“I’d fantasize about you,” I admitted slyly, slowly sliding my eyes to his, silently telling him I knew something you didn’t.
“No you didn’t,” he replied whole heartedly, flipping the channel repeatedly and pulling his knee up to lean his elbow on.
“Fine,” I half laughed, “I didn’t.” My eyes didn’t leave his, and he began to get curious as he turned to me.
“When?”
My lips lifted further to a crooked smile. “When didn’t I?” My confident stare made him nervous, a kind of challenge to push further. To know that even when I was just a school girl, among all the others, I was thinking about him.
“I doubt your study days allowed you time to think about me,” he explained as he looked back at the TV.
“Jude, when do you remember me studying? I mean, honestly, in big hour blocks? Sure I’d be sitting in the library going over definitions but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t thinking about…” I let my voice trail deliberately. He was so vulnerable and gullible and sexy. I wanted him, and I knew from that morning onwards he had wanted me. The moment we’d woken I’d gone straight to writing, and his small kisses along my neck and glances from across the room (thinking they’d go unnoticed) told me so. He was suffocating in all the air that drifted between us, and I loved luring him on like a childhood scent constantly drawn to.
My un-ended sentence made him reposition himself to be facing me, both arms up along the length of the couch, one up on the arm behind him, completely open to what I had to say. I gazed at him, into the amused, blue eyes ready for anything behind his glasses. Hair ruffled around his head, sticking up at some places, flopping in others, dry mouth half tilted up like mine.
“Thinking about…?”
I shrugged and looked down at my book, “You know, just girly stuff,” and I looked back up, my eyes clearly stating it was more. So much more.
“You’re going to have to elaborate Ange, as I don’t know exactly what girly stuff is.”
“Guess.”
He was playing now. Playing and waiting for me to let him in. “I dunno… teaching stuff? Stuff I was getting you to study?”
“Do you think I’d really be sitting there thinking about what you were teaching me?”
“I’m a guy, Ange.”
“I’m a girl, Jude.” He threw his head back and chuckled, slightly annoyed but still pleased. “Well, you know. I suppose I’d fantasize about the stuff that we do here. Or that we did back in your room. The kisses, the touches, the sex.”
“You sat in the library with your head in a book thinking about kissing me.”
I let out a ha, and then encased it in giggles. “Jude, I’d think about… well…”
“Well?” He urged and I glanced up greedily.