Elise woke Thursday morning with a numb emptiness where thoughts of Christian normally resided. The previous night she and Christian came to the end of their relationship. Christian had told her in their video chat that he'd been offered the chance of a lifetime to head up the mining project, a goal he'd invested over a decade of his life for. They'd both agreed that it was too good a chance for him to pass up; they'd only had about a year invested in their time compared to his dozen as an engineer. It had been bittersweet for Elise, but being honest with herself, not a surprise. They'd been drifting apart for a few months as his work had taken him away more and more often. She had been forced, inexorably, to come to terms with who she might really want to be with.
She stayed home all day, thinking of where she was in her life, how she'd been trying to make a go of it with a man that ultimately proved to be unavailable. In contrast, she thought about how she and Robert had been friends for so many years, through each of their loves and losses. She had watched his marriage collapse, held him when his ex-wife moved out, and taking the bitter memories of the miscarriages with her. Robert had carried her through her difficult years in university.
But since Robert seemed to favour slim and athletic women, she'd never given him a second thought, thinking he would never be attracted to her heavier, curvy body. True she'd been doing much more to stay healthy in the past few years; eating better, exercising more, and it had started to show. She'd never be slim and athletic; her body was just not built that way, but her proportions were becoming a bit more aesthetic. She got up, went to the bathroom, and spent a moment looking at herself in the mirror, wondering at Robert's seemingly changing attitude toward her. That last time they were at softball, he seemed to not be able to take his eyes off her. He'd somehow regarded her in a different light, as if he were thinking of her in a very non-friend manner, filling her with confusion and an odd sort of longing.
By the end of the day, she'd made the decision to spend the weekend with Robert. She concluded that there might indeed be something more between them; something she wanted to pursue.
Robert woke Friday morning wondering what this weekend would bring. Hoping to plan a weekend visit with Samantha, he texted her as he ate breakfast.
"Good morning sexy!" he greeted. "How is Jon?"
"He's much better, thx. But now that he's better, I have no excuse to be avoiding my work. I think that it would be better if I spent the weekend getting caught up. "
He offered to go up, but Samantha insisted he stay home:
"No Rob. I know how much you would love to come up, and I would love to be with you. But i really need to focus. Next weekend will be a better time. I have tickets to a local new dance club. Let's go dancing then!" she promised.
"Okay, I understand" he conceded. "I'm off to work now. ttyl."
"I'll be thinking of you. Bye." Samantha wrote back.
Robert choked back his disappointment. Looking forward to being with Samantha carried him through the loneliness and tedium of his week. Once again, he questioned the wisdom of seeing someone who was so far away, in both space and lifestyle. At first, it had been fine, but as her artwork became much more in demand, she had been spending more and more of their weekends up in her studio. He wondered if he should maybe take a step back and give Samantha the space and time she obviously needed. He thought about how this past week he had been having trouble keeping Elise out of his mind. A couple of days ago he'd imagined it was him instead of Christian having that wine weekend with her; romance and sex with someone who wasn't as far or busy as Samantha was.
Pushing those thoughts aside, since they were speculative and getting him depressed, he instead busied himself with trying to plan a solo weekend; a couple of movies, visiting family and maybe trying out the new ball-hockey league. But his weekend planning got derailed when Elise called him just after 9 saying that Christian would have to stay up at the mine, leaving her stranded with two passes to the wine tasting weekend she'd told him about.
"That's a bummer, that he can't make it back home in time," Rob commiserated. "What are you going to do with the tour? Cancel?"
"The tour operator said I couldn't get a refund, just a credit for another time, which sucks. I don't know. Maybe I'll just go alone or something. It's just that I hate the idea of getting the 'oh that's a shame' pity look from the desk clerk when they see I'm alone on a trip for two," she complained. "If only there was a convenient rent-a-man service. I'd give them a call. Shit, if you were free this weekend, I'd rent you," she quipped.
"I am free," Robert said. "Sam and I aren't getting together this weekend either. She has to work."
"Again? Jeez, you aren't seeing much of your girlfriend," Elise observed. She then retracted her criticism.
"I'm sorry for saying that. It was inappropriate of me."
"No," Robert contradicted. "It's true. I don't seem to see much of her anymore."
"Well, if you're alone this weekend, why don't you, ah, join me?"
Robert wondered at the hesitancy in her voice, an almost double-speak where she'd suggested it casually, figuring an easy yes, not expecting a yes, but deeply hoping for a yes.
"Good idea Elise," Robert commented sardonically. "That way we can be alone together."
As soon as the words came out, he realized that what he meant came out as the exact opposite. "Err, I mean that we'll each be alone, without our partners, but togeth-"
"I got it," Elise cut him off; reassuring him that she didn't read anything into it. "I like that; being alone together. Ironic isn't it."
Robert thought about his options. Being home with his planned weekend or heading off to wine country with Elise. Elise thought Robert's pause was hesitancy so she tried to sweeten the deal.
"Look, everything is already paid for so I'm out the money anyway. And I -" Elise stopped, thinking carefully about her words.
"I just don't want to be alone this weekend," she admitted, but holding back about Christian for some reason.