I went to work Monday morning, but it was hard to get work done, or think about anything productive, since I was still thinking about Serena. How much fun we had in the last few days, and in the last month since we met. How close we came to disaster over the weekend. How it would hurt when she left. I did tell her we could forget about when we had said we loved each other, but that didn't mean that I wasn't still in love with her.
Mid-day, I got an email from Jen, updating me on her talk with Heather. Heather had been surprised to hear Jen was gay, and more surprised that Jen was in love with her, and had asked for time to process it. Jen understood, but was worried that she'd just lost her best friend. I replied that, even if Heather didn't feel the same, I was sure Heather would still continue to be her friend. I didn't know it with certainty, but I truly hoped for the best for them both.
It was now Tech Week, a week of final rehearsals. I grabbed a quick bite after work and went straight to the theater. Serena was already there. I found her on stage, stretching and doing vocal warm-ups. Betsy was watching like a buzzard from off-stage. Chuck was running around, answering hundreds of questions, resolving little issues. Lights and microphones were being set up. It was controlled chaos. It was a circus, and Chuck was the ringmaster.
I patted him on the shoulder as I passed by. "How are we doing?" I asked.
"Ugh, fine. Pat, can I see you after rehearsal? I want to talk to you about something."
I nodded. "Of course, anything for you." I meant it. Chuck was a good friend and a mentor for the theater.
We rehearsed the whole show that night. Not just the music and the acting, though. The light cues, the costume changes, the entrances and exits, every detail. Serena and I had our witty back-and-forth banter down, and my dancing was now more than adequate. We went late that night, but by the end, we were much closer to ready, and we were all exhausted. Chuck gave us all last-minute notes before dismissing us at almost 11:00, apologizing for the late hour.
He sat down in the back of the auditorium and I went to sit next to him.
"Pat. Do you know how long I've been doing this?"
I took a guess. "Twenty years?"
He huffed. "Twenty-eight. Twenty-eight years, 5 shows a year." Then he looked at me. "I'm retiring, Pat."
"What? No. What will we do without you?"
He shrugged. "I'm sorry. I can't do this forever. I'm telling you first. The others don't know yet," he gestured to the stragglers who were still leaving the auditorium.
"Not even Betsy?" I asked. Betsy was a regular, in every show.
"No," he said. "I know she loves the theater, but I know she's also difficult to work with. She seems like she might want to take over my job, but I don't think that's right for the theater."
I saw where this was going. "You want me to do this? Chuck, I can't. I have a day job. You know I love the theater and this building. But I can't replace you."
Chuck sighed. "I need someone who loves theater and loves people, and who wants to bring the art to the masses. You've seen this town. Some people, this is the most culture they get. We're not the city. We don't have art museums and orchestras and ballet."
I nodded, and we sat in silence for a minute. Serena was the last to leave. She saw us and waved, and I waved back, before she left us behind.
"When are you telling people?" I asked Chuck.
"I was thinking of Saturday," he answered. "At the Gala. I'll tell them that I'll do one more year. Next summer's show will be my last show as director. Then someone else can take over in the fall."
Serena was waiting in the parking lot for me. "What's going on?" she asked.
I hesitated, but I figured it was okay to tell her. "Chuck's planning on retiring. He's not making it public knowledge, but he's going to spend one more year as director."
Serena smiled. "But that's good, right?"
"Good for him."
She caught my meaning, and looked down. "Ah. You're worried about the theater without him."
"Yeah." I shifted my feet. "So why are you still here so late?"
"Waiting for you. I wanted a good night kiss." She leaned in, and I gave her a tender kiss under the starlight.
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The rest of the week was pretty tiring. Work all day, then rehearsal all evening. Serena and I agreed that, even though we wanted to jump each others' bones after rehearsal nights, we should save our energy. She wasn't currently working a day job, and she understood that I needed sleep. The nice part was when she visited my office mid-day Wednesday, bringing lunch for both of us. It was nice to share a meal with someone who wasn't a co-worker. The work stress melted away, at least for an hour, as I ate in the glow of her lovely smile.
"I found a dress yesterday," Serena told me. She hadn't known there would be a Gala this Saturday, so she hadn't brought one from her apartment in the big city.
"Oh?" I asked. "What color? Should I wear a matching tie?"
"It's a black dress, so wear whatever tie you want. It'll match your suit."
"Which shop did you find it in?" I knew she'd spent hours on Monday perusing the dress shops in town for something she liked.
"Actually, I went to my friend's shop... in the city." She looked at me expectantly.
"You took a day trip?" I was a little surprised, but only a little. I hadn't expected her to go back until after the show, but as it wasn't very far away, a quick trip and back wasn't unthinkable.
"Yeah. I picked up the dress, and visited my apartment, and had lunch." I saw her hesitate before she continued. "With Frank."
Frank was her father-turned-manager. "What did he say? Is he still asking you to return to the city?"
"Of course he is. I told him I'm still busy until after Eloise is wrapped up."
"Good."
"After lunch, I went back to the apartment and just sat for a while. And do you know what I thought?"