"What am I doing here? This is wrong. I should go." But no matter how she tried to rationalize to herself what she was doing there, she couldn't take her mind off the task that lay before her. This *was* wrong. It was breaking every rule in the book. But she just had to see; she just had to find out what it was like.
She approached his office door, shaking with a mix of fear and excitement. Could she really do this? She had to know; so she would do this.
She knocked softly on the semi-opened door. He wasn't really expecting her, but she didn't think he'd mind. He was probably in a constant state of expectation, what with all the innuendoes flying.
"Come in?" he sounded a bit confused. Who would come by now? The day was almost over.
"Julian? Hi. It's just me." She flashed him an alluring smile and tried to compose herself. She wasn't counting on him looking so attractive. He always made her nervous. But in a very twisted way, she liked it.
She stood there staring at him, memorizing everything about him. His soulful brown eyes, his chiseled features, and his brown wavy hair all had a strange effect on her. To her, he was the most attractive worker at the college, and she lusted after this man. She had since she first met him.
"Adrian. What can I do for you?" When she didn't immediately respond, he took the time to admire the young beauty. He had never seen anyone quite like her. She was tall, slim and utterly gorgeous. With her light skin, deep green eyes and long black hair, she stood apart from everyone he had previously met. He form was one most women would love to have: long, slim legs meeting a narrow waist and a healthy bust line. She was, in fact, they type of person you love to hate.
Despite her looks, she was one of the most intelligent, amusing and overall delightful people he had the pleasure of working with. And that was why he was attracted to her. He knew, because of the "rules," he shouldn't be, but couldn't help it. She just had that essence about her: men wanted her and women wanted to be her. But right now, there seemed to be more to her than before.
"Are you feeling alright, Julian? You look a bit odd." Her sweet melodic voice filled his small office.
"I'm doing just fine." It wasn't a complete lie. "This is a pleasant surprise, Adrian. What's going on?" Just looking at her, he could feel that familiar sensation in his lower stomach that had kept him up many, many nights. Christ! Not now!
"I need to talk to you about something kind of private. Do you mind if I shut your door?"
"Of course not." He didn't know exactly how wise that was, but he couldn't very well say so to her.
She stepped all the way into his office and shut the door behind her, cutting off all noise and movement just outside his office. She knew she was crazy for doing this. But now she was at the point of no return.
She stood facing the door for a moment longer trying to control her flying thoughts. It was now or never...
"What I wanted to talk to you about... this is hard. Okay. See, I like this guy, and I think he kind of likes me. And I want to try to take things to the next level, but I'm not sure how." She was still facing the door, afraid to look at him and see the questions in his eyes.
He stared at her back for what seemed like eternity. Did he hear her correctly? She was trying to talk to him about her personal life? Strange.
"Okay. But why come to me? Wouldn't your girlfriends be able to help you better than I could?"
She took a deep breath and slowly turned around. Finally she looked into his eyes and saw the true confusion there. Inwardly, she smiled to herself. He really didn't understand, did he? She let her carnal desire for him show briefly in her eyes as she devoured his exquisite appearance. As quickly as it was there, it was gone again.
"I could go to my friends, but they wouldn't understand. I think you would."
Now he was getting confused. And a little bit angry. How could she possibly think to talk about her private life with him? She obviously didn't realize how much he desired her. She obviously didn't realize how close he was to jumping her right there. Of course he wouldn't understand. He would never understand how someone at youthful and desirous as she could be so blind.
"How would I understand? I'm no longer in college with the pressures of college love. I really think you should talk to someone else about this." He was starting to show his agitation.
"No, I really think you could help me more than them. See, they guy I like... well, it's difficult to explain, really. There are many obstacles keeping us apart. And I think that once we acknowledge them, things will be alright."
He stared blankly at her. She couldn't possibly be taking about him, could she? No. That's just his lust taking over his mind. But she was so gorgeous standing there staring at him.
"W-Well," he stuttered. "What kind of obstacles are there? If you guys really like each other, then they shouldn't matter too much. Right?"
Why was he helping her have an affair with someone else? "This guy" was most likely a married man looking for a quick piece of young ass, not fully knowing the girl he was going to fuck. Now if that guy she was into was him... Ah, but he couldn't think about the impossible. Tonight, when he was home, he would think about the two of them together and get off. His usual ritual for as long as he cared to remember. That's the best he could hope for. That's the best he would get.
"That's what I think too. I'm so glad you feel the same way. It will make this next part much easier. The big problem is that this guy... well, it could jeopardize his career if we were to be caught. But I think that it would be okay. I mean, we would be discreet and no one would know about it. This is assuming, of course, that he feels the same way I do. I don't even know how he feels about me."
"Adrian..." he started. The mere mention of her name on his lips melted her. He was looking down at his desk, avoiding eye contact with her. Softly, he continued. "He would be an idiot not to return your feelings."
Her heart was beginning to race. She had thought about this moment for two years. Two fucking years. Now it was time to make her dreams a reality.
"Do you really think so, Julian? I mean, I'm really scared to tell him."
Still looking down he replied "If the guy has any sense in him, he'd feel the same way. Adrian, I really shouldn't be saying these kinds of things to you. You're a student. I'm not. I could get my ass fired."
"I know, but thanks for talking to me. You really helped me out."
"You're welcome, but I really didn't say a whole lot. I guess you figured it out on your own." Good. Now she would leave and this torture would be over.
