummy."

Our favourite restaurant. A tiny candlelit hole-in-the wall with incredible food and an even better wine list. We are regulars here. I am wearing a forest green A line that flares below the knee. It is very open in the front, highlighting my clavicles and the necklace you gave me with the single rose on a vine. It picks up the ribbon of silver in my hair that betrays our passing years. You are wearing my favourite shirt, your cufflinks bear the etching of a tree. You still look incredible.

"He was good." I say as you gesture to the young waiter to bring us our bill.

"He was green."

"Weren't we all once?"

"Well done, my man." We pay. "Tell Sam and Allison that we say you are a keeper."

"Thank you, sir. Have a wonderful evening."

"Do you have one of those for me too?"

"One of which?"

"A big... tip." I grin mischievously and slide my toes up your thigh to bring home my pun. You roll your eyes at me, but my ploy worked. Oops. Good thing you wore a long coat this evening. "I love you."

"I love you more."

I am smiling "... We are so lucky to love eachother most."

Just down the street we head into our favourite jazz bar. It is dark and worn down, but there is always live music. The chairs wobble and the tables are scratched, it is a dive. With a dance floor. We cruise right past our usual table, dropping our coats as we head to the floor. "Great song!" Your right arm encircles me and we take off. As is so often the case, we are the only ones dancing. Lifts and spins we are getting too old for, but we never want to stop. We know the band on Saturdays, and they know our favourites. It is our show. We look great.

As the night wears on, the dances slow. We are sweaty and tired as we head out.

We couldn't be happier.

We walk home under the stars holding hands. Despite the cold we stop in the park to hold eachother, share our breath. We kiss in the moonlight. I press my body against yours and gaze up at you. Unparalleled love. We should always be this close.

The kids are all away this evening. We arrive home and head to the living room. You light the fire as I take off my coat.

Then my dress.

You turn on some Nina as I am undoing your shirt and your belt. I take off your clothes and slide my arms around your neck to gaze at you. With my right hand I play with your hair. You draw a deep and satisfying breath. You look happy. I rise to my tip-toes. We breathe together, our lungs do so well. Perfect together. Lost in eachother. There can be no greater love than ours.

You take off my bra, my underwear. We kneel together. As we kiss, my hands slide down your magnificent arms. Your chest. Your hips. I slide them up your thighs, slowing as they glide over my spot, my pinky fingers graze you... You are so hard. I wrap my arms around you, pulling you against me. I want you. I want to kiss you forever. Beside you forever, I could die happily.

Your hands are in my hair, down my back. Softness. We kiss. We smile. We are so in love. You kiss my neck, my shoulders, my clavicles. You slip your feet between my knees to sit on the floor facing the fire with me straddling you as the fire warms my back. You kiss my breasts and my abdomen. You turn your head to lay your cheek against me as I continue to play with your hair. You can hear my heart beat. We breathe together.

You lay to the floor, holding my hips as you slide your shoulders between my legs.

I catch my breath as your tongue finds its place with the innominate. oh yes. We should never stop. We should always be this close. I whisper "oh my god". You pull back to focus on the clitoris. My knees draw in against you... Deeper now, your lips and your tongue find the perfect rhythm. You feel my hips roll and my back arch. I grasp the coffee table as my legs begin to quiver. You hear the familiar sound of tortured ecstasy in my breath. You love that sound. You can hear and feel and taste my climax building. You want it. You never want it to stop. "oh my god..."

My breathing stops.

A wave.

My pelvic floor contracts; my body is pulling you closer.

Another wave.

My legs relax and you hear me exhale.

i love you

You lay beside me in front of the fire. My breathing is still heavy. I look flushed and blissfully satisfied.

You are kissing my intercostals. My eyes are closed as I breathe you in, savouring the moment.

I open my eyes.

I smile at you and roll you onto your back. I am laying beside you leaning on my right elbow. I drag the fingertips of my left hand across your chest, I lean in to press my lips against you, I am kissing your heart.

I kiss your chest and your neck. I kiss your ear and your jaw. I kiss your mouth. Our tongues dance. My hands glide all over you. I love your body. You love that I love your body.

I drag the tip of my tongue down your neck, your chest, I follow your midline all the way down.

I take you in my mouth.

Sliding and warm.

With my right hand I lift to find you to the very base. I want it all. Every centimeter of you feels my love.

My tongue knows you so well. I know exactly how to draw out your ecstasy. Your body feels charged. Alive. You watch me. You reach down to touch my hair. To feel me loving you... perfect

My lips firm but gentle. My tongue glides all the way along you as I take you in... mmm...

More and a little faster now.

Your head drops back as you bear your teeth. I see your fire. We should always be this close.

yes

Your mind goes white.

Perfect ecstatic release

I hold you as you climax

...

...

...

i love you

I lay on your chest.

Breathing. We are smiling.

Moments pass until you move again, rolling me gently onto my back. You move swiftly now to lift my pelvis in your hands, I giggle with surprise. Before long my head rolls back as I am lost again in blissful pleasure. Your jaw aches as you push a little more... That unique and beautiful sound. My whispers 'oh my god'. My breath. You know my orgasm by ear. You would listen to it forever. We lay together.

Holding hands, we head upstairs to bed. We brush our teeth. You kiss my neck as I brush my hair.

We lay down but I pull you to me. "I love you". We kiss. We should always be this close. You move over me and I wrap my legs around you pulling you closer. Closer. There can never be enough. I look at you so deeply you are sure I can actually see your soul. I can feel you. I can see your fire.

Slowly and deliberately now our hands caress.

Our bodies merge.

I want you.

You want me.

I love you.

Rhythmic

Closer

Breathing together. We slow and move together. We know eachother. We listen as our pleasure mounts in unison.

Closer, drawn together

Push

"oh my god"

Closer

Our eyes close as our souls bear themselves.

I feel your fire.

Closer

"oh..."

An explosion of passion, of love, of ecstasy

You burst into me as I climax

...

...

...

We are still

We cannot breathe

Our souls locked together in that instant

i love you

Perfect together, we sleep.

///

I walk toward you across the conference room.

"It is great to see you."