1. All characters are 18+
2. No characters resemble real people
3. Enjoy the fiction
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CHAPTER 11
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That week, for the first time since we started, Serena and I did not have intercourse. Every time I started to kiss her, or she kissed me, it made her sad and we couldn't continue further. The furthest we got was on Thursday of that week, where we were both shirtless. I was squeezing one breast and was teasing the other nipple with my mouth, when she suddenly started sobbing uncontrollably. I immediately stopped and held her in my arms tightly, until she calmed herself.
I was sad too, but I guessed I was controlling it better. She had said on that Sunday night that she wanted to make the most out of our remaining days together, and we did a lot of fun things together each of those days. Monday, I made her a delicious dinner that we ate on my back patio by candlelight. Tuesday, she surprised me at work, bringing a nice lunch that we ate together. Wednesday, I left work a little early and we drove back to the lake, and watched the sun set over the tree line and the water. That Thursday, she had put on a brave face and was determined to make love to me, but it didn't work out.
That brought us back to Friday, the penultimate performance of The Revelations of Eloise. Based on the last few days, I was starting to think Serena might be an emotional mess, and we'd have to promote Betsy from her understudy role. But she surprised me by going out on stage and performing like there was nothing wrong at all. It was enough of a shock to me that it made me stumble on my first line, which she poked fun at me later on for. It was reassuring that she was able to push aside her personal life and still put on a flawless, extraordinary show, but at the same time it was a little disturbing that she was so easily able to compartmentalize her emotions.
That night at home, after the show, she gave me a peck on the cheek and went to bed early. Despite my fatigue, I sat up for a few hours and railed at myself in my head. Didn't Eric warn you about this? I remember his exact words: As soon as the show's over, she'll be gone, and you'll be sad. He directly told me not to get attached. I hadn't listened to his advice, Eric's predictions had come true.
The only upside I could see was that I'd have all of Sunday with her, before she left on Monday morning. We could do whatever she wanted. I had also called off for Monday morning so I could see her off, on her way back to the big city. But it was only one day, I thought. Then she'd be gone forever. I put my hands over my face and sobbed quietly to myself.
I didn't make it to bed that night. Eventually exhausted, I had fallen asleep on the couch. When I woke up, Serena was sitting on the floor next to me. "Hi," she said, trying to smile.
"Hi." I sat up and stretched. Sleeping on the couch was not helpful to my back muscles.
"I missed you in the bed last night."
I felt angry for a moment. I was angry at her for expecting me to be okay with this. I was angry at myself for falling in love with her. I was angry at the world for putting me in this situation. I felt my fists clench, then I relaxed them. "I'm sorry, I just... had a lot on my mind."
It was a weak, vague excuse, but Serena didn't need any more explanation. She just nodded, and said, "Okay. Do you want breakfast? Or lunch?"
I looked around. "What time is it?"
"11:00. I've been up for a bit, but I let you sleep."