Thomas. That was all she said. He said hello to her in that sexy voice of his. She asked him how he was. He told her he was fine, doin good, but he missed her so much. She said really, did I go somewhere, change my number, forget my email? She wasn't going to make this call easy for him. He told her he had been busy, so busy he could never find the time to be alone with her. Funny she thought, how hard is it to make a phone call, send a quick message, a short email. He must be horny she thought. Damn the bad luck, she just took care of herself. She almost felt bad for thinking that way. Maybe he just called to say hi and tell her he missed her and still wanted her.
He asked her how she was doing. If she had thought of him and their time together. He wanted to ask her if she still felt the same way, but he held back. He wanted her. The sound of her voice when she said his name had made him rock hard. He toyed with the idea of having a little phone sex with her. He knew he could get her turned on and make her cum for him.
She answered his questions, she was doing fine, yes she thought of him, yes she grinned, she thought of their time together. She could feel herself starting to get aroused again, but she was not goin to let him know that. Little did she know, he could tell she was aroused by the sound of her voice, just as she could tell he was aroused by the sound of his voice.
They made small talk for a while longer, their kids, their jobs, even the weather. They both side-stepped what it was that they really wanted to say to each other. So silly, for the two of them to act that way, but this was new to the both of them. When you are married, and a situation like this arises, it is hard on both sides to really do what each other wants the other one to do. She wants him just to love her, but feels like he only wants her for the sex. He wants her to love him, but doesn't know how to say it. They neither one spoke of breaking up their families. They both knew it was to soon for that, no matter how long they had known each other. They were both so into their children that they would do whatever was necessary for their children's happiness, putting their own aside. Yet, they found the happiness in each other that they needed, now how do they deal with it.
She wanted to say so many things to him. He wanted to say so many things to her. She felt like she had already said to much. He spoke her name, Emily, he said, I want you, I need you, to hold you, to touch you, to kiss you. She knew when he said her name, that she would give into him, so she decided to make a move, if they were going to be together again, this time she would decide when. She told him that she wanted him too. To touch him, to taste him, to hold him, to kiss him.
Then she told him, if you want me, it is going to have to be different this time. You can't just make love to me and then leave me, no communication until you want me again. I am not a yo-yo. I have feelings, and you already know how I feel about this. I would love nothing better than to spend time with you, you know that. We don't even have to make love, even though I don't see us being alone in the same room together and not doing just that. She held her ground. She was scared to death as she told him this. That was the thing about him, she always told him to much. She never held anything back from him. To her, he was not only her lover, but her confidant, her soul-mate, her other half.
He listened to her as she spoke her terms. He felt a bad that he hadn't contacted her intimately since that time. He knew that he should have done more, said more, he just couldn't. He didn't know how to say what it was that he really wanted to tell her. How she meant more to him than she will ever know, just how special she was to him, and no he didn't want her just for sex. She too was his friend, he told her things that he never told anyone else. Things that he knew he could tell her and she wouldn't judge him, or turn from him. He knew that she accepted him for who and what he was and wanted nothing less or more. Well, she did want more, but the only thing she wanted more of was his time. Is she asking more than I can give her right now, he asked himself?
After she finished saying what she wanted to say. She added one line. I just would like to just really know how you feel about me right now. He was speechless. What did he say to her, how did he say it to her? He told her that he cared a lot for her, and wanted to spend time with her, but things were so difficult now for him. He had so much going on. He was trying to make time for her, but asked her to understand that it was difficult for him. She told him it is not easy for me either, but I do manage, and somehow are here whenever you want me. She did not want to get into an argument with him. She hated confrontation of any kind.
He asked her to give him a little more time. He told her again that he cared for her, called her his baby, whispered in her ear, "Baby, I need you". She said , "My baby, I need you too". Then she said, and don't think you are goin to get out of answering me. I think that at least you owe me that much.
He laughed, that was his baby, headstrong and not giving up. Damn he wanted her now more than before. She smiled, oh yes, there is my baby, trying so cleverly to get out of answering my question.
How well they knew each other. They could almost finish each others sentences. They could tell their moods by just one word. They were so in tune with each other, no wonder they were both scared. Will he tell her the answer she wants to hear. Is she strong enough to continue on their friendship if he doesn't? How long are they going to dance around this? How long is she going to let him get away with evading her questions? Is he going to wait to long and loose her? Will he figure out what it is wants with her? Will they ever go back to their cabin?
Chapter 5
Two weeks had passed, oh she heard from him everyday. They talked of everything still, but not what she really wanted to hear. She cried until her tears were gone, then she decided to go to their cabin. That is how she had began to think of that wonderful place, their cabin. She had not been there since that day they had made love. Oh they had made love since, phone calls had turned to steamy moments of passion. She had often pleasured herself with him in her mind, and he had told her that he had done the same.