Filing into the large room I am greeted by familiar and smiling faces. Hands shoot forth to shake mine while others wrap around me to pull me to them in a warm embrace. Uncomfortably, I return each handshake or hug with one of my own. I don't want to be here. But you would want me here, wouldn't you? We would both be here if you could have managed to come.
Questioning gazes fall on my person. I know their thoughts, many too afraid to ask. They all want to know where you are. "Where is Stephaney?" they all want to ask. I can feel it.
Should I tell them? They can't know about us...how much in love we were. No one can. It was our moment. Many of them think they know about us. We were the talk of our high school, after all. Everyone wanted to know if we were "doing it" or if we had "gone all the way". They couldn't understand our love, though. They could never understand that we were saving ourselves β our moment - for that special day, not wanting our first time to be in a car or a seedy motel room. We wanted it to be special.
I wonder if they still wonder if we ever "went all the way" back then. Do they still wonder about our first time? Could they ever understand why we waited until after graduation, for a time when we could be together without fear of interruption or hurried tackiness? I doubt it. They were all in a hurry to lose their virginity. We were in a hurry to spend our lives and love with each other. Yes, we "did it". But we waited for the right time and place.
It was a hot summer night when we first made love. I remember shivering despite our sweat - or maybe because of it. I was clumsy, scared. I fumbled with the small buttons on your blouse, snapping one off in my slowed haste. You laughed and kissed the tip of my nose, easing my nerves. I laughed too. A sudden confidence took me by surprise and I ripped your blouse open, scattering buttons to "tick, tick, tick" on the hardwood floor. You pulled me against you, embracing me and filling my mouth with words of your love.
I was hard, my cock waiting for the inevitable. Still, I was scared, shivering against your warm and goose bump covered body. I knew you were scared too. How could you not be scared? But we were in love and we were together. That was all that mattered.
I undressed slowly as I could, my still buttoned shirt cuffs getting caught on my wrists. You caught my wrist as I flailed about, attempting to free myself from the bedeviled shirt. Slowly, you slid your tiny fingers between the fabric and pulled, sending the offending buttons aloft. We laughed at the "tick, tick, tick" of the buttons as they scattered across the floor. We listened to the last button, as it rolled across the floor, settling, finally, into it's final rotations before coming to rest.
At last, we were both naked. I was on top of you, my cock ready and wanting. Your legs spread slightly, allowing me to progress. "I'm sorry", I whispered, still fumbling to gain entrance to your secrets.
"Shhh" you whispered, our eyes locked together. Then you smiled at me, sliding your hand down between us to guide me into you. Slowly, I found my way into the moistness between your legs. A moment of pain crossed your face and I hesitated, fearful that I had hurt you. Then you smiled and kissed me, assuring me. Then, slowly, we began thrusting into each other, our bodies taking over.
When it was over, I was humiliated and elated. I had been inside of you, the love of my life, but I had not brought you satisfaction, climaxing in mere minutes. I looked into your eyes, afraid of what I might see. But you, in your goodness, were beaming a smile of understanding. You understood. But you always understood.
We made love again that night. This time, we made love under the moonlit night, in the backyard. This time I did not face humiliation, lasting far longer than before. I can still hear your moans as I rocked into you, bringing you to climax as I had wanted to so badly.
"Where is Stephaney?" asks a woman with a familiar face. "You two were so cute together. I heard you got married."
"Yes we were married," I tell her. "We were married in October, the year after graduation. It was a small affair; family only."
She asks a dozen questions before someone else catches her attention. "Yes, we did save something for our honeymoon" I tell her.
She wants to know more. She wants things that are private and best left secret. So I answer a few questions. But I don't tell her everything. I don't tell her how our wedding night was the first night I tasted you. I don't tell her how you wanted to save that thrill for our wedding night.
I can still see the excited look on your face as the moment approached. There was a fire in your eyes, even as there was fear. I can't know why you were afraid, only that you were. You even pulled your thighs together as I slid between them to take my first taste of you.
It was only after my soft caresses against you that you parted your legs enough for me to slip between. You were shivering and tense, the fear of the unknown filling you, until the first few flicks of my tongue against the soft skin of your inner thigh.