After the first five minutes, the lecture all started to blur together. The headmistress' face turned redder and redder as she paced and ranted in front of me. I should have left earlier. I should have taken note of the wind. I should not have gone so far. I put myself in danger. I put my sisters in danger, because they had to search for me before the storm had gotten so bad they retreated to the temple.
I sat in the uncomfortable, wooden chair, nodding and apologizing. I said I had found an abandoned cottage and I waited out the storm there. I told myself it wasn't even quite a lie. I had always been good at that, whether I wanted to be or not, finding the thread between truth and lie and walking along it.
Besides, it made more sense than believing the hazy, dreamy memories of a sharp-eared fae who kissed me and turned my blood to fire. I moved my tongue around my mouth and tasted him still. And, hidden inside one sleeve, I felt the lone tendril trembling against my arm. I wondered if they got cold. Or if they needed to eat.
What would a magic tendril eat? Dew drops? Wild berries?
Surely not bland porridge and bitter tea.
"Are you even listening, Tiffany?"
"Yes, headmistress."
"Then what did I just say?"
"Of course I'll take on extra chores to repay my sisters for worrying them and putting them at risk," I guessed at and recited my own punishment.
I looked up in time to see her face turn an impossibly darker shade. At least that meant I guessed right.
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I spent the next several days scrubbing the filthiest of plates and floors. The work that involved being bent over so long I could barely stand straight at night. The tendril peeked out from my sleeve in the dark. Its glowing presence was the only thing assuring me I hadn't dreamed up Ichor. I whispered to the tendril that it could return to the others but it only twisted around my finger or zipped back into my robes. It twisted around or burrowed through the bites of food I tried to sneak it. But it seemed to be playing more than eating. I stopped offering after I got in additional trouble for the crumbs scattered around my cot.
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The wooden carrying pole rubbed against the back of my neck, the empty pails on each end swinging back and forth. The day wasn't too warm but I could tell the way back would be miserable. I looked down my sleeve at the blue glow.
"Go on ahead to the river and play," I whispered, "I'll follow."
The tendril shot out and vanished into the greenery straight ahead. I shoved my way through the bramble to the sound of water. A tiny, familiar chorus of noises were nearly drowned out. I finally yanked the buckets and pole through the tangled branches and vines. A mess of glowing tendrils all rattled and twisted together, then apart. Then I heard my name. Ichor stood in the river, his pants rolled up to his knees and his shirt laying on the grass.
"Oh, hi," The greeting came out awkwardly.
My eyes betrayed me and roamed over his body. I had felt him in the dark, but seeing his body was different. For as inhuman as his hair and eyes and ears were, his torso was that of a powerful man. Or, more like a marble sculpture of one. Water glistened on the hard lines defining his muscles. I closed my eyes tight to regain control and opened them just as Ichor's smile somehow turned more devious.
"I take it you're not here to fish with me?"
I shook my head and walked ahead, dropping the pails down on the river edge. I sat down with an exhausted sigh and pulled off my leather slippers so I could put my feet in the cool water. Ichor's steps splashed through the water as he came to stand in front me. He leaned forward when I looked up and kissed me lightly on the forehead.
"I missed you," The words tumbled out and I bit down on my cheek too late to stop them.
"Can we pretend I didn't say that?" I begged at his smiling face.
"Definitely not."
His hands brushed my hair away from my face.
"I missed you, too."
"Why?"
"Why did you miss me?"
I shrugged and wished I hadn't said it at all. Even if it did feel true.
"Why didn't you ask the tendril to bring you to the cottage?"
"I'm in enough trouble as it is. I've been doing nonstop chores. I barely have time to sleep."
I looked at my palms, red and sore from laboring, and leaned forward to dunk them in the water. Ichor took one and looked at it with a worried expression.
"There's a salve I could make you for this."
"No, they'll find it, I won't be able to explain, and it'll make more trouble."
"Hm. How long will they spend punishing you for your inability to control a storm?"
I shrugged and winced, "Until the headmistress decides my punishment ends."
"And you're willingly going to go back to these people?"
Ichor didn't fight me when I pulled my hand out of his grip and returned it to the water.
"It's not that simple," I groaned.
I leaned forward and closed my eyes, ignoring the quiet sound of Ichor sitting down beside me and putting his feet in the water near my own. Neither of us spoke for a few moments. His easy presence made me want to sleep even more. Dreamy, half-formed memories of sleeping on his chest that night made a phantom heat spread across my body. His hair tickled at my arm. I opened one eye just enough to look down at the feeling. Ichor had leaned forward to put his lips lightly on my shoulder.
"Is there anything I can do?" He asked against my skin.
I shook my head and my eyes drifted shut again.
I might've fallen asleep had it not been for the sound of my name. Called by a high, female voice through the trees. I stood instantly and wobbled as my tender feet pressed against the stones along the bottom of the river. Ichor looked in the direction of the sound and I flinched at the beastly growl that rose from his throat. The sound vibrated through me like thunder. I stumbled out of the water and quickly filled the pails. As I put the pole back across the back of my neck, Ichor's hand wrapped around my wrist.
"You don't have to leave," he said in a serious tone.
"I have nowhere else to go," the words slurred together through my exhaustion.
"You could come with me."
I looked up to him and there was no humor in his eyes that shined back all the summery colors around us. All the questions I had were too complicated for me to formulate. I shook my head and wished I hadn't when his hand released me.
"It's not that simple."
My name was called again, closer this time. I sucked in a deep breath and ran toward it. The rattling of a single tendril chased after me. I didn't dare look back at Ichor, too afraid I would take the fae up on his offer if I did.
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However worn thin I looked a few nights later, it was apparently enough to satisfy the headmistress. I nodded along, barely hearing her, as she preached the virtues of my hard work and the lessons I had surely learned. My body was so heavy I could barely stand and so light I felt like I would float away. The impatient dancing of the tendril in my sleeve kept me focused.
The soft glow some nights tempted me with the knowledge that I could ask it to guide me back to Ichor. There was something about him I missed. Something kindred and beyond the physical pleasure of that night.
With leaden feet, I made it to my cot after being excused. I pulled the heavy, dusty curtains shut on each side of me so I could pull off my robes and sleep. A square window peppered with ancient grime let in scant moonlight that spilled over my scratchy blanket. The tendril bounced under the pile of fabric I had pulled off and I held up the layers so it could glide out. It curled up like a cat on the window sill and settled.
I was still uncertain if what it did could be called sleep. The first night in forever I wouldn't have to wake up earlier than everyone else for extra chores. A sigh puffed out of me when I hit the cot and it squeaked under my weight. Even the storms that shook every stone of the temple the next few nights could not wake me.
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The tendril seemed oddly restless. It was a full moon. What had Ichor said about them and the full moon? I opened the window just wide enough for it and waved with my hand.
"It's okay. You can go."