A blanket of nothingness took over his mind as he pressed the doorbell to apartment number 701. On his way there, while waiting for the coast to be clear, on his way into her apartment complex, all he could think of was the conversations that they had had; the expectations that either of them might have held onto. As the elevator ascended each floor, the thought of expectation along with the anticipation started to fade, only to be replaced with satisfying nothingness.
They had 'matched' on a dating app and had almost instantly begun to create a rhythm. A rhythm that they still are working towards perfecting but in actuality, neither of them really want it spelled out. The process of getting to know each other was coupled with a bond that began to develop the very first hour that they had met, only for it to turn into a box of desires as the evening progressed. From sitting at the bar and whispering sweet nothings, to feeling and caressing each other while stealing kisses outside, the 4th of March 2019 became a day the both of them would cherish and re-live in their own special ways for months and years to come.
All he could think of upon reaching home that night was the innate desire he saw in her eyes. The desire to pull him close and plant her lips on his, the desire to show him just how badly she wanted him and how the world around them didn't matter. The journey home had been filled with thoughts of the day. Thoughts of her. The way she smiled, her apparent anxiety, her peeking gaze while he wrote a little note to her; the way she twirled her hair and shook her leg underneath the table; the birthmark right above her lips, the ring on her finger, the hair-ties around her wrist. The way she spoke, with a slur that set-in towards the latter half of the evening; her eyes, intoxicating and immersive, searching for tells while she spoke to him. The thought of asking her to be with him came as second nature, requiring absolutely no amount of thinking or over-thinking. Her affirmative answer lifting the biggest weight off his chest.
Sometimes you just know, and this was the most profound instance of simply knowing. Knowing that they would make a good fit. That they would make a comfortable and comforting fit.
They spent the following days getting to know the other person- their actions and reactions, the amount of interest that each conjured in speaking to and meeting with the other. More meetings, more alcohol, more love and more friskiness. They were off to a beautiful start. It was only a matter of time before their conversation became more risquΓ©. What had transpired during the times that they met had left a void that desperately needed to be filled. He remembered the first night that they had met, how he had put a hand up her shirt and cupped her left breast. The way her lips felt against and on his and how badly he needed to explore her mouth while his hands explored every inch of her body. Of how they sat, body to body, radiating a heat he hadn't felt in a long, long time. Sparking a desire he didn't know could be lit, not that soon. Their conversations made it apparent that he was not the only one feeling this way. She had spent her nights imagining and visualizing, pleasuring herself to the conversations that they had. Each meeting, each touch made them more restless to give into their carnal desire. To experience their first proper hug, their first passionate kiss, and then let their hands and bodies take over.
Hours worth of conversation and visuals ran through his mind while he was on his way to meet her. Recollecting the first and only time he had pressed her ass, he could have sworn he felt its softness and texture on his palm even then. The visual of her nibbling and suckling at his ear again made him hot, bothered and restless. His body was exploding with the desire to touch hers. To make her submit to his touch.