This is another story that, like my previous story 'A View From the Bottom' and others, draws from my personal experience. This time it is a wife who accused me, wrongly and often, of having affairs, and would launch into a screaming, sometimes public, tirade. While you may think these incidents are unreal, believe me they are very real. Other elements of the story are from my imagination and should not be taken as perfect in every way, I may, and probably will, get it wrong. I use these elements as a vehicle in a romance, the getting of two people together. Whether the romance is long lasting, or short-lived, it is still a romance. CM
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"Don't lie to me!" The words were hurled at me from a distance of around ten centimetres. "You have been fucking Paige!" Paige was her younger sister and I wasn't fucking her.
"I have not been fucking her, I don't know where you got that idea from." I said as calmly as I could. This had been going on for the almost all of the five years of our married life, these accusations of infidelity borne of her insane jealousy.
"She told me! That's how I know you've been fucking her!"
I have tried to convince her that she should seek treatment for her jealousy before she really goes off the rails and ends up needing psychiatric care. These moments are balanced out by her loving nature at other times, a loving nature that encourages me to persevere with our marriage, but at times like this I begin to seriously wonder why I bother.
"I have not been fucking Paige. I am not going to stay here and listen to your irrational jealousy, I'm going for a drive while you cool down."
"That's right, you're going for a drive, straight over to her place to cry on her shoulder and tell her what a bitch her sister is, and then she'll get all sympathetic and caring and fuck you."
"Look, if it puts your mind at ease, why don't you call her and you can talk to her until I get back. That way you'll know that I've been telling the truth."
"Don't worry, I will, I'm not going to let you bluff me."
"Take care of yourself and I'll see you in a little while." I would have kissed her but the look on her face told me not to bother. This was the last time I saw Emily alive.
My stress relief driving course took me up into the hills on winding country roads, where even the speed limit can be testing in places. I found that the combination of having to concentrate on my driving, and the adrenalin rush that this brought on, took my mind off my problems, and when I turned back it gave me time to think. My thoughts bore no resemblance to what waited for me when I turned into my street.
There were two cars out front of my house, both with 'red and blues' flashing, and there was an ambulance backed up in the driveway, also with flashing lights.
I pulled up out front and walked up to the front door, there was a policeman standing beside the door who blocked my path. "You can't go in there sir."
"Why not, it's my house?" What was going on. "What's happening here?"
"Just then another policeman came out of the house. "Mr. Holland?"
"Yes, what's happened, why won't you tell me what's happened?"
"I'm Detective Sergeant Peterson, would you come this way sir." He led me into our bedroom. Emily's naked body was stretched across the bed, I assumed that she was dead because no-one was making any attempt to revive her."
"What happened here?" I was shocked at what I saw.
"That's what we thought that you might be able to tell us."
Alarm bells were clanging in my brain, surely they don't think that I had anything to do with this.
"I'm afraid that I know nothing of this, she was fine when I left here about an hour ago."
"Where have you been for the past hour?"
"Well, you see the thing is, we were having an argument and I left her here while I went for a drive to let her calm down." I realised the moment I said it, that they would now elevate me to the top of the list of suspects, a long list of one.
"How long ago did you leave" Peterson asked.
"About an hour ago, give or take a few minutes, I didn't actually look at the time but I remembered that the news had just started on the car radio, so it must have been on the hour."
"That would make it fifty-two minutes ago." He looked at his watch and wrote this in his little book.
"Now this argument, what was that about?"
"She accused me of having an affair with Paige, that's her sister."
"And you of course denied this?"
"Of course."
"Were you having an affair with this Paige woman?"
"No!"
"Of course you wouldn't admit it even if you were, would you?" He asked. Well he asked me, but I got the impression that it was a statement to himself.
"Tell me sir, who packed the dishwasher and set it going?"
"I did, why?"
"Very convenient."
"What has this got to do with Emily's death, come to that, how did she die?"
"We believe that she was poisoned, and by putting the dishes into the dishwasher, any chance we might have of finding traces of the poison, or fingerprints have been effectively erased. "I think Mr. Holland, that you should accompany us to the station. I am arresting you on suspicion of murdering your wife Emily Holland, anything you say may be taken down and used in evidence against you,"
"Yeah, I know, I can contact my lawyer and all that."
"I'm sorry sir, but I have to tell you your rights in full."
"Get on with it then." He did, and then he put handcuffs on me and led me to a waiting police car. To the neighbours and onlookers, I was guilty, it's hard to look innocent when you're being led off in cuffs.
I was formally charged and I was allowed to call my lawyer who came as soon as he could.
George McTiernan and I sat in an interview room. "First things first, did you do it?"
"No."
"Right, now that's out of the way, let's get down to the nitty-gritty. What evidence do they have for reaching the conclusion that you're guilty?"
"Emily and I had one of our regular arguments this morning, and I went for a drive to calm down and give her a chance to calm down. When I got back she was dead and the police were there. Before I left I had stacked the dishwasher and turned it on, they say it was to erase any evidence."
"When did you do that, was it before or after the argument?"
"Before, why?"
"How long does it take to complete the full cycle?"