The appointment was made - booked weeks in advance. I had been looking forward to this particular Thursday afternoon for just as long. Here is how it began.
Is it so wrong that I have wants and needs? I mean, I am a professional woman, single mom of two and busy as fuck. What is so bad about treating myself to a little something special? Some women get manicures or pedicures, Others go for a massage. Me? I treat myself to an hour or two of hot as hell sex. I call it stress release. Others may call it something else. Whatever you want to call it, I know it works just fine for me! Well, maybe a little better than fine...
I hesitated making the call at first. My friend Terri had given me the number weeks ago and I had been mulling it over ever since. I surprised myself when I finally decided to do it. I thought, Fuck! Why the hell not? I'll treat myself. See how it goes.
I finally took the leap.
It was a low-key Friday night. I had had a typical busy week and I was winding down with my second glass of Pinot, flipping through Netflix on my phone. That's when the thought popped in my head and I searched the text Terri had sent with the number. Ahhh...The Number. There it is Jessica! Just do it! My fingers hovered for a moment and then I tapped the phone and, before I could get the balls to hang up, someone on the other end picked up.
"(...I have no recollection of the start of the conversation!)...this is Andrea speaking. And who do I have the pleasure of speaking with on this wonderful Friday night?" Damn, she's chipper! She either really likes her job or they pay is very good. I hesitated and then gave her a fake name.
"Connie," I replied. Oh hell! I just gave the lady my mother's name! What the...?!
"Hello Ms. Connie. Thank you for calling! It's such a pleasure to speak with you! And how may I assist you this evening?" Oh this young lady definitely enjoyed her job! I smiled and my reluctance fell away slightly. My words came out choppy at first until I finally was able to mutter something about a friend...a number shared...a great new coffee shop on Asbury...and then finally got around to asking about how this all worked.
Andrea was very helpful. She made it very clear to me in the beginning that this was in no way an escort service. The gentlemen were for companionship only and any and all other suggestions were false. She asked if I understood and we continued with the details. She asked about my preferences - age, hair color, body type, facial hair, etc. Damn! They had quite the selection! It was just like picking out a pair of new shoes. And, about 15 minutes later, I pushed the end call button and had an 'appointment' with Thomas booked for a Thursday afternoon in about two and a half weeks. Shit, that's quicker than I can get an appointment with my dentist!! I chuckled as I finished my glass of wine, turned the lights out the living room and headed off to bed.
After crawling into bed, thoughts of Thomas filled my mind. Had I really done this? Was I really going to go through with this? What the hell was I thinking? And then the other thoughts took over. I wonder what he will be like. I had picked someone much younger. I don't think I have mentioned age yet. I am in my early 50's. Thomas is 29. This should be fun. Terri highly recommended him.
Since I turned 50 my libido has been in overdrive! I asked my primary doc if that was 'abnormal' because I hear many men my age talking about how their wife has lost interest in sex at my age. I'm over here thinking- what the fuck? I masturbate at least twice a day! What the hell's wrong with them?! Or... is it me? Maybe there is something wrong with me!
My young doc chuckled a bit and said, and I quote,
"Just roll with it. And be sure to use protection."
Well, here's to 'rolling with it'! I opened my bedside table drawer and pulled out my wand and came quicker than a ten cent whore. I got a great night sleep too- finally!
Time sure is slow when you are looking forward to something in the future. I caught myself looking at my day planner and counting down the days, checking my watch more often than I typically do- which is often- and masturbating thinking of my imaginary Thomas three or four times a day. Finally THE Thursday arrived.
I picked Thursday because I work from home two days a week - Thursday and Friday. Also both girls had things after school on Thursdays so I did not have to pick them up at their usual early time. This left me with a couple hours to play with my new 'boy toy'. Oh, maybe he would be offended if he knew that is how I now referred to him in my head. Thomas was 29. That is hardly a boy, but yes he will definitely be my toy! Okay, 'hot, sexy, younger fuck toy'! Ha! Maybe I should get his opinion. I think I am a little excited!
I had showered and freshened up and poured a glass of Pinot to calm my nerves. Not sure if they were from anticipation or from lack of an actual live and in person male, or just from what he will think of me. I do wonder what is going on in his head, too. He's probably going to be cool and relaxed as this is what he does. Here I am trying to be cool and failing miserably.
"Jess, just chill and be yourself," I say out loud to myself.
That's when I hear the doorbell ring. I take a deep breath and force myself to walk slowly to the door. He is prompt. I will give him that!
As I opened the door I see a pair of sunglasses and a, well...um...a hot, sexy, young fuck toy standing right in front of me. A slight grin as he takes off his sunglasses.
"Ms. Connie?" he asks.
Fuck!! I had forgotten I used my mom's name!
"In the flesh!" I flash a grin and think to myself what a dumb ass response that was.
"And you must be Thomas. Please, come in." I step back and invite him in with a wide arm gesture and he enters. He is wearing casual as I had requested. Faded jeans that hug his fine ass just right, a dark grey tee that fits perfectly over his fit, but not too muscular chest and arms. He looks like he might be a runner...or a tennis player...or a hot sexy young fuck toy. Mmhmm. So far - I like!
We exchange greetings and formalities and get settled on the couch in the living room, floor to ceiling windows letting the afternoon light filter through the sheers. I am on the 19th floor of a high rise apartment. It's in the heart of the city but close to work and the girls' school. Close, but far away, I like to say as I can look down on it all and seem to escape the hustle and bustle.
"Thomas, I am actually Jessica," I giggle a bit embarrassed by my admission. "Um, when I called I didn't want to use my, well, my real..."
He cuts me off there and smiles sweetly.
"Oh, Jessica, it is perfectly fine. No worries. You would be surprised how many women use false names. You know, to keep their separate lives and to, well, you understand what I mean."
I nodded my head and was still savoring the way my name rolled off his tongue.
"You can call me Jess." Wow! This is easier than I thought! Thomas had a way of calming me with just his presence. I loved this vibe he was giving off. He reached over and his hand found my knee. It was like an electric shock jolted me when his hand connected to my skin and I jumped just a bit.
"Oh. I am so sorry," his eyes looked as apologetic as his words were.
"No, no, no...it's nothing to apologize for. It was just a little static shock. Just surprised me is all." "I felt it too. I thought you were just electrifying," he says with a chuckle. Aww hell - AND he's funny?! I am in for it! Our eyes met and stayed connected. I mean... I felt this crazy pull... Just a fuck, Jess, I tell myself in my head.
When I finally came back from my little daydream, Thomas was leaning toward me and I met his lips mid-way. I think he felt it too because the kiss? Well, maybe I should clarify. I hadn't had a kiss like this in quite some time. He proceeded to move his hands to my face, cupping my cheek then making his way to the back of my neck and pulling me toward him closer- intensifying the kiss. Soon our tongues were dancing to a dance I had forgotten I knew.
I am not sure at this point if I even was thinking about age. I mean, hell, I was melting like a popsicle in an oven! He definitely had my woman parts heating up, too. Not wasting any time. I like his style. He broke the kiss and asked if I had any special requests. His naughty smile was a sure sign that he might have an idea of what he was doing to me. I decided to just say fuck it and let him know what I was into. I said I had an interest the BDSM lifestyle. Yep. There it is. All cards on the table. Let's see how he reacts. I hesitate when I return my eyes to his. He is still smiling. A little devilish grin now.