God!
I feel horny tonight... Positively
concupiscent!
(Don't you just
love
discovering new words? Just think... That word has been lying there for decades -
centuries
, even! - stuck between the pages of some dusty dictionary, meaning its heart out, and just
aching
to be taken out and
used
once in a while. Jealous as hell of
'horny'
(or
'randy',
if you're a Brit), which get
all
the attention. Well, little word (big word, actually): now's your chance... Take wings and fly! I'm re-introducing you to the reading public!)
Do you ever get like that... horny? (I mean
concupiscent,
of course). Cat on a hot tin roof - that's me, this evening. Lonely, too; and
restless
, you know? All my best nerve endings seem to be firing at once. Maybe I'm ovulating.
I can't sit still. I just prowl around this empty house looking for I don't know what: Relief? Company? Sex? All three, and then some? Yes, please! I don't often get this way, but when I do... Watch out! I may not be entirely responsible for my actions.
If you've read the
first installment
of this autobiography, you know me pretty well already; so it shouldn't shock you to know that right now I'd settle for either gender (or both); any number (equal to or greater than one); any age (equal to or greater than eighteen, or I wouldn't be able to tell you about it here); and any race, creed, or color.
Even
any political affiliation! Although that last one could be a tad difficult: we might have to agree not to talk too much, before or afterwards. Either that, or there's always that roll of duct tape I took with me in
Saving Miss Stacey.
See how desperate I am?
From my sorry condition, you can probably guess that his brother left last week. (If you don't know whose brother I'm talking about,
French Letters
will fill you in.)
What
is
it with that family? They keep
leaving
me, dammit! He's chosen his college for next Fall, completed the application, and gone off to spend the winter working in a ski lodge in Colorado. As he said when he left: it's a tough job, but
someone's
got to do it! All that sun and snow, crawling with beautiful people looking for new adventures and vacation romances!
With his new-found confidence (not to mention some of the tricks he's learned from me since he turned up on my doorstep last May), I can just imagine the string of lucky girls he's going to entertain after hours!
God
, how I'd love to be in his bed beside them! Or beside
anyone
, for that matter. Not fussy; not this evening.
Actually, writing seems to be helping a little, so maybe I'll stop my prowling and whining for a while, and talk to you instead. Got a minute? Let me just adopt my favorite writing position - you know: naked, lounging in bed with laptop on midriff, nestling against my pussy... There!
Now, what shall we talk about?
Oh,
I
know! You'll
love
this! (Well,
I
did). He'd been with me for a little over a month - the brother, that is - and with my dear, generous bf's blessing from faraway Paris, we'd continued to sleep together ever since I'd overcome his shyness and turned his life around by taking his virginity (Another one of those tough jobs!). By this time, he was getting really good in bed, and I was enjoying that wonderful feeling of wellbeing that a girl gets from regular fucking. Know what I mean? I do hope so.
How did I feel about
him
, apart from being grateful for all the sex? I'd often asked myself the same question, mostly at times when he didn't have his lovely prick buried balls-deep in my vagina. (I find
that
gets in the way of clear thinking, don't you?) The best answer I could come up with was that he felt to me like a younger brother... a brother with benefits, that is!
I knew where my heart was... Still do, for that matter: in a rooftop garret in Paris with a guy who, at least according to one version, had narrowly escaped death at the hands of a sex-starved French psychopath! (You can find all the gory details of
that
little episode in
'French Letters'
, too
.)
Anyway, there we were, the two of us: in bed, both naked, of course. Actually, he wasn't completely naked; he was wearing a blindfold. He'd read a draft of the story that I was working on at the time
:
'My Last Will and Testicle'
, which has a scene where one of the participants in a threesome is blindfolded, and he wanted to see how it felt to have sex like that: blindfolded, I mean. So he asked me to blindfold him, which I was happy to do... solely in the interests of research, you understand.
Then I undressed him, got him thoroughly hard using my lips and tongue - never difficult, and always enjoyable - and then I straddled his hips like the backward cowgirl I'm not. I sank back onto his rigid prick (
God!
I simply
love
that feeling!), watching myself in the big mirror that I keep at the foot of the bed especially for occasions like this. I watched us screw for a while, then closed my eyes to concentrate on his warm penis throbbing and twitching inside me.