Upon discovering the passion and desire that you feel, once you know that you are in love with another person, there is always the greatest of celebrations. It is at this time that neither you nor they will hold back in expressing exactly how it is that you feel. This is a time when having sex will transition to making love. Making love is a celebration of what each of you have found in each other. Such a celebration will be made known in the words to come. Enjoy...
He looked over at her, curled up next to him, with confusion plainly written on his face. "Do you think I would allow you to be here if you didn't?"
"Well, no," she said and then hesitantly continued, "but I've stayed here before without your permission and I've always thought that you would rather be alone."
"What made you think that I would prefer to be alone?" he asked.
"Well you have all of your staff leave as soon as they have finished their work. You only have meals with others when it's a banquet that you are unable to avoid. And you don't seem to enjoy being in the presence of almost anyone," she stated in a soft voice.
"If all of that were true I would have no choice but to agree with you. However, I must ask, do I make all of my staff leave the moment they have finished their work?"
Before she could reply he spoke again. "Have I ever dined with anyone of my own free will? Is there anyone that I seem to enjoy being around? Do you know of any such exception to what you have just proclaimed?"
Amber looked up at him wondering if what she was thinking was what she should say. It sounded too good to be true and she was afraid of having her hopes crushed by pronouncing them. However, the excitement and tension that she felt building within her left little choice as to what she would do. After holding it back as long as she could she finally spoke, her voice clear. "Me."
He was looking at her intently. "You chose to keep me here, to spend time with me, to share a meal with me."
"I will not deny it," he said without elaborating further and showing no intention to as he allowed his head to lay back against the pillow.
"But... why?" She asked unwilling to let the conversation die there.
"Obviously, because everything that you have said is true," he said as he picked his head back up to better look at her.
"That's not what I meant and you know it," she said before she could stop the words from spilling forth. She felt her cheeks blush in response. She had no right to speak to him in such a way.
"Oh, really? Are you sure? Are you sure that I knew exactly what you meant?"
She felt the world begin to start spinning out of control as he asked this question. She looked to him and saw that broad smile on his face. The smile seemed to extend over her and lay claim to her mind, stopping her from thinking clearly.
How can he smile like that? Why do I feel so helpless right now? A smile isn't supposed to bring pain or confusion. A smile is supposed to convey happiness and joy. Happiness and Joy,
the world stopped spinning as she came to this thought.
"Yes, I'm sure. You knew that I wanted to ask: "Why would you make those exceptions for me?' But you weren't going to answer until I asked it properly and for some reason you were happy that I said that you knew what I meant," she said a little more confidently than before.
"Yes, I was," he said in response.
"Why were you happy?" she asked.
He could not stop smiling. "I was happy because for the first time I recognized part of what makes me enjoy having you around so much. I was happy because you showed exactly how strong you are."
She saw what he meant in that moment. "You were happy because I was not afraid of you and because I was right. I stood up when so many others would have lain down."
"Exactly," he said. A surge of joy and excitement began to overcome him as he continued to speak. "You were not afraid of me then and you are not afraid of me now. Why aren't you afraid? Don't you know what it is that I can do to you?"
"I know what you can do to me. You have done it before," she stated simply.
"Yes, I have, but were you afraid of me when you first met me? Were you afraid before you knew what I was capable of and had you completely trapped and within my power?"
She began to say that she had been afraid then, that his presence had terrified her to her very core. However, as she tried to find the words, she realized that they were not true. "No, I did not fear you. I should have, but for some reason I didn't."
He looked off into the distance when he began to speak again, "Exactly, I did my best to frighten you and yet I didn't, I couldn't. I was haunted by the question of 'why?' Why couldn't I break you? Why when I brought you to the edge of destruction did I break instead of you? Why did I always save you?" He had lifted himself so that he was sitting upright as he asked these questions. His voice had grown louder after each question he had asked, but his volume dampened greatly as he asked the last one, "Do you know the answer I found?"
She shook her head no. She was still curled up along his side, but had risen with him and was clinging tightly to his arm. She looked at him with her large eyes wide, waiting for him to speak again.
"The answer I have found is this," and he turned his head to face her once again, "I do not know the exact reason for it, but there is a connection between us. It is very strong and neither of can seem to change or alter its course. I know that you have felt it."
It was not a question. As she stared into his eyes, the power of that connection took the control of her muscles from her. Her head nodded without her consent.