I was driving us home from the party. Barbara was unusually quiet and pensive. She looked out the window at the streetlights, arms crossed over her chest, not talking at all. I left her alone, knowing that she would eventually say what was on her mind.
As we crossed over the river, she turned toward me and said, "Are you attracted to younger women?"
I glanced at her lovely, intense face and said, "Yes, of course. Sometimes."
She looked back out the window. "Why?" she asked, simply.
"Well," I said, turning right onto an arterial, "young women can be very beautiful. Not all of them are, of course, but youth is a great advantage. Most young people, both female and male, are attractive. It's why the species continues."
"I saw you with that girl tonight. I am not jealous. You know my principles."
"What girl?"
"The tall blonde with the large breasts."
I thought for a moment. "Emily Reese. She's the Dean's daughter."
"She liked you. I could tell. It was how she looked at you. She looked at you how I look at you."
"Is this where you tell me that I am an attractive man despite my age?"
"You
are
an attractive man," she smiled a bit, "despite your age."
"So are you," I said, "attractive. But you're a woman," my eyes flashed to her splendid legs, "obviously."
Barbara is very direct. It is a reason I love her. "Do you find me attractive
despite
my age?" she asked with some asperity.
It was like perfect timing. I pulled the car into the lot next to the park, stopped, and turned off the ignition. "Let's go for a walk," I said, opening the door.
She looked at me like I had just said
I am Jesus, returned unto this world to smite humankind
.
"C'mon," I said, "It's nice out. We can talk."
We walked through the trees and then down the long grassy bank toward the lake. The moon was very full and bright. Barbara's beautiful face glowed softly in the light. I said, "I won't begin to argue how much more attractive you are than Emily or any other young girl." We were holding hands. "That should be obvious: the emotional ties we share, your intelligence, your maturity..."