Chapter 1 – Life's a bitch, or a bastard
She falls for her best friend. He is her salvation, and the cause of her pain, all rolled into one...
Note from Buzzlegirl – this is a story in 4 parts. There isn't much sex in this part, it's a bit of a slow build up, but worth it in the end I hope. This is my first submission, so please do vote and leave comments, I'd love to hear what you think and whether it's worth my trying anymore!
With lots of thanks to luvtaread for her superb editing skills.
This latest girl was exceptionally beautiful, standing in the kitchen wearing one of HIS shirts over what looked like a very expensive set of lingerie. Slim, long legged, perfect hair despite the early hour on a Sunday; everything a man could want.
"Draven got lucky again"
Alex thought to herself, padding into the kitchen. "
It really doesn't seem fair that she could be that stunning!"
"Hey, could you pass the milk" she said to the beauty, plastering a (hopefully) friendly smile on her face as she walked over to the kettle and flicked the switch.
"Oh, sorry, sure" startled, Beauty turned suddenly, looking down at Alex's reindeer slippers her ex had bought her as a joke, but not bothering to cover up her semi clad body "and you are?"
"I'm Alex, Draven's housemate"
Beauty's eyes widened slightly
"not the answer she was expecting"
thought Alex;
"He didn't mention you were..." Beauty paused, for the first time looking uncomfortable...no...perhaps more unsure than uncomfortable.
"He didn't mention I was at home? Ha ha, don't worry, I didn't overhear anything I shouldn't have, I was listening to music on my headphones" Alex finished for her, making an attempt to be friendly. After all Draven was her best friend and she really had no reason to feel quite so cold towards the girl, it wasn't her fault that Alex had a bit of a problem with beautiful girls; particularly the parade that wandered through the house on a fairly regular basis thanks to his penchant for the type.
"No, he, erm, didn't mention you were a girl" Beauty looked a bit confused for a second, before turning back to the fridge and pulling out the condiments to go with the toast she was making. "I'm Rachel, I'm sure Draven's mentioned me, we work together at the bank" Beauty said, glancing over her shoulder at Alex again, giving her the once over from toe to head before turning back to the fridge, but not before Alex caught the smirk on her perfect lips.
"Of course" Alex lied smoothly – she didn't want to upset the girl, Draven could have mentioned her; now that Alex thought about it, there might have been mention of a Rachel, but then again, there were so many that had 'made Draven's acquaintance' it was hard to keep up!
"Anything for an easy life"
she thought. Actually, that wasn't true and Alex knew it deep down. She did it to keep Draven happy. No matter how she might kid herself, she let him get away with murder for one reason and one reason alone, she loved him and thus she would forgive him pretty much anything, despite how much she might disapprove. Ah unrequited love, is there anything worse, more painful, more humiliating?
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Alex's life was dull. She got up, she went to work at her job in the hospital accounts department where she spent 8 hours moving paper from one pile to another, trying to balance budget with clinical requests; getting moaned at by Doctors for lack of funds for treatments and hospital management for overspends neither of which were her fault. After that heinous experience she would go home, tired and miserable, and lose herself for a couple of hours in the joy of a good book or music, before going to bed and starting the whole cycle again the next day. The highlight of her life would be the occasional evening she got to curl up with Dray on the sofa watching DVDs and just hanging out. That had been her life since she split up with Jamie a year previously.
Jamie, the man responsible for her complete lack of confidence. Nothing had been the same since she came home from work early that day with a headache and walked in to find him fucking some random bitch in their bed.
The bitch had been courteous enough to look contrite and grab her clothes before running out of the room, but Jamie, rather than getting down on his knees and begging for forgiveness as Alex had expected, had been entirely unrepentant.
"What do you expect me to do? It's your fault...you never want to have sex anymore, you're always too tired or too busy. Then when we do, it's the same old shit. I don't know why I even stuck with you this long, it's not like you're worth fucking anyway" his tirade just went on and on getting louder and more hurtful as he got more and more angry.
So, according to him, what Alex had thought was simply a rough patch in their four year relationship was, in fact, something else entirely. It didn't seem to occur to him that she WAS tired, since she was the one out working to support his dreams of becoming a musician...the dreams that involved him being seemingly unable to hold down a full time job for more than a few weeks ("
It stifles my creativity babe, you know"
). She'd done it willingly, she loved him and genuinely wanted him to be happy.
OK, there was the odd moment when she had resented his lack of motivation in the working world, and lord knows they could have used the extra money, but, no relationship was without its challenges. And it was so easy to overlook those faults when he was sitting at the bottom of the bed strumming his guitar, creating something beautiful from thin air. His eyes closed, the melody surrounding him in an erotic fog that made him even more beautiful.
Instead he had 'outgrown' her, he wanted some fun, he wanted someone interesting, exotic, beautiful and good in bed....
"Someone who knows how to please a man, fucking you is like fucking an elephant, except that would be more interesting" Jamie spat at her. Damned if that hadn't raked over her biggest insecurity – she'd always felt inferior to Jamie, he was talented, good looking and she'd always found it difficult to believe that he wanted her despite what he'd always said. He knew how self-conscious she was about her less than waif like appearance and yet he seemed to think it was ok to use that against her. His handsome face was shining with anger, taking perverse pleasure in destroying all her illusions. In bringing her down to nothing, even less than nothing.
She couldn't listen to any more, Alex did the only thing she could think of...she ran.
She walked around for hours, Jamie's angry face swimming in her head, his accusations and spiteful words playing over and over. She found herself outside Draven's flat. She wasn't sure how long she sat there on the bench opposite but the darkness had closed in.
Suddenly he was there putting a coat around her shivering shoulders "Hey Al" he said softly, "why don't you come in and have shower, then you can tell me what's up". He gently pulled her to her feet before shepherding her in out of the rain.
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