Hi everyone! So, this is a stand-alone story, it is also my entry into the Literotica Annual Winter Holidays Contest, so it would mean so much to me if you give it a quick rating at the end! This story is 'a grower, not a shower', so you'll need to give it a bit of time, but I promise the build-up is worth it for the pay off!
Hope you like it xoxo
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Saturday, November 3
rd
, 2018
It was 8pm and all of my friends were asking me to join them in town. But I couldn't go out tonight. My wages from waitressing were only just barely covering rent, never mind the cost of a dozen jagerbombs on a Saturday night.
I was sitting in my unheated room -- the top floor of an old building. I rented a single bedroom for £550 per month. Bills were another £50. I had to pay the majority of council tax as well, being the only non-student in the flat. The wallpaper was scratched and peeling and there was a patch of damp above the large, single pained windows that didn't open. In summer I hated them because the room got so stuffy at night. In winter I hated them more for their lack of insulation.
I had graduated from Cambridge in June. Now, five months later, I was still in Cambridge trying to find a job. A post-grad degree had seemed like such a stupid thing to get at the time -- it was just more debt. And yet I found myself regretting the decision to not carry on in education as all my friends on my course had. A history degree was useless, apparently, unless you had a masters to decorate it with.
Job websites were also useless, unless I wanted to get another waitressing job or become an office admin. And still I trudged on, refreshing my email and all of the search websites, hoping for a golden nugget.
I sighed and picked up my cup of tea, taking a swig before immediately spitting it back into the cup. Cold. Of course, it was.
Why can't I catch a break
? I remember asking myself before throwing myself into bed. 8pm was a good time to go to sleep.
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At 1am I awoke to my phone buzzing. The caller I.D. showed that it was Olivia, my best friend. For a moment I considered ignoring it -- she always called when she was drunk to tell me that she loved me. But on second thoughts I accepted the call. If she was in trouble, then I'd be the first person she'd contact.
"Hello?" I whispered. My flatmates didn't like me much. They were all still studying, so late night noises were a constant source of aggravation for them.
"Ursula!" Ursula. I had despised the name growing up. I can remember being in primary school and kids making fun of me, calling me a sea witch. When I asked my parents why they'd chosen it, they said it was because of the Little Mermaid. When I then asked why they'd name me after the witch, mum called me ungrateful.
When I came to Cambridge, though, it was the biggest blessing I'd ever had. No one would believe I was working class -- Ursula, it turned out, was a 'fancy' name. The sort of name that girls who owned horses had.
My parents weren't bad people, they were just . . .
odd
. Mum was from a strictly working-class background and believed that getting a starter when you dined out was the height of wealth and sophistication. Dad never really had any opinions or thoughts of his own, he just agreed with mum all the time. They moved to a one-bedroom apartment in the Costa Del Sol in Spain as soon as I left for university. As a result of my upbringing, I spent so much of my time playing catch up and pretending that I knew what it was like to come from money just so I could fit in with my new friends. The only part of me that actually fit in was my name.
"Olivia," I replied, pulling the phone away from my ear. "It's late."
There was giggling and some shouting at the other end of the phone. "Urs, you should have come out tonight!" Olivia was slurring quite badly.
"I couldn't, remember? I'm broke," my eyes were closing again, ready to let me drift back to sleep.
"Have your parents still not transferred you your trust fund? I swear, Ursula, I would
sue
." One of the small white lies I had told. When all of your friends are constantly spending their parents' money it's difficult to admit that your family are broke. I told everyone that my parents were mad at me and were withholding my allowance when I couldn't afford stuff. "It's been months since they gave you anything!"
"They want me to learn the value of earning money," I replied automatically. There was more giggling, and the sound of the phone being moved. "Liv, did you need something?"
"No, silly, I just wanted to say hi," Olivia laughed. "There was one teeny thing though. . ."
"I'm all ears," one of my flatmates smacked the wall separating our rooms. I had stopped whispering. I smacked the wall back -- it was a Saturday night for Christ's sake, and it wasn't like I did this on the regular.
"Matty was in the pub we were at earlier . . . with a
girl
."
My stomach fluttered at the name. Matthew, my ex. The boy who broke my heart. "Oh."
"Look, I'll tell you more about it on Monday, but I just wanted to be the first to say."
"Ok. Well thanks, Liv."
"No worries doll face!" Olivia laughed loudly. I wondered who she was with. "I've got to go, speak to you soon!"
"Bye Liv. Love you."
"Love you too!"
I lay awake for a moment, just staring at the wall. Matthew was with a girl. We'd been together for three years, broken up for just over three months. I don't know why I was surprised -- he was handsome and kind and charming. And we'd been broken up for long enough.
I unlocked my phone quickly to check the time before noticing that I had an email. I didn't recognise the sender, but the subject stated that it was a reply from a job application. In truth, I had applied to so many jobs -- anything and everything -- that I had forgotten about most of them.
Opening the email, I saw it was a nanny job I had applied to up in Edinburgh. Expecting an outright rejection (I had no childcare experience qualifications -- my only asset was two summers as an au pair in Spain) I skimmed the email quickly. To my utter surprise, the email was an invite to a phone interview on Monday morning.
I scanned the details of the job again before accepting.
It was a live-in nanny position in Edinburgh for over Christmas, but with the chance of a permanent position for the right candidate. It offered £15 an hour for 30 hours a week, over-time being paid in accordance to the family's needs. The family had two daughters, aged 2 and 10, and the parents both worked full-time. Even though it was only temporary (no one ever actually means that they're going to keep you on), accommodation and food were both provided, so I'd be able to save a lot of cash before coming back.
I emailed back accepting the interview. It was worth a shot at least.
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Friday, November 16
th
2018
I was standing on Princes Street, looking at Edinburgh castle, with two suitcases beside me. People kept shooting me dirty looks as they went past. I understood why. I was taking up a lot of room and not moving. Honestly, I had no idea where I was going.
I had done the phone interview almost two weeks ago. The mum of the family conducted it. Her name was Isabella Redhurst and she was posh -- the sort of posh that was intimidating because they were also friendly (and you were never sure whether or not they were patronising you).
It had gone really well. She asked me a lot about my background, and I didn't lie and say I came from money. I told the truth -- that I came from a small flat in Huddersfield, that I had been working two jobs for most of university, and that I had no idea where I wanted to be in one years' time, let alone have a five-year plan.