She didn't sleep again. For the third night in a damned row.
The morning light came through the sheer curtains on her windows and Aymie groaned, pulling the sheets up over her head to hide from it. She was certain the sun would burn her, after her behavior Tuesday night. She played the scene over again and again in her head, tingling from head to toe with sensation at the memory of Mr. Davis's touch. His kiss. His urgency. It made her tighten ever time she thought about it. And she couldn't. Stop. Thinking about it.
And yet, there was a crippling guilt associated with it all. She felt so dirty, like a little slut who got from another man what she couldn't get from her boyfriend. God, it was sick. Derek loved her, he cherished her and treated her like a queen, and how did she repay him? By getting hot and heavy with her older neighbor up against the door of her car?
Fucking slut.
She groaned and rolled out of bed, tugging on a pair of lounge shorts and a tank top. Her hair was wild and plastered over her face so she pulled it up into a pony, made a pit stop at the bathroom, and trudged out to the kitchen to start the coffee maker. To her surprise, Rosaline was already up and waiting with two steaming mugs on the table. One for her, and one for Aymie.
"Morning sunshi - Honey, what's wrong?"
Aymie winced. Her mother could always see right through her, and she certainly wasn't giving off her usual chipper energy this morning. She pulled out a chair and took the mug from her mother, breathing in that heady, energizing scent of java.
"Nothing, ma. Just...bad sleep, I guess."
Rosaline eyed her scrupulously. "I call bullshit. Talk to me, baby. Did something happen? Did Derek do something?"
Aymie shook her head. "No, Derek didn't do anything, ma. He's perfect, just like always." She sipped her coffee and felt her mother's eyes boring into her skull, so she looked up and met them. "Can I ask you something weird?"
Rosaline nodded, stirring her coffee with a spoon.
"What constitutes cheating in a relationship?"
Her mother stilled, lofting a brow and looking up at Aymie with the look. She stared Aymie down for a long moment before looking back down. "Hmm, I think that depends on the relationship, honey. It depends on what you and your partner have decided your limits and boundaries are."
Aymie tilted her head. "What do you mean?"
"Well...sometimes when you're seeing someone, you want to be entirely exclusive just with them. No dating other people, no fooling around with other people. It's just you two." She sipped her coffee. "Other times, relationships are more open. You can date around, experiment with others, sometimes even have open sex with other people. But at the end of the day you're still with the one person."
"What about with Derek and me?" she asked, lifting her mug up to her lips.
"Well, honey, Derek and you are exclusive, right?" When Aymie nodded, she continued. "If you're exclusive, you don't fool around with anyone else. You don't touch, kiss, or fuck anybody else but him. If you want to go to extremes, you really shouldn't even be thinking impurely about anyone else."
"So...hypothetically, if I kissed someone else behind Derek's back...that would be cheating."
Rosaline lifted that brow again. "I think so, yes. Hypothetically."
Aymie's chest tightened up at that and she nodded, trying to mask what she could from her mother. "Yeah, I kind of thought that too. I guess that just...means that we share something special, that we only want to be with each other. Nobody else. Just us."
Rosaline looked at her closely before nodding her agreement. "That's right. It takes a lot of commitment to be in that type of a relationship, Aym. And the fact that you two have stuck together for two years already means it is something special." She wheeled herself over to Aymie's seat and patted her on the cheek. "Don't let him go, honey. He's a good boy. He deserves a good girl, like you. You are perfect together."
A good girl like her. Yeah, right.
Rosaline wheeled herself over to the sink, setting her mug down in it and then made her way across the room towards the bathroom down the hall.
"Let me know if you need any help, ma," Aymie called to her.
Rosaline's 'mhmm' came back and Aymie was alone with her thoughts in the kitchen. Leave it to her mother to make her feel even worse than she already did. She was a cheater. That realization made her sick to her stomach. She couldn't even believe her own behavior from the other night. Something had just...come over her. Seeing Mr. Davis walk away called her to action in a way that she had no preparation for. It was undeniable, irresistible, and before she could even think she was nearly running at him. Those moments, however brief they were, were burned into her mind and she couldn't stop thinking about them, no matter what she tried.
God, his mouth. She had an inkling that the man could kiss but she had no idea how good it would feel. It was like he was laying ownership to her lips just with that kiss, but was also hungry for her flavor. He matched her hunger, like he was just as desperate for her as she was for him. And the feel of his hands on her body, holding her so tight and so sure, with a grip that possessed and controlled her, made every single bone in her body want to surrender to him.
But above all that, her body's reaction to him is what got to her the most. The instant that they made contact, the very moment that their lips met, she felt herself respond. There was no gentle build up to her desire, it didn't take time to develop or grow, it was instantaneous. Her body snapped to attention at his touch, as though every nerve were hypersensitive. When he pinned her up against the car and she heard the growls of satisfaction in his throat, she felt such a sense of purpose, of meaning. Like in that moment, all she wanted to do, all that she was meant to do was anything she could to hear that sound again. To know that she was pleasing him and making him feel good. It was all she wanted, all she could think about. She wanted to submit to him, and let him make good use of her.
By the time she made it back to the front door, her wetness had begun to drip down her inner thighs. Just from a kiss! She had never been that wet before, that turned on and ready and eager. He drew out some inner, primal siren in her that begged for more, pleaded with her to turn around and go back to him, to get more of his flavor and his touch.
It had never felt this way with Derek. Ever.
That was the fact that kept haunting her. She and Derek were in love, and had been having sex for well over a year now, and the sex was good. No, the sex was great. It was hot and it was passionate and it was loving and orgasmically great. But it wasn't like what she felt when Mr. Davis had her in his grip. It didn't even come close. That fact scared and excited her.
Fuck, it was only 9 in the morning and she wanted a drink. Or to run a mile. Or to drive to the opposite side of the state and get as far away from her neighbor as she possibly could. How was she ever going to live with herself? Should she tell Derek? Come clean about the whole thing and beg his forgiveness? After all, it was only a kiss. Surely he would forgive her.
In her heart of hearts, Aymie knew that was a lie. It was much more than a kiss. Mr. Davis touched a part of her that was so deep, so hidden and so pure, she knew she'd never forget it. And she'd likely never be satisfied by anything less than that ever again. Should she just resign to that? Let her mind play out its fantasies, masturbate until she fell into exhaustion, and entertain the thoughts until they ran their course? That way she could get rid of his nagging pressure in her chest, and the even more urgent ache in her pussy.
Her mother called to her from the other room, and Aymie hopped up to go over and help with whatever she needed. Poking her head in the bathroom door, Aymie was met by a wall of steam and the smell of her mother's body wash.
"What's wrong, ma?"
"Nothing, honey, I just wanted to let you know we're having some of the neighbors over tonight. I wanted to have a block party to celebrate Spring coming. So if you wouldn't mind tidying up the house a bit while I'm at work today, I'd be really, really grateful."
Some people coming over. A block party. Guests from the neighborhood.
Aymie's pussy clenched so tightly, it nearly hurt.
"Yeah...okay...th-that's fine, ma. Wh-Who all is coming, do you know?"