Even as she reached for the door, Jennifer still couldnât believe she was doing this. She was actually going into the bookstore. She reached for the door, fighting the urge to turn and run. She told herself to calm down, it was absolutely normal, but she couldnât ignore the sensation. It was neither unpleasant nor good but was very strong. She could feel her breath entering her chest. She could feel the hair on her neck standing up and feel her shirtsleeves brushing her arm from the slight breeze. She could hear the distant sound of freeway traffic just as if she was standing next to it. Jennifer quickly opened the door and entered before she changed her mind.
Her first thoughts were that it wasnât as âdirtyâ as she had imagined. She noticed how brightly light it was. As she entered the room, she saw along the far right wall, a brightly lit sign advertising an âArcadeâ and beyond that, along the same wall, were hundreds and hundreds of adult books. The left wall contained sexual toys to numerous to even focus on. The center of the room contained rows and rows of movies, and next to her was the cashier. Jenniferâs mouth was now dry from the nervousness, but then she noticed the cashier was a girl and that helped some. Mustering up her courage once more, she entered into to rows and rows of movies, looking for something to catch her eye.
After about 15 of the longest minutes of her life, Jen realized this wouldnât be as easy as she thought. The movie names ranged from simple, such as, âA long wet nightâ to the wilder âFuck her hot assâ. The covers had pictures of women and men of all sizes and all groupings, men with women, women with women, and men with men. Realizing that, with nothing to base her decision on, she would be her much longer than she wanted to be, she grabbed a couple of movies and headed for the counter.
âHi, Iâm Terri and youâve never done this before have you?â asked the clerk. Jennifer answered that she hadnât and asked why. âWellâ, answered Terri, âFirst of all your way to nervous, and second, these are the kind of movies that some one like you would normally not pick outâ. Terri was a black girl who looked to be in her mid-twenties and had a very charming smile. Not beautiful, but attractive and looked very friendly. Feeling herself calm down a little, Jennifer asked for her suggestions. After finding out that Jennifer was single, not really a âporn expertâ and looking to see if this were even something she would enjoy Terri made two suggestions. âFirst, âSexual Smorgasbordâ, a collection of different scenes to give you some variety. And, second, this book.â Terri handed her a copy of âPenthouse letters, the collectionâ. âWatch the movie, read the book, and I think youâll have a better feeling for what you likeâ
After getting her membership, Jennifer quickly headed for her car. On the way home she kept the bag under her coat just to make sure cars beside her on the highway couldnât see it.