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Emma had fallen asleep right behind Liam, her gaze focused on his relaxed, sleeping face. Some men looked boyish when they slept, but not Liam. He was still sexy as hell in her eyes, but still harbored some hard edges that could be seen even when he was relaxed. But those edges only made her care for him more...for whatever reason, everything about him spoke to her.
He'd been exhausted and for a little while she'd enjoyed his warmth and let his even deep breaths lull her to sleep. Sometime in the early morning hours, one of them had stirred and naked bodies had pressed and made love again, lazy and sweet. He'd made her feel cherished and loved, bringing tears to her eyes, making her heart swell all over again. When it had been over, they'd slept again in a tangle of arms and legs until Emma finally woke a few hours later once more with a soft groan. She ached in all the right places. A sweet ache that reminded her of everything they had shared that night.
His face was pressed to her belly, his arms wrapped around her waist as her fingers tangled in his hairi. His rough stubbly face tickled her flesh with each little breath she took and she smiled, ruffling his hair. "Liam...time to get up." She murmured, glancing at the bright digits of his bedside clock. "We have just enough time to shower and change before we have company."
The thought sobered her a little. It was the end of their fantasy evening and back to reality. Wiggling out from under him, she pressed her lips to his mouth in a soft morning kiss and then slid off the bed, grasping one of his hand and tugging. "Come on...come shower with me real quick. You can keep me warm in that cold ass shower of yours."
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He dreamt that he was walking with Emma down one of the city's streets, holding hands and looking in shop windows. They weren't running, they were walking. No furtive glances. No hanging in the shadows. No SPFs.
Just walking.
They were smiling and laughing with each other. He couldn't make out the conversation, but they were happy and playful. Like any couple.
Any couple
in love
.
He couldn't remember how they'd fixed their problem. He knew they had because they wouldn't be so happy otherwise. They paused at a shop window, a clothes store.
Emma's lips were moving, but he couldn't hear what she was saying. She was pointing at the shop window with her free hand and then gesturing to him and rolling her eyes in mock laughter. Obviously his clothes. She wanted him to get new clothes.
Hansen thought that a few pairs of jeans, some shorts, some t shirts and a coat or two were wardrobe enough. He always had. Except when he was working.
For the government.
He'd needed different clothes for that. Uniforms. Boots. Body armour. He didn't need those anymore. He was happy and he was with Emma.
They stood in front of the shop window, Emma throwing knowing glances at the window and Hansen resisting her exhortations to go into the store and take a look. He had an annoyed look on his face, but he was happy.
Happy
.
Not a word he used often or a feeling he felt often. He still had the melancholy air inside of him at the loss of his family, but Emma had lifted the black cloud of depression from him. He could truly call himself happy now. At least as happy as he could be.
He started to move away from the shop window, knowing that if he stayed there any longer then it was conceivable that Emma would convince him to buy new clothes and he didn't want that. He felt her tug on his arm as she failed to move. He looked around at her,
let's go
written on his face.
She wasn't looking at him. She was looking at the window. The glass was highly reflective in the sunshine and Hansen had to squint to try and get a better look at what she was trying to make out. The clothes weren't so clear now. Emma moved closer to the window and took Hansen with her, reluctant to let go of his hand. He stepped closer with her.
What was that?
He thought he heard a voice in his head, but he must have been mistaken. The Voice had left him a long time ago. Laura had seen to that. And Emma's love.
Shit. There
. He'd said it.
Love
.
Nothing good could come of that and he tried to push it from his mind. It was not safe for him to love or be loved. Everything he'd loved in his life had died. Sure, he had Carl, Laura, Bonnie and the others, but anything that was his, that he'd been charged with protecting, had always died.
Always.
At least he had Emma.
But don't love her. Just take each day as it comes and cherish it.
Don't love her.
They were really close to the glass now, so close that their noses were almost pressed against the window in their efforts to see inside more clearly. Now he could just see through the reflection. There were various mannequins in the window. He looked more closely at them.
Shit.
He squinted his eyes further, straining to see, holding Emma's hand more tightly.
The mannequins. He knew them. Who they were. One was Carl. There was Bonnie. A Laura. A Jimmy. There was even a Mrs. Chan. He knew he must be seeing things. His gaze scanned the display. Those ones....
Jess.
Cassie.
What the fuck?
His grip on Emma's hand tightened. He could feel her make a sound. Too hard, but he couldn't make out the words. The last mannequin.
Emma.