Laura and I met right before my senior year in high school, she was only 15 and I was 17. We laughed and talked all night and decided to go on a date the following night. I knew that night after watching her look up at me that I was in way over my head.
We dated all through my senior year and part of the following year before we broke up and didn't see each other but a couple of times. Each time we did, we fell back into bed and would see each other until we would get into an argument and not see each other for several months.
This went on for a couple of years and then one night she called me out of the blue and asked me to come over. I went over and we again fell into bed once again. We made love that night and I brought her to several orgasms and I came inside of her and it felt so right to be there with her. I wanted her to be mine and had to tell her. I asked her to marry me and after, she started crying. I asked her, "what's going on now"? Her reply was "look over into the closet".
I had never been able to stay with her before because we would always fight. I had missed her so much over the years and wanted to finally stay together, but in the closet were her wedding invitations! My heart fell and I asked her, "why the hell did you call me tonight if that's what you have planned"?
Her tearful response was, "I just wanted to know if I could get married and not find out if I was over you." I told her that I wanted her to be my wife and if she would, I would marry her next week, but for reasons that I didn't know at the time, she told me that it just wasn't going to happen.
I left heartbroken that night, realizing that the only woman I had ever loved was going to marry someone else and that we would never see each other again.
I did my best to move on, it just never happened. Sure I dated other people, came close to getting married to a few, but my heart still belonged to Laura.
I had recently been cheated on by my present girlfriend and had two others that wanted to date me again and I had had enough. I buried myself into my work and had decided I would just stay single for a while when two of the girls that I had dated asked me to marry them....yeah I know, but it's the truth.
A good friend of mine was having a birthday party and asked me to attend and I said I would. That night at the bar, both girls that had asked me to marry them as well as the bitch that had cheated on me were there and I felt like I was being stalked. I sat down with a friend of mine and told her to act like we were together to try and keep the girls from bothering me.
It worked until the friend said she had to leave but for me to stay at her table because she was expecting a friend that would be there shortly.
I said I would and she left and I went to the men's room. When I came back out, some girl was sitting in my chair and I said, "I know this is going to sound funny to you with the song that is playing, but pardon me miss, that really is my chair!"
She laughed and said that she was waiting for her friend to come back and this was her table. I told her that I had been asked to wait for her and to tell her that our friend would be back shortly. Each of the girls that I was running from kept circling the bar trying to get me to talk with them.
I was miserable and wanted nothing to do with anyone at the moment. The girl sitting with me kept trying to get me to dance and I kept trying to pawn her off to a buddy of mine who refused. I finally decided to go dance with the girl and while we were out on the floor, a slow song came on.
While we were dancing, she felt really good in my arms and we just stayed out on the floor for several dances.
That night after closing, we walked out to the cars and she asked if I wanted to go somewhere to talk. We got in my truck and rode around for a few hours and I felt safe with this girl. No pressure at all and I just kept on talking.
We dated for a short while before I asked her to marry me and that day at the wedding, I had an uncle tell me, "I will give you $2000 to get into your truck and run off because I can tell that you don't really want to get married." I told him he was nuts and that I was going to get married! Man, I should have listened to him.
We got married and I was never happy. I knew in my heart that I still was in love with Laura, but I stuck it out for as long as I could. Two children and 12 years later, I divorced the woman after I got hurt on the job and she told me that her husband would have to have a job. Since I was medically retired and would never be able to work again, I told her, " well I don't know who you are going to be married to, but it obviously won't be me anymore."