I have been out of college for almost four years now. After graduating at the top of my class and having saved so much money, I opened up my own computer service business. I did some repairs and installations of new units. My main goal was still teaching. I was afraid to apply in case the solicitation charge showed up again. The summer teaching job I lost during my sophomore year stayed in my mind all the time.
I was back in my hometown where I knew most everyone. Most of my family still lived there. I couldn't take a chance on them finding out about my past job as a male escort. I started the computer consulting service and went to different businesses to help them upgrade their systems. I also taught their employees how to use the various programs.
That's right! I was teaching people how to use the computers. Teaching the young people was what I wanted to but this was the next best thing. I was able to build a business on my computer knowledge and was able to teach others.
My sex life was nearly non-existent. I was somewhat burned out on having sex for the sake of having sex. If I felt the urge a few times a year, I was lucky. It's not that I didn't have the opportunity; I did date quite a few women. The problem was I couldn't find the right woman. I wanted to fall in love and maybe have a family.
I guess I had a distrust of marriage in general. All these older women I had been with; all were marriages that weren't working. Cheating for both husbands and wives seemed to be the norm anymore. Husbands wanted to watch their wives fucking another man. So many gays and lesbians were out of the closet. The world of love and marriage seemed to becoming extinct.
I guess people like me were part of the problem. I watched my parents and my sister in their marriages. They seemed to hold it together. Maybe there was still someone out there for me. Just maybe being in college and around sex for five years made me leery of women in general.
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I want to tell you about my grandmother. She's the one I love the most. Not the sexual or incest type love. She would be one of the last people in the world I would want to think about sexually. It's just that she is an outspoken woman, not afraid to tell you what's on her mind.
I loved and respected her my whole life. If I were to tell anyone about my past it would probably be my grandma. Just being around her would brighten anyone's day. My granddad, her husband, died three years ago. They were married over fifty years. She was still able to go on with her life.
She told me she often dreamt of the past. She had all her memories to keep her happy, but she told me to live for the future, that I had a whole life ahead of me. I don't know how many times she told me that I would find that one special woman. She would help me find her if I wanted her to. Grandma always made me laugh.
"Okay, Grandma, when you find her, give me a call and I'll even take her out for dinner," I laughed.
At twenty-eight and quite successful, everyone tried to fix me up. Of course, as I mentioned I did go on some dates but nothing clicked. I never led woman on and I treated them all with respect.
One day I got a call from my mom saying they took grandma to the hospital. Her diabetes was acting up. When I arrived at the hospital, grandma said she was glad to see me. She told me they had to get her sugar under control. She mentioned that she started eating too many sweets.
After I bawled her out, in a nice way of course, she told me that her feet hurt. "The doctor said I should walk a little every day but how can I when my feet hurt? He said I needed to get the blood flowing better to my feet."
I went to the end of her bed and pulled up the top sheet to look at her little feet.
"Jeffrey! What are you doing? Leave my feet alone." She was the only one that always called me Jeffery. I didn't mind, not from her anyway.
"Grandma, just be quiet and let me rub your feet. I took a massage class in college and this might help you."
I brought a chair to the end of her bed to sit on and began. I actually did it like a professional. I started rubbing the ball of the foot and then each toe. I squeezed and massaged the entire foot and then did the other one.
"Jeffery, you're not looking up my gown are you?" she smiled.
"No, Grandma, I'm just rubbing your feet," I laughed.
About that time, a nurse came in and said, "I wish I could get somebody to do that to my feet."
"Hi, Martha," my grandma said to the nurse. "This is my grandson Jeffery. He can do anything. He's smart, good-looking, owns his own business and can even give good foot massages."
"Easy there, Grandma. I'm getting a bit embarrassed. How do your feet feel now?" I asked.
"They feel much better, Jeffery. They don't hurt near as much."
Martha said she had to run some test but my grandma would probably be getting out the next day. I found out later that she was getting a home health care nurse to stop by everyday to make sure she was taking her pills correctly and help her out where needed.
I stopped by every couple of days for at least half an hour to see my grandma. She had lots of family and friends that stopped by, too. They were all reminded not to give her any more sweets.
One day I got a call from grandma at my office. I was worried at first because she never called me there. "Grandma, is everything okay? Are you alright?" I asked.
"I'm fine, Jeffery," she said. "I called you because I found her."
"Found who, Grandma?" I asked.
"The girl you've been looking for and God has for you. Remember you told me to find the right girl for you. Well, I found her; she's my day care nurse. Her name is Amy. When can you come and meet her?"
I was dumbfounded. I remember telling my grandmother she could find me a woman but I honestly didn't thing she would do it. She was so happy that I had to go along with her for a while. I told her I would be over the next day at lunchtime since she told me that was when Amy would be there.
I got to Grandma's house a little earlier the next day so I could talk to her first. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt her feelings, but I had to let her know that Amy might not be the woman I was looking for.
"You'll love her, Jeffery. She has the two cutest kids and she is so pretty and nice."