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Chapter 8
"What is this?" he demanded, finding his voice at last. "You say you're leaving? But that's impossible, totally unacceptable! I just arrived here a few days ago and I am depending on you to help me. Surely it's not necessary for you to leave now, before breakfast? How will you even reach Carmel? You can't walk it."
"I'm afraid it is. It's not possible for me to stay. I have to leave." Georgia spoke quietly... her eyes downcast, not daring to meet his eyes... she knew she would be lost if she did. "I don't wish to inconvenience you but I cannot see that my presence here is all that necessary. You have no need for a nanny, as you must admit, and your friend is teaching Ellen and Liza how to cook."
"Maybe, not for a nanny, Georgia... but, I have a need for you. You're the one who's held the house together all these months since my uncle died, as far as I can see. And, if you leave now, I am quite sure it will fall apart." Jack was silent a moment, pulling his fingers through his hair and looking at her in confusion. "Look here, Miss Lincoln," he said at last, making an effort to appear businesslike. "There must be some way to keep you here. I'll do whatever it takes, I promise. I'll double your salary, triple it even, to begin with. How's that?"
"But my salary is not an issue, sir. An increase would be welcome, I don't deny, but..."
"Then, consider it increased. I'm sure you're not being paid half of what you've deserved, considering everything you've done. Name your own terms, only say that you'll stay on here for at least a few weeks more. If you still feel you have to leave then, then of course I'll accept your notice. But, please, you can't leave now. You seem to be the only one who knows anything about running this place. Please, reconsider." He was determined to say anything to keep her there.
Georgia knew she should just give a firm and decisive refusal. The longer she waited, the greater the likelihood that her resolve to leave him would weaken, and she would give way to temptation. She knew she would be doomed if she stayed.
But even as she reminded herself of how she felt, she knew it was too late. Whatever strength she had disappeared as he looked at her. She tried to tell herself it was her duty to stay since he needed her so much. It would not be Christian to abandon him in his time of need. Whatever excuses she could think of ran through her heart.
"Well, I don't know," she said hesitantly. "If you really need me..."
"I do need you," said Jack, with such sincerity she forgot everything she had been thinking. Both of them knew there was another meaning to what he had said and it lay there between them like a burning flame. Their kiss lay between them, at once pulling them together, at once pushing them apart.
"If you really need me, I suppose I could stay a while longer." A slight smile passed her lips.
"Good... now that we've settled you're not leaving, there's no reason why you should not join me for breakfast. Please, sit down and I'll pour you a cup of coffee."
"Thank you," she said, sinking slowly into her chair. "I would like something to eat." Her dream had taken a toll... she was still exhausted.
A few minutes later, Ellen brought in a plate of scrambled eggs, hash brown potatoes and a breakfast roll. Jack wondered again why Georgia had gone to such lengths to make herself unattractive. Before he realized what he was doing, he asked the question aloud.
"Why are you so determined to look unattractive?" he asked and then mentally kicked himself, knowing how rude his words were. The last thing he wanted was to make her uncomfortable.
"What do you mean, sir?" she replied, knowing full well what he meant.
More embarrassed than ever, he gestured at her clothing. "Why would you wear such clothes when I've bought you new dresses and the like?"
"Most employers do not wish their servants to look too fine, sir," she said. "It makes their wives uncomfortable."
"I suppose not, but that situation is over and as you may have noticed, I don't have a wife to be jealous. As you stated, I have no need for a nanny but I do have need for a... a friend, someone who can help me. Now, after you've finished eating, why don't you go change and I'll meet you in the library and we can go over the books."
"Yes, sir..."
"Jack..."
She hesitated. "Yes... Jack."
Ever since he had arrived, she had found herself infatuated with him, even though she had tried hard to repress her feelings. Georgia told herself that this desire would have to be forgotten if she was to work for him. It would only lead to despair and heartbreak and if she gave in, who knows what the result would be? She couldn't afford to have a child out of wedlock, and marriage to a white man was unthinkable, no, impossible. She needed to preserve a proper decorum at all costs or it would be the death of her.
As charming as he was, she had no intention to succumb to his charms. She would be a fool if she did. And yet, except for that one excruciating wonderful kiss, he had done nothing improper. She was torn. As much as she was afraid of him, as a woman she wanted his attention.
"I wish to go to Monterey again and hire another girl. How did that work before? Is there a service that my uncle used or did he put an advertisement in the newspaper?"
"There was a service he used. He was most adamant about hiring colored girls to work in the house. I'm not sure why. Perhaps he thought he could save money, I don't know."
"What do you want to do?" Jack asked, watching her expression change as she pondered the question.
"I don't understand your question."
"Do you wish to hire another colored girl or someone else?"
"I don't know if a white woman would want to work with colored girls." She set it before him, letting it sit there.
"I hadn't thought of that. Perhaps we should just stay the way things are, then. Do you have a list of any new things we might need?"
"Yes, as you asked, along with this one from Mr. Doyle. He says we're going to need more flour for he wishes to start making other things besides bread and pies. He also wants corn meal and more ice for the ice box. He's written a list."
"Well, that shouldn't be too much trouble, then. Please write down Milky Way candy bars. I forgot to get some last time we were in town as well as Hershey's Kisses. And, I want to tell the grocery store to bring more cream and ice so we can make some ice cream. And of course, we'll need rock salt. If it's not written down, I'm afraid I forget." Subconsciously, he touched the back of his head where he had been wounded during the War.
"Yes, sir... uh, Jack. Is there anything else?"
"Do you know how to... of course, not. Ask Bill to come here for a moment, will you?"
As she walked out of the library, Jack couldn't help but watch her as she left. He felt himself becoming aroused and chagrined, crossed his legs and scooted closer under the table.
"Ah, there you are, Bill. I was listening to the Betty Crocker show the other day on the radiola and you didn't happen to find a cookbook or something in the kitchen, did you?"
"Not really. I've been just using what I learned during the War and the Boy Scouts. We really could use a cookbook. I'm running out of ideas. We can't eat steak and pie forever, you know."
"Great. We need to hire another girl for the house and maybe a cook, too, unless you plan on staying in the kitchen forever."