Kimiyo
"I'm sure you've all been curious about what this lockdown means for your jobs. Believe me, this is not what we wanted. But, as you know, Governor Cuomo has shut down all restaurants and bars until further notice." The room is somber as my manager Justin addresses the group of socially distanced employees. I hold my breath, not sure what I'm expecting, but after the last couple of days I know that it's going to be bad. "We are obviously hoping to get back up and running as soon as possible, but we imagine it will not be at full capacity. Therefore, we want to offer you a choice. We can lay you off so that you can be eligible for unemployment benefits, or you can stay on and wait it out with us. We may even be open in a few weeks for to-go orders..."
He keeps talking about the details, and I feel my chest tightening. What am I going to do? I waver on my feet and decide to sit in a barstool before I pass out, then try to refocus on what Justin is saying. This is not what was supposed to happen. I need this job- I'm going to have to quit school without it. "I know this is a big decision, so take today to think about it. Let me know what you've decided. If you choose to go on unemployment, I'd do it soon, since I imagine there is going to be an overflow of applications right now, and you don't want the money to be too delayed." Justin dismisses us and I wander out onto Houston, the surprising March sun blinding me and disorienting me further. I'm physically shaking and breathing hard into my paper mask, and I feel a panic attack coming on. I find a bench and settle in, trying to settle my thoughts.
My phone starts ringing, and I see the beautiful face of my best friend Louisa. It's almost as if she can tell I need her. I take a deep breath and answer, bringing the phone to my ear. "Dios mio, Kim, this is insane! The city is literally freaking out. Noah and I went to the store earlier and it was a madhouse! But don't worry, we bought you a huge pack of TP and sanitizer and a shit-ton of non-perishables just in case. We're dropping them off at your apartment now. Where are you??" She spoke as rapidly as ever, and I was momentarily touched that she and her boyfriend Noah would think to stock me up like that. God knows I need it... my bank account is dangerously low.
I swallow, knowing I have to tell her what's going on. "Lou, I'm freaking out," I say, and she flips into high gear, taking on the supportive role she is so practiced in.
"What's happening amor?" she says, her voice laced with concern.
I explain the choice that Justin just gave us. "I am going to be homeless, Lou. You know I'm already behind in rent for my tiny place in Chinatown since Joel dumped me. Without working, there is no way I can catch up. I'm going to have to drop out of school to work, even though I'm so close..." I can feel the tears pooling in my eyelids. Joel leaving two months ago was still a sore spot for me- I really trusted him and he broke my heart and left me scrambling.
"Take a deep breathe. Inhala, exhala," she told me, sensing how distraught I am.
I try to follow her instructions and use my breath to calm me down. "What do I do?" I ask, my voice breaking.
She sighs, "Querida, I'm sorry about Joel. I mean, you know that I hated that forro. And I know he left you in a bad spot, but you have to let him go," I grunt in agreement and wipe a tear from my cheek. "I think that you should apply for unemployment- it will give you a chance to figure out next steps, and who knows how long this thing is going to last," she offers advice, and I know she's right.
I swallow before replying, trying my best to hide my emotions. "I think that makes sense, but what do I do until that goes through? It could take weeks, and who knows how much I'll be able to get? I could be evicted before any money comes through, and I can't imagine moving in with a bunch of roommates in the middle of an international pandemic!" my heart rate increases again.
Over the pounding of my blood in my ears, I hear Noah's voice in the background, "Sounds like Javi's problem."
"What?" I ask, confused what this has to do with Louisa's brother Javier. He's been staying with them for about a month while he looked for a job, which I guess would be on hold now.
"Espera.... That's brilliant, Noah!" Louisa exclaims, and I can hear the gears turning in her head. "We can solve both of our problems!"
I roll my eyes. Sometimes, Lou can be a bit overzealous, and she doesn't always think things through. "What are you talking about?"
"Escuchame, Kimiyo. Noah and I are going to get out of the city and stay with his parents in their Hamptons house," she starts, but I interrupt.
"You're leaving me?" I can't hold back the pain in my voice.
"I know, I'm sorry. But listen! You know we were going to move out of that place anyway so we could find a studio together, but since we haven't signed a new lease yet we figured we'd save on rent while all of this is going on."
"That makes sense, but what does that have to do with me? Can I move into your room?" I'm confused at how that will help me, since our rent is not that different.
"No, we didn't re-new the lease, so we have to be out in two weeks," she clarifies.
"Okay..." she is not clearing things up for me.
"Which means Javi needs a place," she explains.
I furrow my brown, trying to process what she means. "He can't just go back to live with your parents?"
"Not right now, they've put up travel bans to Argentina. He's stuck in the city and he's pissed that I'm leaving him without a place," Louisa scoffs, as if he was the most annoying twin brother in the world. In reality, they are very close
I roll my eyes again- the two of them have been non-stop fighting since he moved in with her. I think close quarters were getting to them, especially with how similar Louisa says they are. I've only met him a few times, but they really are alike- energetic, caring, and care-free. "Just take him to the Hamptons- I'm sure he'll feel right at home on the beach. It doesn't seem like it's exactly the same situation I'm dealing with- I literally might become homeless!" I'm getting frustrated at this point- Javier and Louisa come from money, and they couldn't possibly understand what this feels like.