My name is Deborah, Debbie for short. I am 23 years old, and a recent graduate of a large state university in Southern California. Yes, I am the perfect image of the California beach bunny, though I don't much care for lounging about in the sun or frolicking in the sand. I'm a pretty intense and serious person, somewhat shy and reserved too, or at least I used to be. But I do look good in a bikini.
I developed young. By eighth grade, I had a set of breasts most women would die for and by the time I lost my "baby fat" in high school I was, I must admit, a knock-out. I'm five feet, three inches, 110 pounds, 36D-24-30—a little top-heavy, I'm afraid, but "stacked" as the boys say.
I have always been popular with members of the opposite sex, largely because of my body. I've never had trouble getting dates and have looked forward to each new relationship with anticipation. None have worked out particularly well. I have an open attitude toward sex, cultivated by parents who never hid their joy in making love. Unlike most kids who can't image their parents ever having intercourse, I know my parents have an active sex life. They never flaunted it when I was young, or made love in front of us kids or anything, but I certainly knew what was going on behind closed doors. Nonetheless, I had not found, until recently, the act of sex itself to be that enjoyable. The boys I dated in high school and college were always interested in fondling my breasts and eagerly wanted to fuck me—perhaps too eagerly, and that may have been the problem. I wanted to be loved, not just desired.
To inspire passion, not just hormone-induced ejaculations. I slept with half a dozen of my more serious boyfriends. I loved feeling their bodies against mine, their hard pricks inside me, their bodies tense and then release. I enjoyed having them kiss and suck my breasts, finger and play with my vagina and clit, and—in a few cases—lick me with their tongues. But not one of them brought forth the screams of passion that I heard emanate from my parents bedroom when I was little and couldn't sleep or on Sunday afternoons when they went off to take a "nap." Sex was nice, but not what I hoped for.
Until about two years that is, when a new fire was awakened within me. It all started in the fall of my senior year. I had heard good things from my friends about Professor Smith, but had never taken any of his classes. Looking about for a political science course to fulfill my distribution requirements, I decided to enroll in his American foreign policy class. From the first day, I found the material exciting. Things that I occasionally read about in the newspaper now made sense. He was a great lecturer, insightful teacher, and great motivator. I wanted to understand the material. Initially reluctant because I just didn't care much about international affairs, I soon found myself deeply interested in world events.
I also found myself deeply interested in the instructor. He is not what I would describe as an especially handsome man—early 40s, I guessed, thin, balding, sort of pale, about six feet tall—but certainly not unattractive either. He was in total command of his classroom. With absolute mastery of the material, he dominated the room and captivated the attention of most of the students—certainly me. I was drawn to him for reasons I never understood, still don't. I am not normally attracted to older men, but Professor Smith was different. I started off sitting in the back of the classroom—after all, this was merely to fulfill some stupid distribution requirement. By the third week I was sitting in the front row listening intently to his lectures—and daydreaming about him at the same time. Yes, my mind would wander.
I imagined myself chatting with him over dinner, holding his attention like he held mine; kissing softly, passionately and feeling his cock swell against my body; taking him to bed and making love for hours, experiencing orgasms like I had never experienced before. I often left class exhausted, not only from concentrating on what he was saying but from the great—if entirely imaginary—sex we enjoyed together. I guess many students get crushes on their professors. This one was big time. The first real love of my life, even though it was not reciprocated, as far as I knew.
The Plan
I wanted him, but just didn't know how to get him. I gathered he was married; he occasionally illustrated complex points with examples from everyday life, including his family. I knew he had kids. Large roadblock.
Nonetheless, I set out to get his attention. I wanted to excel in his class: it was a large lecture, and it would be hard to stand out; doing well on my tests would certainly help and I studied like mad. I never thought passion could enhance learning, but it did. I also started to dress for class. I was never a sexy dresser. My tits and shapely ass got enough attention all on their own. I had never worked to enhance them, and in fact often tried to wear looser fitting clothes to hide them. Not anymore. I pulled out my tight sweaters and tee shirts and bought more. I sat erect in the front row, literally pushing my breasts into his face, or so it felt. I got more eye contact from him. I bought my first push-up bra, an entirely unnecessary contraption before, and wore it with a deep V-cut blouse. It seemed to have the desired effect, as I got even more eye contact. I started visiting his office regularly, sitting across his desk, leaning in and making sure he could catch an eye-full of my ample breasts. He started squirming in his chair. It was working, for both of us.
After almost every class and certainly every office visit, I would rush home, lock myself in my room, and shed my clothes—pretending it was he who was unbuttoning my blouse, unbuckling my belt, unzipping my skirt, undoing my bra, holding my tits and pinching my nipples. I imagined it was he who slid off my now soaked panties, laid my body out on my bed, and started to play with my pussy. He who inserted first one, then two, sometimes three fingers into my cunt. He who gently rubbed my clit, he who brought forth the orgasms I enjoyed over and over again. My roommates began to comment on my closed door and moans and groans. I didn't care. Between studying and fingering myself, I didn't have the time nor will to think about anything else.
My visits to his office became more frequent. I stopped by almost daily with some question, request, or if his door was open just to say "hi." He didn't seem to mind my interruptions. Our conversations eventually turned from the purely professional to the personal. We talked about what I might do after graduation later that year. We talked about my new interest in international affairs—and I mentioned that he had a lot to do with it, a comment that drew an embarrassed response as well as a smile. One day, I came around the desk to show him some table in some book that I pretended not to understand. I leaned over to point a column of numbers, intentionally nestling my breast up against his arm. He pulled back, at first, but as I held steady he relaxed and accepted the closeness. Over the next few weeks, I found many other reasons to cross the desk. He no longer tensed when I touched him.
Near the end of the term, I manufactured a complete scene intended to draw him out, to break down the remaining barriers between student and teacher. I walked into his office all disheveled, teary-eyed, and as upset as I could make myself appear. He immediately expressed concern, and this time closed the door for privacy—a minor victory, because it had always stayed open before—and came around to my side of the desk to sit in the chair next to me. I poured out a story about my boyfriend leaving me (a complete lie, since I hadn't even thought about another man since the beginning of the semester), and forced myself to cry even harder. I'm not a very good actress, but somehow I managed to pull this charade off. He put his arm around me, and my insides leapt for joy. I leaned into his chest, pretending to give into my unhappiness completely, relaxing against his strength, working hard to maintain the fiction of why I was throwing myself into his arms. My tits pressed firmly into his chest, his arms around my shoulders, my face against his shoulder, I was in heaven—I could literally feel my cunt growing moist. I finally pulled myself together, so to speak, and thanked him for his understanding. I stood up, said I felt much better due to his kindness, and reached up to give him a quick kiss—which could have been interpreted as gratitude, but was actually intended to communicate much more. His mouth responded to mine, we lingered longer than was appropriate for only a sign of appreciation. I had won.