"Can the young Lady assist me?"
You jumped and looked at me. Later you would tell me that my brown eyes had pierced you to your soul and that you felt your soul reach towards me. I felt your passion and desire even though all I saw a prim and proper woman with her friends. I had seen you before and had desired you. Flushing furiously you nodded and rose.
"A big hand for the Lady everyone."
Taking you by the hand I led you onto the sawdust floor and you giggled nervously as I stood you against a wall with a silhouette drawn around it. I arranged you to match the image. I must admit that the touch of you excited me and that I had an erection as I stepped back and swept off my red jacket and black top hat from my head. No longer was I the Ring Master but the Master of Whips. I whimpered to you that you may not move.
The kerosene lamps shone into your eyes and could see nothing. You heard me and what I would do; I placed a flower in your hand and snapped its blossom off. The whip danced about you and sometimes you felt the air part as it came so close to you but you trusted me. This was the most exciting thing that had ever happened to you and you did not want it to stop. Yet in the end it stopped and I led you to your friends and everyone applauded you.
The rest of the night passed as though in a dream for you and you barely registered the lions and elephants. You felt lost as you went home and spoke of your adventures at the circus. Feigning tiredness you went to your bedroom and wept into your pillow.
Then somehow you made a decision, you had been good but you wanted excitement you craved adventure not a marriage, not children without a life to a boring honest man. You packed a small bag and waiting for you family to fall asleep you quietly stole from your home. You walked to the circus and the darkness oppressed you and you felt that you should turn and run back to your family. No one needed to know that you had tried to run away.
"Who's there?" I stepped out of the darkness and one look at me stopped your timid hesitations. I had seen you coming here and watched as you had warred with your desires. Only when it had appeared that you would not come to me had I interfered. Startled you answered.
Smiling I stepped beside you and asked," Why are you here we are closed?"
Gulping you spoke softly and I strained for each word.
"I want to join you. I want to see the world and adventure."