Dan Harris sat on the couch of his idol as she fetched him a beer from the refrigerator. He shudder and trembled: this kind of conversation wasn't going to be the kind he usually had. It was going to be open and personal and all the things men usually don't talk about. Brenda Keans opened it and brought it over, sitting down next to him, her body snuggling up against his and her head on his shoulder. "What kin Ah tell ya?" he began.
"Where did you come from?"
"Holden, Missouri. Dad was a farmer, Mom was a housewife. Just th' three of us, Mom had problems so I was th' only. They's in their 40's when I was born."
"So you grew up on a farm?"
"Yeah. Lotsa work, day ta day, but we was happy. Always had good food ta eat."
"How was school?"
"I was pretty shy, since I din't know anybody 'sides Mom 'n Dad. One room school till I went ta High School in town. Rode th' bus."
"Did you have any interests in High School?"
"Mechanics. Dad always fixed stuff on the farm, and taught me the basics. Took shop in High School. Worked in town ata garage till they died, then signed up for th' Air Force."
"Anything like drama, music, sports?"
"Nope. No time. Had to git right home after school for chores. The animals din't take a day off."
"You're trembling, Dan. You're so sweet. Please relax, honey. I'm not going to bite, you're safe with me. And if you're wondering, the answer's yes, so don't worry about where this is leading." She kissed his neck and stroked his chest. "Did you have any girlfriends in High School?" He shook his head. "How about when you were in the Air Force?"
"I went out a few times, usually with Alan and his buddies. Din't do much, jest made out, nothin' much. Jest one girlfren', an' I married her."
"What about your wife? What was her name?"
"Martha. Met her in California. Dated a little, figured we's gettin' too old ta wait, got hitched."
"How old were you?"
"40. She's 38."
"Gosh, that's about average now."
"Oh, really?"
"How soon did the baby come along?"
"About 9 months after we got hitched."
"Did you like being a Father?" He tried to speak, failed, tried again, then sat speechless, a tear creeping out of his eye. She laid her hand on his cheek, and they spent several moments in silence. "I guess I don't have to go farther there," she whispered. "What about your divorce?"
"Happened when I got transferred, coupla years later. Martha said she din't wanna move. Made me take little Danny, said she wanted ta git a fresh start wit somebody else, said a lil' boy would git in her way."
"What happened to her?"
"Car crash two years later. She always drove like a bat out of hell. Like she never happened now, don't feel nothin'. 'Specially since lil' Danny's gone."
Brenda sat quietly for a few moments and let him drink some beer, taking a small sip from her own bottle. "Any other women?"
"Naw, not really. Alan tried ta throw me a leftover sometimes, but I wasn't innersted."
"Do you still find women attractive?"
"Oh yeah." His hand grasped her shoulder gently, and he looked down her halter top. She smiled up at him, savoring his lust peeking out from behind his fear, wanting to encourage more. Her hand touched his, and she settled into him for a moment.
Brenda leaned forward to give him a hard kiss on the lips. She moved and sat on his lap, embracing him and stroking his back. Wiggling her butt, she encouraged a bulge in his jeans to grow and grow.
Breaking the kiss, Dan looked at her with a puzzled expression. "I thought you weren't intrested in, in, in men."
She kissed him again for several seconds, and said: "You got that wrong."
"Huh? You mean you dated guys?"
"Dan darling, one thing you need to learn is a lot of people don't vote a straight party ticket, and some of us think variety is the spice of life." He initiated a kiss, and she responded eagerly. They necked like teenagers on the couch, their arms around each other. Their mouths opened, and soon their tongues were darting back and forth before entwining.
After 20 minutes, they came up for air and looked at each other. Dan took a deep breath, and looked away, out the window at the foliage. "I, I, I never dreamed this. . ."
"Me neither," Brenda whispered, stroking his chest. "I thought part of me was dead, never to rise again."
"Yeah, what you said."
"What would you like to do next, Dan?"
"Huh?"
"Do you want to make out some more? Go a little farther? Take off our clothes?"
He looked down, and she tried to follow his eyes. "I, I, I don't know what comes next," he whispered.
Shaking her head, she lifted his up to meet her eyes. "What do you mean, Dan? You've made love to a woman before."
"Well, Brenda, I grew up in a diff'rent time. There was back seats, an' we'd kiss and snuggle, but that was a far as most of us got. Only felt up titties through clothes. When I was married, we'd go right to the, the, the main event if I was ready. Never saw my wife nekkid, never saw anybody I ever dated nekkid."
"You've seen women naked, you've seen me naked at the pond."
Blushing, he turned away. "I watched movies, saw what folks's doin', watched a few stag films when I was in the Air Force. Alan's got a bunch. He took me to a coupla strip clubs, but that's not real. But I never knew what a lady. . .liked. An' I though. . .what you like might be diff'rent."
She threw her arms around him and squeezed hard. "You want to learn how to please me? What a wonderful man. Of course I'll teach you what I like." Letting him go, she gave him another deep kiss. "And you can teach me what you like."
His eyes were blazing with lust, but he was still trembling in her arms like an abandoned sparrow. "I don't know what I like," he muttered. "Never tried some stuff."
Another kiss and squeeze. "I've got a few ideas, honey. I've got a lot of experience."
"You do?"
"Yes, silly boy. Oh my, you grew up in a time when good girls were supposed to have less experience than their men. Bad girls could be slutty, but girls you went out with and married were virgins, right?" He nodded his head. "And you see me as a good girl."
"Th' best, Brenda, th' best." He sighed deeply. "I could only worship you from afar. Oh, I imagined we were, were, were, havin' sex, but I never thought I'd be close, not this close."
She put her finger over his lips, and shushed him. "I'm not as good as you think I was. Lots of women didn't talk about everything they wanted, everything they did, in those days. California is a free place, where lots of different people can explore themselves and find out who they are. I was a loose girl, Dan, I tried a lot of different things, different relationships. When I was a very young girl, I made a stag film."
His eyes bulged wide open and his mouth came open. "You what?"
"That's all right, Dan, it was a long time ago. Yes, I made a movie where I took off my clothes and had real sex with real people. I'd just come to Hollywood and a guy I met when I was bussing tables told me about a film company that needed actresses. Thought it was a dream come true. Got to a private golf club in the hills, and found out what they wanted to do. . ."
"I'm sorry, Brenda. It musta been rough, humiliatin'."
"Oh, it wasn't too bad. It was about 8 minutes long, and we spent two nights filming it. Did it not long after Deep Throat, so the makers through they'd have another hit on their hands, talked about making it rich. Of course, they were completely full of shit: the movie was hardly seen, and they all disappeared."
"What happened to it?"
"Oh, it was put out in reel to reel, that long ago. Guess it got seen at a few bachelor parties and frat houses, adult movie houses. Now one of note noticed it. I got a copy, and had it moved to DVD. Becky thought it was funny."
"Musta been awful."
She looked at him square in the face. "I loved every minute of it. Two guys and another girl and I did everything to all three of them. It didn't all get on tape, but it was an orgy and I loved it. My body felt so alive, my head was spinning for weeks afterward. Kinda hoped they'd want to make another one so I'd feel that way again. But then I got hired for some guest spots on TV, and I had to hide the past. When I was in the series, I had a personal conduct clause that pretty much killed my night life, and I got paranoid about the press."