Rose stared out at the sea stretching for miles in front of her. She closed her eyes as the warm, summer breeze wafted through her hair.
"Lemonade," a voice said from behind her. She opened her eyes and happily took the tall glass of lemonade from Paul.
"Thank you," she said graciously as he sank into a seated position next to her on the small pier.
"You're beautiful," he said softly, "have I told you that already?"
"Several times," she replied. "Thank you." She set her lemonade down and wrapped her red kerchief around her head, securing her hair from the Atlantic breeze. She then pulled off her shoes and set them next to her on the dock and let her feet dangle over the edge, precariously close to the lapping water.
"I have some bad news," Paul said suddenly, his voice lowering.
"Oh?" Rose asked, turning her attention fully towards him. She wasn't crazy about receiving bad news lately -- not that there had been a lot of it thrown at her. However, it had been nearly a week since the party and she hadn't seen or heard a single thing from James. Her feelings were conflicted -- she didn't know whether she should feel angry, sad or relieved. Mostly, she was angry and hurt. He had promised her the night of the Fourth that he would come back for her, but he had let her fall asleep in a closet -- a closet! -- and like a puff of smoke, he was gone from her life once again. Paul helped her avoid an embarrassing situation at home and in front of family friends, she felt like she owed him something. Although her lips remained sealed as to the reason she had been leaving the party alone at six in the morning on the fifth of July, he hadn't pressed her for any details and assumed the best. The past couple of days she was actually starting to grow fond of him and with no persistence at all, she had agreed to let him take her into town for a date.
"I have to go back to the city for a week or so," he said. "I'll be cooped up there for a while." He delivered the news as if he was leaving the country.
Rose smiled, relieved, "That's not bad news."
"I don't want to miss a second with you," he said, taking her hand into his. She smiled weakly. He was so sweet, but he was missing something that she couldn't even begin to put her finger on. He simply didn't make her feel the same way that James did when she was with him and she desperately wished that he did.
"A week is hardly a long time," she said.
"But you're so beautiful and you go to so many parties," he worried, "if I'm not around, who knows who might snatch you up?"
She smiled earnestly this time, knowing that there was only one other man who he could possibly be worried about -- a man who arrived at the most inopportune times and disappeared as mysteriously as he had come.
"I'll fend them off," she whispered. She leaned in close to Paul and kissed him softly on the cheek. She lingered for a moment, hoping he would aggressively turn his lips towards hers and kiss her for real, but he remained still.
"You aren't like most girls," he said thoughtfully after she had pulled away.
"My curse to bear," she muttered under her breath. She turned her gaze to the horizon once again and the two of them sat silently for a few moments. She sighed, feeling frustrated by Paul's lack of forwardness, and decided to make her move. Slowly, she moved her hand across the dock and gently rest her hand against his thigh. She could feel his eyes on her before she even glanced over in his direction. Slowly, she moved her hand further up his leg until her hand was nearly grazing the crease his pants made from sitting.
"Rose," he said, slowly and in a hushed voice. She turned to him quickly, a devilish smile on her face and she pressed her finger against his lips.
"Go with it," she said as she leaned in and kissed him aggressively, the way she wished he would kiss her. She could tell he was startled by her actions and he was nothing like James when it came to kissing -- he reminded her of all the boys she had kissed in the past, inexperienced and uncertain.
"There might be..." he managed to say before Rose nibbled at his bottom lip, quieting him, "...people!"
She pulled away, she wanted to kiss him again, but the frantic look in his eyes told her not to. She sighed with resignation and turned back towards the ocean.
**
Rose furrowed her brow before opening her eyes. Something or someone was blocking the sun and she did not appreciate it. Thinking it was her little brother, Robert, she swung her hand in the direction of the shadow and was startled into opening her eyes when her arm hit a strong, muscular body instead of her little brother's small and twiggy frame.
"Long time no see," James said, smiling as he took a seat next to Rose.
Her eyes grew wide and she bit her tongue before she had the chance to curse at him. Instead she asked, "Where have you been?"
"I'm sorry about the Fourth of July," he said in a hushed voice, carefully eyeing the gardener not too far away. "I was pulled away by my friend's wife and they closed off the top floor where you were in the bedroom and I had to leave for the city first thing the next morning..."
"Did you forget about me?" Rose balked.
"No!" James exclaimed. "I thought about you all night, but I couldn't get back up to the bedroom and..."
"I slept in that closet all night!" she hissed. "I waited for you and I had to catch a ride home with Paul! Which wasn't awkward at all..."
"That boy you were dancing with?" he asked, and Rose could have sworn that she caught a tone of jealousy in his voice.
"Yes, the boy that I was dancing with who doesn't forget me in a closet and who doesn't disappear for a week!"
"I'm sorry!" he persisted. "I was just..."
"You couldn't send me a note? Nothing?" she stood up, angrily and grabbed her towel from the chair she'd been reclined in.
"Rose," he said, "hear me out."
"No," she said quickly. Then without thinking, "I'm with Paul. I've chosen Paul. You can go back to your small estate and be lonely now. I'm through with this." And with that, she ran back up to her family's house and retreated to her bedroom.
**
There was a quiet knock on James' door, so quiet that he wouldn't have even heard it had he not been sitting in the next room reading. He went to open the door and was more than a little surprised when he opened the door to see a wet Rose standing on his doorstep. He looked around, briefly wondered when it had started raining and quickly pulled Rose inside.
"Sorry," she muttered, "can I get a towel?"
"When did it start raining?" he asked, turning for the bathroom off his living room.
"Just after I left," she replied.
He quickly returned to the foyer, towel in hand and gave it to Rose. She thanked him and began rubbing down her arms and clothes. James took in the sight of her standing there. Her hair was a mess, her wet curls giving her the appearance that someone had just thrown a bucket of water in her face. Her fingers were red from the cold of the rain and her flowered sundress hung limp around her legs.
"You need to change," he said without thinking twice. A small pool of water was forming around her feet and she looked up at him with the saddest look he could remember ever seeing.
"I'm so sorry," she whispered, her lower lip trembling, a precursor to the tears that would follow seconds later.
James quickly closed the gap between the two of them and enveloped Rose in his arms. She cried silently against his chest but refused to wrap her arms around him.
"It's my fault," he said quietly, running his hand through her wet hair. "I know I should have come to get you, I know I should have spoken to you before this morning..." He pushed on her shoulders to get a good look at her. He smiled weakly and she returned the same, weak smile. He kissed her once on the forehead, then the tip of her nose and finally he softly pressed his lips against hers.
"I don't want to love you," she said meekly.
He smiled, "That would certainly make things easier, wouldn't it?" She bit her lip and nodded. "Come on, you'll get sick if you leave that wet dress on."
He led her upstairs to his room and immediately went to his drawers to procure something for her to wear in place of the dress she'd come in.
"I don't want to be a bother," she said, still standing in the open doorway.
"You're no bother," he said as he pulled a pair of pajama bottoms from the top drawer.
"I really just came to say that I was sorry," she insisted, even though she was already slipping herself out of her wet shoes.
"At least stay to warm up," he said as he rooted deeper in the drawer. "You must be hungry, too, have you eaten?"
She shook her head 'no', even though he wasn't looking in her direction, "My mother went out. Father went to the city for a couple of days. Robert and I were on our own."