Brent swallowed back pain as he watched Lauren slumber. He had spent the last half an hour reliving a lifetime of memories with this woman. Bouncing between silent laughter and burning tears. Only one common thread...how had they come to this?
It certainly was not from lack of love. Not just on his part either. Even seven years after the divorce, he did not doubt that she still loved him. He remembered that final day, standing outside the courtroom with their solicitors, waiting to be called into the judge's chamber. Against the advice of counsel, he had managed to convince her to speak with him alone.
"Why, Lauren? Why?" he had pleaded. "You know you still love me..."
She could not even look him in the eyes when she answered, but he heard the tears as her voice cracked, "Sometimes even love is not enough, Brent."
It was another of their many differences of opinions. Differences that Brent had always considered their greatest strength - until that day anyway. This woman had always balanced him.
One of his hobbies, as they traveled, was local folklore and religions. Every time he thought of Lauren, it was as the yang to his yin, which had made the last seven years living hell. Only his daughters and the sense of purpose that he felt from his work; in particular, this project had kept him going. Regenesis, as he had named it, was the culmination of his life's work.
Their lives'. And it had felt so strange without her.
Putting into action all the 'crazy' ideas on regenerative culture and sustainable living that they had shared late at night, sometimes freezing in tents, others sweating in huts. All the tidbits that they had assimilated from this culture and that as they explored the world's magnificent wonders together. All of it, alone now.
The tears burned his eyes again as he turned to stare out the window. He wanted to believe that theirs might have a happy ending now. And that this week she had given him, or he had taken, depending upon how you looked at it, that this week would bring them back together.
But over the past seven years, Brent had become jaded, bitter. He had given up hope. Hope in happily ever after. Hope that had once seen him through some of the most devastating acts of Mother Nature and horrific actions of man against man. It had all been stolen from him with the single swipe of a judge's pen on a piece of paper.
Lesser men might have turned to alcohol or drugs. Maybe in some way he had. Maybe that was what his theories and Regenesis was. Nothing but the drugs of a walking dead man.
He knew that she would undoubtedly say so. And he doubted very much that even this latest development would change Lauren's opinion of that.
He turned back from the darkness outside that window to look at her once more in the low light of the cabin. Even after seven years, she was still the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.
Oh sure, she was never comfortable with her freckles and red hair. Ginger, she called it. He could not stop his fingers from reaching out and rubbing a strand between his fingers. It was so much less than he wanted to do. His heart and body pleaded with him to bury his hands in the molten fire. To draw her closer and silence all her protests with a kiss so explosive that it would rate a VEI 8.
Instead, Brent merely laced his fingers through hers as he leaned back and closed his eyes on what he knew would be more dreams of the past. Because that was all, he had...bitter sweet memories of a lifetime with her and two beautiful daughters.
As bitter as they could be, even if he had known how it would all end, he began to hum, "I could have missed the pain, but I'd have to miss the dance." He sighed as he gently squeezed her hand and wished for things that never would be.
***
Lauren came awake suddenly. She gripped something warm, soft, and firm in her left hand. She felt the roll and lurch of the plane as it shifted direction. For a moment, her mind was clouded and confused. Where was she? Then it came crashing back to her like the first wave of a tsunami.
She was on a plane with her crazy ex-husband, her daughters, and her grandmother. They were headed towards some secret location in the United States that Brent would not even disclose to her. All because of another of his ridiculous doomsday theories. A string of volcanic eruptions that would release so much sulfur dioxide into the atmosphere that the earth would be cast into a mini Ice Age.
Lauren berated herself for giving into him. Into them, her grandmother and oldest daughter were in on this too. She should have stood her ground. She should have called the police or the airport authorities or someone. She should have stopped Brent. Looking out into the night sky, enveloped in ominous grey clouds, Lauren cursed her stupidity.
When whatever she was gripping squeezed her fingers back, Lauren turned her head to stare into the most breath-taking blue eyes she would ever see. The eyes that always got her into trouble.
"Where are we?" she demanded.
"We are over the Canary Islands right now. The pilot had to re-plot our route. Katla blew just after we took off. It was not safe to fly the northern route," he explained.
Lauren nodded her head. "Well, Iceland does have the highest concentration of active volcanoes," she justified, knowing that this relatively normal geological event would only play into Brent's ludicrous hypotheses.
He nodded. "I am just hoping that La Palma stays quiet long enough for us to make it across the Atlantic."
Lauren shook her head. "Brent, you of all people should know how common eruptions are along the Mid-Atlantic Ridge. A single eruption no matter how big does not prove anything."
Brent's expression darkened. "Are you willing to listen to me, Lauren?"
With a heavy sigh, she nodded her head. "Brent, you know I have always been willing to hear you out on anything. Even when we don't agree."
Her mind went back to those dark days after Elise's birth. As they began to notice increasing developmental delays in their daughter, they had sought out the experts. Each doctor's visit had seemed to result in another fight.
Brent nodded his head as he opened the laptop that sat on the table in front of them. "I always loved arguing with you, Lauren. No other mind has ever challenged me as yours does. Not since that first day."
His expression softened, and once more, Lauren remembered that little boy who had sat on the green grass, their friends gathered around him as they munched on sandwiches for lunch. Brent was refuting much of the science on space and time travel that their guest lecturer had spoken about in the morning session.