I awoke in a heaven I'd tried desperately to forget. At some point she'd turned around in her sleep and nestled into me. She fit
perfectly
, like the missing piece of a jigsaw. Her ass was firmly pressed against my erection.
I shouldn't have done it - she'd made her feelings, or rather her
lack
of feelings, perfectly clear after last time - but I kissed the back of her head and breathed her scent.
That's when I noticed that something was off. Her breathing was uneven, shaky - was she crying? The thunder rolled again, and I wrapped my arm around her torso to hold her close, my heart still begging me to leave. Her breathing, however, continued its strained rhythm, her upper arm subtly vibrating under mine. Curious, I explored down it until my fingertips glanced the back of her hand as it moved rhythmically between her legs. I tensed, and the movement stopped.
"Sam," she whispered plaintively, barely audible against the rain.
"I can't do this again," I said despairingly.
"I need you."
"Why?"
"I haven't cum since our last time... because I didn't want to forget. I don't think I've ever gone this long, I'm so horny and you felt so warm and
perfect
against me that I couldn't stand it..." she said as the movement started again. I let out a groan, desperately trying to sort through my feelings, and there was a pause before she spoke again.
"Sam... I slid my panties down while you slept. I'm so close. If you just tilt your hips..."
"We didn't fuck last time. Given what you said afterwards, why would we now?" I asked bitterly.
"Please. I know I hurt you. But I'm
going
to cum for you. Thinking about how good you feel
.
Just... be inside me. Please. I can't hold it much longer."
I wrestled with my feelings as her hand gradually slowed, probably trying not to lose control before I entered her. I didn't move. Finally, she stopped.
The resulting silence was long and painful.
"I've fucked everything up, haven't I?" she finally whispered, her voice quavering. "This isn't
just
because I'm horny. You were right last time, Sam... I
do
love you. I was just afraid to admit it," she finished with a sob.
I groaned and my hips were suddenly moving. She was so wet there was almost no resistance as I pushed inside.
"Wait." she gasped as I bottomed out. "Let me get used to you."
I could feel her touching herself again, her pussy clenching and pulling me deeper. She was so
hot
inside. My hand slipped between her breasts, palm flat against her pounding heart.
"Okay, slowly" she said finally, and I began to move. She cried out breathlessly as we fucked, her fingers flying. Within minutes she slapped her hand over her mouth to muffle as a cry as she came, her body quivering hard against me. I helped her ride her orgasm as long as I could but soon had to stop, dangerously close to my own.
"Keep going baby," she managed to gasp, still cumming. "In me. Always. It's safe." I started moving again and her breath caught as I exploded. She gripped the hand on her heart until, finally, I began to soften.
"Don't pull out," she said. "Can we just sleep like this? Please?" I nodded into her hair.
Sleep had almost taken me when I heard her whisper. "I'm not afraid any more."
